Behind The Mask

by Wastedsoul

Back from her ordeal in Africa, Ziva's Anorexia gets progressively worse. Will Gibbs and the team be able to help her? Or will Anorexia claim yet another young victim. Please be warned that this story contains themes about, Eating Disorders, Self-harm and suicide. This is the story of Ziva's decent into the depths of darkness.

1. Chapter 1 - Introduction

Chapter 1: Introduction

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Disclaimer: I do not own NCIS or any of its characters. This story is entirely fictional and is based on my own experiences. Reviews and/or comments would be greatly appreciated as I am loving this story and it is a pleasure to write. Enjoy

Authors Note: I have re-done this story again, but reverted back to most of the original writing as the second version I wrote was crap.

Authors Note 2: Sorry for putting this on hiatus for so long. This story is very personal to me, as a lot of the emotions and behaviours are very real. In reality though trying to get help for my ED has been a nightmare, as there aren't a lot of options where I live in Australia so I think in a way I write about people caring about Ziva, because as much as I have my Mum who cares, and my lovely psychologist who Ziva's psychologist is based off, getting any other help is hard. As the story progresses Ziva will more than likely land herself in hospital and her experiences will be very much based on mine. I understand that in the US things are probably done very differently, but that aspect of the story if and when it happens will be very based on my experiences in Aus.

Thank you for reading, reviews are appreciated always. Thank you to all those who have stuck by thi story for so long. I hope to update more frequently.

Chapter One - Introduction

Ziva David presented herself as a strong tough individual. Her training had taught her to hide her pain, and use whatever means necessary to complete her mission and get the job done. The strict rules imposed on her, gave her structure and consistency and as such she did not deal well with change. Weakness was never to be shown, and there were serious consequences for those that did in Mossad. But since coming home from Africa and her ordeal with Saleem, she could not forgive herself for being so weak, and allowing that monster to think he could own her.

She did her best to hide what she was doing to herself. She work baggy clothes, ate her one meal of the day in front of her co-workers, contained her self-harm to her stomach and legs to avoid suspicion and put on her best Mossad smile to try and fool everyone. Little did she know they weren't fooled.

This is the story of Ziva's decent into the depths of darkness.