Chapter 9

WE ARE IN SEASON 14.I WILL GO THROUGH THE EPISODES BY MENTIONING SOME AND FOCUSING ON MY FAVORITES. I WILL CHANGE SOME DETAILS TO MAKE IT THE WAY I WANT IT TO GO. THE FOCUS IS ON LOST REPUTATION AND ABOVE SUSPICION.

Munch was looking forward to retirement, but with Cragen in jail everything was put on hold. "Olivia, I'm staying to help. We will figure this out together." The squad was pulling double duty. The cases didn't stop because the Captain was falsely accused and in jail.

Olivia was in Cragen office, she refused to move in, because he was coming back, but they had all of his files in there. Amanda knocked on the door, "I know we're at work and we are keeping it professional, but are you ok?" Olivia smiled because Amanda was sweet and slowly was becoming affectionate. "I'm tired, would love dinner and could use some attention tonight." They hadn't done anything major, but last night the kissing was pretty heavy.

Amanda looked at the evidence, "Liv we will get him out." The squad walked out together for the night, Nick headed home to his wife and daughter, while Fin and Munch went for a beer. "Liv how about a pizza." Olivia agreed but only if they had salad too.

Olivia made the salad while Amanda hopped in the shower. She came out just as she put it on the table. Amanda's shirt lifted up slightly while she pulled her hair in a ponytail. "Not everyone has a flat and tone stomach Amanda." Amanda rolled eyes, "Liv I saw your stomach when we were in bed, it looks just fine."

Olivia grabbed her by her shirt and pulled her in close, "Were you checking me out?" Amanda smirked, "Maybe." Amanda turned around to get plates and Olivia smacked her ass, "Owww Liv! That hurt, what was that for?" Olivia sat down laughing, "Your eye rolling." They enjoyed dinner together and talked about anything but work.

Amanda cleaned the kitchen while Olivia took a shower. She knocked on her bathroom door because she didn't hear the water anymore, "Come in." Amanda opened the door and saw Olivia standing in front of the mirror holding her hair dryer. She only had a towel wrapped around her. Amanda could see the top of her breast and her long legs. Amanda was jealous of her tanned skin. She could still see the beads of water on her uncovered body, "See something you like Amanda?"

Amanda swallowed hard at first unable to talk, then she turned around quickly, "I'm sorry Liv. I thought you were done and I was going to ask about a movie or TV show." She wanted to laugh, but she knew Amanda was embarrassed, "Sure anything. I just decided to wash my hair, so I need to dry it. You don't have to turn around. I'm not shy and I did tell you to come in." Amanda turned around for another look, "Liv I don't think you need salad ever. Just saying."

Amanda hopped on the king size bed while Olivia finished up. Olivia climbed in bed and kissed Amanda on the lips. "You smell good Liv." She tilted Amanda's neck and kissed, then licked, and finally sucked on it. "You smell and taste good." She gave Amanda a wink and fell back on her pillow. Amanda couldn't believe what she felt in her panties, she was hot and wet. "Liv?" Olivia put her head in Amanda's lap, "Yeah baby." Olivia looked into Amanda's eyes, "That felt really good." Olivia smiled, "Did it?" Amanda moved down and kissed Olivia hard on the lips, pushing her tongue all the way in, "You know it and you did it on purpose."

They kissed each other until Amanda was straddling Liv. "Wow Liv, I feel good." Olivia knew they needed to talk before having sex. She really wanted Amanda to open up to her. Over the past week since they decided to try things out, they spent time rotating apartments and so far Liv was the only one open with her past. She told her about her experiences and even that she fooled around with a girl in college. Olivia was older and more experienced, but the only thing Amanda did offer to tell was that she lost her virginity at 17 and since coming to New York, had some one night stands. She was even scared to say that, but Liv assured that she was her age once.

She looked at Amanda, "Don't get mad at me." Amanda's whole body tensed and Liv could feel it because she was on top of her, "Are you ever going to tell me why you don't feel safe?" At those words Amanda tried to climb off of Liv, but she held her. "Let me go!" Olivia didn't at first, "Why are you so upset?" Amanda was pulling away, but Olivia was stronger. Tears formed in Amanda's eyes and when she pulled away again Liv let her go. "Amanda talk to me, don't do this."

Amanda turned away and all Olivia heard was crying. When she tried to touch her, she pulled away, "I'm sorry baby. I didn't mean to upset you. I just want to help you." Olivia fell back on her pillow and as usual she waited for her to fall asleep first, "I know you're mad at me, but go to sleep. I will wait until you do just like always." Once Olivia knew she was asleep, she brushed tears away from her face and kissed her just like every night.

Olivia heard moaning and crying, she looked at the clock 2:38. She covered her eyes, because she did this. Amanda hadn't had a nightmare any nights. "Hey wake up baby." Amanda's eyes shot open and she gasped for air, "Shhhhhhh it's just me. You're ok." Amanda curled up next to Olivia, hugging her tight. "I'm sorry Liv. Please don't be mad at me. I'll tell you everything right now." Olivia was upset, because Amanda was upset. She wanted her to say it, but not like this. "I'm not mad. It's ok. Just go back to sleep and we can talk tomorrow.

The next morning was awkward until Liv settled her nerves. "Come here." Amanda was so scared, "I'm not mad at you, but I don't want you to get mad if I asked you every now and then. Last night and the night before, it got hot and heavy and I don't want to move faster than you're ready. Amanda I don't know what's in your past that would scare you if we have sex. Last night showed me, not to ask you. I will wait until you're ready, but I don't want to have sex without knowing. I love you Amanda Rollins." Amanda smiled wide and that was all Liv needed.

When everyone got to the squad Olivia noticed Nick was missing. "Has anyone seen Nick?" Fin spoke up, "Nah not since last night." Olivia's phone rang with an unknown number, "Benson." It was Cassidy, "Look Liv, I'm doing everything I can, but if you don't get that wildcard of a detective off my back, he's gonna blow my cover." Olivia was lost, "Cassidy what are you talking about?" That got the whole squad's attention.

Cassidy went on to explain that Nick showed up threatening him, and he needed to stop. "Liv I know my boss set Cragen up good. You all were about to bring down a big money trap with those escorts. Liv these are big time people with big time connections." Nick walked in the squad room like nothing was wrong. Olivia called him in the office, but not before calling Munch as well and chewed his ass out. "Nick, what's going on? You don't pull your gun on an undercover officer and go rogue." Nick held his hands up, "Cassidy is dirty Liv. What's with you?" Olivia couldn't believe it, "Nothing is with me and you're on desk duty, until you realize that. Your temper is going to blow this case."

Nick knew quickly how wrong he was for what he did, especially since Cassidy ended up helping to clear Cragen. Cassidy got the recording of how Cragen was set up and turned it over to Liv. The whole squad cheered, "Welcome back Captain!" He thanked each and everyone in the unit.

It was late and Olivia went to Amanda, "I'm going to check on the Captain, do you want to head out and pick up dinner? When I'm done I will meet you." They had been busy all day, but this brought Amanda back to reality, "Do we have to talk tonight, Liv? Today's been exhausting." Olivia agreed, "I know. Your place or mine?" Amanda grabbed her stuff, "Yours, I like it better anyway. Meet you there."

Olivia went in to see Cragen. "Are you ok Captain?" Cragen smiled even though he had been through hell and back. "You did good kid. I'm so proud of you and your leadership. You're going to be ready when I leave." Olivia shook her head, "No time soon though, we just got you back." Cragen sat down shaking his head, "Things won't be the same Liv. People will look at me differently." Olivia responded, "Not us and we are all that matter. Come on tomorrow's a new day."

Olivia walked in, "Burgers Amanda?" Amanda looked at her, l picked up a burger, fries, milkshake, and salad so you could have your choice. If I were you though, I would enjoy this good food and save the salad for lunch tomorrow." Olivia sat down and bit into her burger, "Oh my gosh, it's so good." Amanda winked, "I love your body and maybe you too." Olivia didn't push her the day was exhausting enough.