Chapter 6

SO I'M GOING THROUGH THE EPISODES STARTING AT SEASON 13 WHEN AMANDA ROLLINS JOINS THE CAST. AMANDA AND OLIVIA WILL BE TOGETHER, SO THAT MEANS I HAVE TO CHANGE SOME OF THE EPISODES ANYWAY. I WILL GO THROUGH THE EPISODES BY MENTIONING SOME AND FOCUSING ON MY FAVORITES. I WILL CHANGE SOME DETAILS TO MAKE IT THE WAY I WANT IT TO GO.

NO CASE JUST FLUFF.

Amanda knocked on Olivia's door like a scared little child. Olivia opened the door, "Hey come on in, dinner is ready." Amanda walked in, hung up her coat, and sat at the dinner table without saying a word. Olivia put the plate in front of her, "Great so now I'm really a child. I guess you want me to eat, then stand in the corner, and last spank me." Olivia sat down with her plate, "Are you done? Because I would like to enjoy this dinner."

They ate, but still didn't talk. "I cooked, so you get to clean the kitchen. Oh and I like my kitchen spotless. I'm going to take a shower and then we'll talk." Olivia went to take her shower and Amanda put the food away then cleaned the kitchen. When she was finished Olivia still wasn't done. She went back to look at the pictures and saw the corner that started the whole thing. She stood in it and waited for Olivia to come out. While she was standing there, she started thinking.

Olivia came out and saw her standing there, "You been thinking over there? Come here and sit down with me." Amanda sat down but refused to look at Olivia. "Look at me Amanda." Amanda looked up, "Why do I have to look at you." Olivia wondered if everything was going to be a fight, she was ready to nip this in the bud. "Aside from the fact that it's respectful, I said so. You are going to learn to do what I say. We can do it the easy way or hard way Amanda. You don't like punishment, don't do anything wrong."

Amanda looked up, "Are you ready to talk about the rules I expect you to follow?" Amanda shook her head, "Answer me Amanda." Amanda answered, "Yes Liv." The name made her smile, "My biggest rule, Do not ever lie, not to me or anyone. I don't like dishonesty Amanda." She shook her head and continued, "Be respectful to me and others. And saying fuck you and fuck this, well I'll give you a pass this time, but next time your ass is mine."

Amanda looked at her, "I'm sorry Liv, I get angry and stuff comes out." Olivia knew what she meant, but it wasn't an excuse, "Amanda it's called self control and discipline. You better learn it and quick." Amanda listened, "Ok Liv. What else?" Olivia sighed, "No gambling, it's the one thing that will get you every time the first time." Amanda looked confused, "I know you are new at this, so I'm going to give you chances, like 3 strikes your out. I will give you consequences, time out, grounding, even spankings. Basically what I say goes."

Amanda closed her eyes, "You want to act like a kid or some wild teenager. I'm going to treat you like one. I don't like your behavior, it's reckless and you can be better Amanda. That's the deal, if you don't like it, then I guess you need to talk to the Captain." What Olivia didn't say was that she was really starting to care about Amanda. She hadn't had these feelings about anyone in a long time, not even with Haden. These feelings were stronger. "I understand Liv."

Olivia hoped she did, but she knew the punishments were coming, Amanda was known to push the limits. "First test and don't you dare lie to me, how much do you owe on your gambling debts right now?" Amanda wanted to say none of your fucking business, it was on the tip of her tongue. "Why Liv?" Olivia looked up, "Maybe I should have added in a rule about questioning me. Because I want to know. I need to know in order to help you. How much?" Amanda hesitated, "Do you want to find out the hard way tonight? Last time, how much?" Amanda finally spoke, "19 thousand." Olivia pulled out her checkbook and started writing, "Here. Pay it off and leave it behind."

Amanda looked at the check, "I can't take this Liv." Olivia smiled, "You will take it and you also will pay me back, but at least you won't have a bookie after your ass." Amanda laughed, "Great so I have you on my ass, I'd rather have the bookie." Olivia laughed out loud, "Well too bad and since you already punished yourself with the corner, let's watch a movie together." They laughed, talked, and enjoyed popcorn during the movie. Olivia looked over and saw Amanda was asleep. She turned off the TV, grabbed a pillow, straightened her out on the couch, and covered her with a blanket. "Night Amanda. Sleep well."

Olivia fell asleep quickly, tired from the week. She was ripped from her sleep, with yelling. She looked at the clock, 2:14 AM, she scrambled from bed and rushed to the family room hitting the lights. "Amanda was yelling and turning, "No please don't! I said no!" Olivia knelt down, rubbing her blonde hair out of her face, "Amanda, baby it's ok. Wake up for me." Amanda woke up drenched, completely out of breath, gasping for air. "Shhhh, look at me. It's ok. Breathe for me Amanda."

Amanda was scared and before she knew it, she wrapped her arms around Olivia. "Hey it's ok. Do you want to talk about it?" Amanda pushed her away, "I've got to go home." Olivia shook her head, "Amanda no, absolutely not. Listen, how about you take a shower, calm down, and then you can lay down in my bed or the guest room. And before you think about telling me no, we made a deal that you would listen to me."

It was difficult, but she gave her a change of clothes and got her in the shower. She came out looking sad and embarrassed. "Do you want to lay in here or the guest room." Amanda couldn't believe this was happening, "Amanda I have a big bed, come on it's ok. I will be right here for you." Amanda sat down and tried not to move, "I'm sorry I woke you up. Please don't ask me ok?" Olivia didn't know what this was, but she had a pretty good idea, she was an SVU detective and she heard her clearly.

"Amanda, I'm not going to ask anything, you can tell me whenever you're ready. Can I do anything for you?" Amanda was embarrassed asking, "Can you wait until I fall asleep before you go back to sleep." Olivia, not sure how she felt about being touched, gently covered her up with the blanket, "Of course, just rest." She watched Amanda fall back asleep, wondering what the hell happened in her past that was causing this. Olivia watched her go back to sleep. She looked so sweet, innocent, and cute.

The next morning Olivia woke up and looked over to a sleeping Amanda. She didn't want to wake her with last night being rough. She went to brush her teeth. She headed for the kitchen to make breakfast. When she was done she went to wake Amanda up. When she sat on the edge of the bed, Amanda curled up in a ball like a baby. She blinked and looked at Olivia, "Hey sleepyhead, I made breakfast. Come on when you're ready." Amanda brushed her teeth and joined her, "Morning Liv. Ummm I just, I'm sorry about waking you up last night." Olivia saw how uncomfortable she was, "Amanda it's fine, hey we're friends. I enjoyed the sleepover."

Amanda finished eating quickly, "I should get out of your way so you can enjoy your Saturday." Olivia grabbed her hand, "I was actually hoping that we could enjoy a day out, just us." Amanda sighed, "Why Liv?" Amanda expected to hear about her nightmare, but instead she heard, "I thought we could go shop for some more things for your apartment. We've been busy and I did go through the trouble of making a list." Amanda was completely shocked, "You aren't going to ask me about my nightmare?" Olivia stood up and started cleaning, "No. You asked me not to ask you. I also told you to tell me when you're ready."

Amanda breathed easier and relaxed, "I thought...well because of you being in charge of me and punishment…" Olivia turned around, "Amanda I will never threaten you with punishment to get you to talk to me, that would be abuse. I told you I care about you and I do. So you tell me when you're ready and not before. I'm going to take a shower, we can go to your place, you can change, and we can spend the day shopping." Amanda thought Olivia was a good friend, "But Amanda whatever it is, have you thought that maybe it's holding you back?"

Olivia showered, changed, and they headed to her place. While Amanda got dressed, Olivia looked around and checked her list. When Amanda came out, they started to head out, "Liv, thank you!" Amanda hugged Olivia and that moment Liv felt something, she wasn't sure what it was, her smell, her touch, or her need. "Hey, you're welcome and I'm here for you. Amanda." Silent tears fell and Olivia wiped the tears from her eyes, "I'm sorry, I don't do this. I don't cry. I..I…" Olivia stopped her, "You can cry Amanda. I heard you the other day, when you told me about your life. I will pay attention to you and I won't judge you. If you need to cry, hug, or yell. Tell me, do it." Amanda looked up and Olivia smiled, "But if you yell, warn me first, so I don't punish you." Olivia kissed her forehead and when her lips were there Olivia wondered what was that and Amanda was just totally in love.

Olivia needed to figure things out, "Hey enough of the sad stuff, let's shop. Shopping always helps." They left and spent the entire day together. After picking up items and having dinner. Olivia helped her set up her apartment.

Amanda looked around, "Liv your like a mom." Olivia laughed, "Thanks, that makes me feel old." Amanda shrugged, "Well you fixed up my place, took care of me last night, and you have punishments." Amanda said punishments holding up her hands in quotations while giggling. "Fine, I guess I am, but I'm not that old." Amanda smiled, "I didn't mean you were old, more like loving. I actually wouldn't know what a mother's love looks or feels like." Olivia agreed, "I wouldn't either Amanda. My mother regretted ever having me once she was raped." Olivia tested the waters not sure about her feelings even though after spending the day she felt more, "Maybe it's just love, not just a mother's love." Amanda felt her stomach flutter. They said goodbye. "Call me or drop by anytime Amanda. See you Monday."