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Bloody nurse

Chapter 5

Yuuki felt like her whole life was leading up to this moment. The time came for her to finally be able to pay back for her current life. She'd surrender, no matter what he did...

She tightened her hold on Kaname's hand and grabbed his wrist with her other hand. She didn't want him to pull away.

She buried the side of her face deeper into his strangely cool palm. It actually felt quite soothing. Yuuki wanted to distract herself from the pain that would come when Kaname finally sank his fangs into her neck. She knew what it felt like to have your blood sucked out of you. She had plenty of practice with that...

But she had no idea what to expect from a pure blooded vampire. Yuuki tried to imagine a different kind of pain. She tried to picture a certain type of venom spreading through her system. Or would she simply drift off into unconsciousness?

While thinking about these things, Yuuki didn't even notice Kaname ceasing all his actions. He pulled his face away from the collar of her shirt and studied her serene face, with his still blood-red eyes.

"Yuuki…"

Nothing. Yuuki didn't even realize he wanted her attention.

"Yuuki, look at me," he said a bit more firmly.

Yuuki slowly opened her eyes, almost reluctantly. She was decided, what else did he want? Confirmation? Some papers signed, perhaps?

She looked up at Kaname's face, gasping as she once again saw those blood red eyes of his, not being used to seeing them on his usually calm, gentle face.

His gaze was searching for something but what, she didn't know.

"Kaname…sama?" she asked in a timid voice.

Kaname ran the thumb of his right hand over Yuuki's cheek and slowly shook his head. His face was sat in a deep scowl, his voice sounded deeper than usual.

"Your blood, Yuuki, it's calling me. It's luring me in. It makes me insane, irrational…" he trailed off and closed his eyes for a brief moment, as if praying for patience. When he opened them again, he continued.

"I was glad that Kiryuu stopped me back then. I lost control at that time… I lost control," he took a deep breath and growled out, "just like I'm losing it now."

Kaname's breathing became labored and his hand, which was still against Yuuki's face, was shaking. His eyes became unfocused and his fangs lengthened.

Yuuki only watched in wonder, as he lowered his head to her neck again, sliding his hand from her cheek down to the other side of her throat, and his left hand ended up on her waist, massaging her skin through her uniform.

Yuuki closed her eyes and parted her lips slightly, as this strange yet wonderful feeling filled her chest. Her heart sped up again, causing her blood to travel faster through her veins.

Kaname noticed this really quickly. He growled into her neck and Yuuki shivered involuntarily. He parted his lips and pressed them to her heated skin, drawing her closer with both of his hands.

Yuuki tilted her head slightly to give him better access, but that small movement caused him to whimper and pull his head away quickly.

"Why aren't you fighting, Yuuki," he whined, his face scrunched up in pain. "Why aren't you pushing me away, fighting for your human life…"

And at that moment, the clouds moved and made way for the moonlight again.

Yuuki's never seen him in such agony before. He was torn between his lust for her blood and his want to protect her.

The sight brought tears to her eyes. She loved this man before her ever since she was but a child. And now she was the cause of his suffering.

That had to end. No turning back now.

"Kaname-sama, please. Don't torture yourself like that."

Kaname started to shake his head again, his eyes closed.

"Please, I'm not fighting against this. I won't. And you should do the same," said Yuuki in the most gentle voice she could manage.

"No," whined Kaname, shaking his head fiercely.

"Yes," she whispered and took Kaname's face between her hands.

"No, Yuuki, you don't know what you're saying."

"I know exactly what this means, Kaname-sama. I'm aware of the consequences. But I don't care. I want you to- "

"No!" he suddenly exclaimed, pushing Yuuki's back into the wood of the door, almost painfully. Yuuki grabbed fistfuls of his silken shirt in surprise, his eyes boring into hers.

"I'm not like that, Yuuki. I'm not! I'd never stoop so low… I'm not like other Level E vampires, who wouldn't think twice about sinking their fangs into your delicate flesh! I'd rather take my life than put you through what HE has!"

"Zero isn't a Level E!"

"Yet! But that doesn't stop him from draining your life out of you, now, does it!" he stopped and only continued to breathe heavily.

Yuuki only watched as Kaname was evidently trying to calm down. She didn't dare say a word. His rage was usually a quiet thing. Holes through the walls, trees torn down, windows shattered…but never shouting, no raising of voice. Only silent terror, while the world around explodes. His shouting right in her face wasn't like him at all…

"I don't," he continued in a much calmer voice, "I don't want anyone to take vitally important…things…away from you. Your blood is too precious to be spilled…"

Yuuki was amazed by his words. Even though his eyes shone red, she still managed to find something gentle and caring about them. He was still her Kaname. Somewhere beneath all that bloodlust, it was still him. Her savior, her protector.

Her love.

Yuuki slowly lifted her right hand and placed it back against his left cheek.

Kaname sighed in contentment and leaned into her touch.

"My blood is yours, Kaname-sama. It's always been yours."

At this, Kaname straightened his head and closed his fingers over her lifted wrist.

"And I think that the time has come for you to take some of it back," whispered Yuuki, silently wondering at her boldness.

But Kaname's eyes narrowed dangerously and his grip on her wrist tightened. A small rumble started deep in his throat, slowly escalating into a growl. His fangs lengthened and his upper lip was pulled back, showing his teeth.

At that moment, Yuuki felt as if her heart has stopped.

And suddenly without any warning, Kaname pulled on her wrist hard, to the side, causing Yuuki to lose her footing and she landed on the floor, a few feet away from him, knocking more glasses over in the process.

The sudden unexpected impact with the stained carpet confused her for a few seconds. When she finally realized what happened, she looked back up at Kaname, shock and hurt written across her face.

Kaname stared down at her with a shocked expression of his own. He took a step towards her, his hand reaching for her, palm up.

When suddenly his expression morphed into one of anger again and he clenched that hand into a fist. Small droplets of blood ran down his wrist from where his nails pierced his skin, soaking the cuff of his shirt.

He watched his hand for a moment, taking deep breaths, his chest rising and falling visibly even in the dim light of the room.

"I will not…" he suddenly rasped out. "…has to stop…my control…would've never…"

Yuuki was sure he was talking to himself. This scared the hell out of her. Kuran Kaname never mumbles to himself out loud. If she wasn't so scared at that moment, she would probably laugh. But she feared for his sanity just a little too much for humor.

She didn't dare to move from her position on the floor.

"Kaname-sama?" she asked in the softest voice possible.

But Kaname flinched as if she shouted right in his ear. His wide eyes stared down at her as if surprised to see her there. And then his face morphed into a mask of pain again and he buried his face in his hands.

"Yuuki, my sweet Yuuki…" he moaned into his hands, the sound being muffled by them. "Go."

Yuuki snapped her head to the left as she heard a tiny click and she realized it was the door unlocking itself.

She slowly turned her head back to look at Kaname again. "But-"

"GO!" he suddenly roared, causing Yuuki to jump and the next thing she heard was a loud bang as he slammed the door leading to his bedroom behind him. She didn't even see him move. Only a gentle breeze on her face told her that something moved real fast in the room.

Everything became quiet after that. The only sound in the room was Yuuki's heart again, hammering against her ribcage. She placed a hand over it, forcing it to beat slower. Not that it had any intention of obeying. It always had a mind of its own.

She didn't know how long she sat there on the floor, her legs folded beside her, staring at the door through which Kaname disappeared, but not really seeing anything.

It was a strange hollow feeling, knowing that her human life was so close to its end, but when she finally accepted the fact, it was thrown back at her, mercilessly.

It was like her purpose of life just vanished into thin air and she got lost, very abruptly…

Her purpose.

The purpose of coming here.

The reason why she came and got Ichijou into trouble.

The reason why she endured death glares for a whole week and got worried about him so much.

Of course. She came to help. Not make it possibly worse, what seems to be the case.

But how could she? He refused her help. He refused her blood.

No. Not her blood.

He didn't want to satisfy his thirst for such a large prize as sacrificing her humanity!

"So the key is my blood…" she thought as her eyes roamed around the room, "…but outside of my body."

And her eyes landed on the pieces of broken glass around her.

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A/N: Phew! I thought I was never going to finish this!

Take care,

Matylda