Please excuse my grammar.
English isn't my Native Language.
Chapter 1
The Reincarnated Child
It was like a dream... no,
It was more like a vivid nightmare.
As those meteors fall upon that very day, I watched as the world around me crumble before my very own eyes.
The buildings were being destroyed to the ground like a pile of dirt by those large things. The screams and terror of the people running to escape were crushed to a bloody pulps.
To add more oil in the fire in this bloody chaos, I stumble into my very own best friend whom I been trying to avoid for the passed few days.
Even through it was literally awkward for me to face her right now, we managed to have a silent agreement in our heads and run for our lives with no further words spoken.
How they managed to last till they found the last opened shelter, was almost a miracle if they had been more capsule in there.
With the situation worsening outside each seconds and the surviving humans getting crazy to survive, I stared in disbelief at the capsule in front of us.
I might have survive this if I had gone there fast but, looking at my best friend whom have been the most loyal and loving friend I ever had in this life...
It was suffocating and terrifying. The harsh reality of the painful outcome I had predicted miles away.
Call me an idiot or a fool to just accept the fact I wouldn't survive when its right in front of me.
Because between my own conscious will on who will live between myself and to the only person who ever tried to understand and know who I truly am.
"Yuu-chan?"
With a weak, but sincere smile, I stared at her stiffened and confused expression.
As someone who had long known me, she knows I'm about to do something reckless or stupid.
However, this reckless decision I'm about to do is permanent and I could only H-static-ope she would understand my decision and continue forward on whatever happens.
Grabbing her arm, I pushed her inside and quickly closed the door before she could react.
With a trembling hand, I pressed the emergency security L-7 lock.
I... I may not be a hero, nor someone who held a great talent or position to be praise worthy by those who are around me
But, I was never the one who would break a promise I vowed under the witness of the heaven and stars.
I ignored the ached in my heart as I watched her turned around towards me with terror as she realized what I had done.
If this is really going to be the last time we would face each other, then I would like her to know this is my choice.
Mustering a smile. A bright smile I rarely make even to my own very family, "Thank you."
When a person thank someone with pure gratefulness, people may become somewhat bashful and brushed it off like saying it was unnecessary since they did it out of goodwill.
But, this 'thank you' of mine is something that came out filled with the memories we spend together. The good times, the bitter, the sadness, the fun, and the adventure we did together like a family.
That's why, Thank you.
You were the very first person who ever tried to understand this strange and misunderstood human being I called myself. Even when everyone turned away from me saying I'm a lost cause and even when those stupid damn rumors continue to fly around me, you were the only person who didn't walk away.
That's why I'm glad, I could repay you even at the cost of my own life.
Even through I still don't understand what is happening right now or why is this even happening, I just want you to know... I'm thankful and... I want you to continue living on, in my behalf and yours.
In this world where humans are instinct to survive and adapt to any surrounding they are put in, I was someone who view the world as gray and neutral..
Between the light that held great beauty and mysteries of the world and black that held the cruel truth of the way the society continue to develop.
And the fact that I choose you, my dear friend, to live on instead of mine, I don't really have much choice but choose to welcome death with opened arms, despite the fear on what will happen on the other side.
Backing away from the capsule, I lower my head, bowing away as I stepped away from her.
The ground tremble as the sky roar in thunder claps.
I tensed as I could hear something falling down above me and before I knew it my vision suddenly blackened..
And I could feel it.
The stinging sensation that spreads like a wild fire.
The burning pain that crawl around me like ants.
It was... unbearable painful.
It was the most painful moment I ever experiences for the first time and last time in my life. The feeling of being crashed by something very heavy reminded me of how someone would crashed an ant like this. Eh... The ironic.
But dare I say, I felt relief. Because at the sight of my dear friend still standing alive and unharmed, despite the agony I am currently in, I was at eased.
As those thick tears pour down on her pale cheeks, she howled in distress as she scream for my name...
"Yuu! Please!"
Despite the constant battle to stay conscious till the last seconds, her pleading words felt like it stabbed me as she continue to bang that steeled like glass known as the newly upgraded polycarbonate glass the unbreakable.
"D-don't d-die on me! PLEASE! You promise!"
This must be how it felt when you see someone you held dear cried so fragile, almost pitifully.
I wanted to reach you... Wipe those ugly tears away and say it will be alright.
I really wanted to say it... But, with my almost crushed state, I couldn't even move a single inch of my muscle... My time is dreading close by.
She slide down as she tearfully stared at me with regret and sorrow.
"I-I haven't even... -sob."
As everything turns black, I sent one final prayer.
'Please... Go on without me, whatever is happening in this world... Live!'
"I... I-"
.
-Chirp~!
-Chirp~!
-Chirp~!
I flatter my eyes open and squinted in the sunshine streaming in through the opened window.
Stretching my limbs, I felt a bit heavier than usual and guessed it was because of that memory again.
It wasn't really new to me, despite living here for the passed 4 years in this world, dreaming that painful memory from my past life isn't that surprisingly rare anymore.
Sitting up from my comfy white bed, I looked at the small clock atop of the table beside the bed. It was after sixth twenty AM.
Just another ten more minutes before my mother come to my room for me to get ready for the first day of going to a kindergarten.
As someone who can still clearly remember their own past life memories, I can't exactly say I'm annoyed or excited.
I mean, if you were an high school student that study and work with those never ending assignments, and activities that kept you day and night to finish every single damn time, yeah right, who would jump in joy for that?
I know that school isn't all that bad since it was mostly known for a place where younger people could form and build connection together, while ignoring the one fact that your own teachers are enjoying giving their own students their own way of revenge by giving more assignments and activities to work upon.
It was kind of pity I didn't know it or rather acknowledge it before hand in my past life since I was busy in the paranoia of those anyone around me.
Because in my early school life in elementary, I was a bright and an honor student who won many achievements and was praised by many. But, should had also known back then that becoming too talented and favored by many have its own wickedness.
Because of a single mistake that scarred my maiden heart back then, I was judged and sneered upon those who had praised me and called me as one of their own group.
And because of that, I give up on being the honor and top student and shine away from those so called social activities and hoped to become someone who could blend in through those faceless crowds.
It I remembered correct, I was said to have development a personality known as 'ambivert', a balance of extrovert and introvert features.
I may not had mind the fact I was almost like an outcast in my past life or known as what they called as lone wolf.
But, in this second chance I have in life.
I, Tsuki Avalyn will do better and changed that solitude title!
"Sweetie? Oh my, Tsuki your awake!"
Snapping out from my self monologue, I looked up and sees the door opened with a familiar woman standing there with her hand still on the door knob.
Satome Avalyn my biological mother in this world.
With those golden blond hair, near hour glass body and blue eyes.
Despite being a mother of child now, she still held those beautiful features of a young maiden.
And the fact I am the daughter of this beautiful woman, I silently gave a thankful prayer to whoever had choose me to be in such a beautiful family gene. Even through I mostly inherit the features of my father's black spiky-like hair, I am still thankful.
"Kaasan~!" I brightly exclaimed as I raised my hands towards her. Ignoring the messy hair on my head.
Slightly tilting her head to the side, she stared at me for a few seconds before a soft giggle came out from my mother's soft pink lips as she walks towards me, creating those soft steps on the floor.
"Good morning sweetie~"
Grabbing me under the arms. She pull me up, making me slightly fly into the air, making me let out a joyful laugh, as I let her guide me to my feet on the ground, I made a cute funny expression, making my mother let out another soft laugh as I grin, feeling the heavy feeling in my chest fade away.
"Now, now. Who's excited to go to the kindergarten~?"
"Me! me!" I exclaimed with an excited tone while raising my fist through the air.
She made a small grin as she pet me through my hair, "Well then, let's get you ready."
"Okay~!"
Today was such beautiful day, the birds were singing, the flowers were blooming and those children around me are... shouting.
"Ma... Why are they yelling?" I dully asked my mother who just continue to pat the yellow hat atop of my head.
I should known.
Just because I didn't dislike children that much in my past life, as I remember the children in my generation are much more discipline than this... whole thing.
In front of me, I could see the children of my age continue to endlessly cry and whine as they kept clinging to their parents as if they would disappear from this world if they let go and in the midst of this whole thing was me and my mother who look proud and... smug?
My face stiffened as I stop myself from wincing away when another kid decided to start whining out loud as soon as his parent walked out through the door.
'Oh my lord... When will they stop screaming!?' If my mother hadn't been here with me, I would have long walk out through those doors.
"Tsuki." My mom suddenly called me out my name, snapping me out before I could almost use my secret technique on how to deal in loud crowds.
"If Tsuki don't act like them, mama will give Tsuki a lot of sweets Tsuki likes if Tsuki is a good girl okay~"
Waa... She's serious despite having those sweet lovely smile she wore on her face right now, with the way she called my name multiple times was one of her callings when she's serious.
Ignoring the shiver that run up from my back, I just left out the same sweet smile on my face.
My mother's wasn't exactly fond of me eating a lot of sweets since she had said its bad for my health and in order for me to grow healthy and strong she only made me eat healthy foods such as vegetables and fruits. But she wasn't that strict as she would also gave me sweets I like if I behave and do things correctly in some special situation such as this.
Unlike most other kids who loves sweets and would whine about not being able to eat that much of sweets in their age, I didn't hate it as I was kind of an omnivore that didn't like too much sweets other than when I was bored or when I was with my best friend.
But... Who wouldn't say yes to a free chocolate sweets?
"Okay ma! Tsuki will be a good girl." I nodded, looking at her with an innocent expression however, my mind whisper no promises.
"Great! That's my girl! Oh, and also, before mama gets outs and stand over there, Tsuki should also make friends and listen to your sensei's instruction okay?" My mother said as she look at me intently in the eye with glint in her eyes.
Jeez.. She has that look again. Sometime, I really wonder if there's something else about my parents in this world.
I would had probably believe this to be my world, if my parents just didn't act this weird when they first learn I was some kind of prodigy but never make a fuss about me being some kind of genius or something.
I mean, parents... Don't just stay quiet and casually when they're children turns out to be some kind of genius.
Nodding, "Hai..."
Seemingly satisfied, she gave one last pat on my head before she turned around and walked towards the stall where the other parents stand in. Turning around, she looked at me through the window and smiled, mouthing something I could guess as 'make friends and enjoy!'
Sheepishly smiling, I turned my head around and mentally sigh as I surveyed around the room, trying to find someone that isn't clinging to their parents or someone who seems quiet and easy to get along to.
As I looked around the classroom, someone finally caught my attention.
At the corner of this room, there was a girl sitting alone and quietly... she looks anxious with her posture and head down.
It almost remind me of myself when I first entered high school but I was not that timid just... Alone in the corner.
Deciding she would be the first one I would talk to beside my parents in this world. I braced myself and walked towards her.
From my sight as I got closer to where she is, I could see her hair being dark.. purple? Hmm, she's going to be unique isn't she?
Normally, in my past life someone with a different hair color other than black or blond was considered... Odd in my country.
But, living in this alternate world for four years now, I wasn't that surprised to see anyone with a different hair or eye color anymore.
Adding the fact my appearance is kind of odd too when I first check it out to a mirror.
For someone who had lived and accepted myself as someone plain and average, it was a bit odd to see myself different, like how my eyes were almost gold like and my hair still being black but much more softer but look spiky and my used to be light brown skin now are rosy pale skin and so smooth that it feel nice to touch and there isn't even a single scar.
Yeah...
This new look is a bit... weird and nice.
Stopping in my steps and standing before the dark purple haired girl, I watched as her head jerked up before almost shrinking back when she saw me standing tall in front of her.
Mentally scratching and thinking in my head, I don't look that scary anymore right? right?
"Um..." before I could say anything, the purple haired girl cut me off and asked hesitantly.
"Uhm...do... do you want something?"
Before I could tell her about us becoming friends, the words died in my throat as I noticed a familiar look in her eyes. Something flashed in my mind, the eyes that stared and gazed at me as if I was some kind of monster ready to explode beside them.
Whatever she saw or noticed about the sudden flicker of emotion in my expression. She visibly tremble as she quickly fire another question that snapped me out from my thoughts.
"I'm sorry! I- I- ..did I do s-something wrong?"
Forcing those hunting memories down and quickly think of what words I should quickly say in this kind of situation. I mean, from the outside point of view, I look like I'm bullying her right now aren't I?
"Er... no, you didn't do anything wrong." I quickly reassured her as I stared at her grayish-purple eyes, hoping she calm down and not broke down into a crying mess.
Somehow... she looks familiar...
Don't know why my mind seems to flicker as if recognizing someone I haven't seen for a long time... But, I never met her in this world?
"Anyway... I... er, just wanted to introduce myself." I pointed towards myself with my thumb, making her look at the hand that pointing towards me.
Blinking, she seems to processing what I just said in her mind, which I give her a few seconds to processed before continuing again.
"My name is Avalyn Tsuki, um... you may just call me as Tsuki..." I told her as friendly as my voice could do.
And since this world, the country I was reborn to was similar to a Japanese culture, and my mother even saying that calling someone in their first name without permission is rude, and should call them by their last name with -san... Unless they gave permission to say their given name or someone close to you.
And also, somehow, I feel kind of shy, despite being mentally older than her.
"So what's your name?"
The dark purple haired girl seemed to flushed red as she played with her fingers. Looking down towards the ground. She softly told me her full name.
"M-my name is Tsumiki Mikan... uhm, you may also c-call me Mikan."
Hearing her says that, my eyes brighten as I grinned, feeling happy and at the same time, relief that my first interaction with someone wasn't a failure.
While intently looking at me, she seemed to have braced herself as if expecting me to do something...?
Titling my head, "So..." I trailed off, Ignoring the nagging feeling that I really had seen her before.
"Mikan... Can we be friends?" I lightly scratch my cheek as I gave her an awkward grin.
Ignoring the tingling thought of why I felt like I'm almost begging to be friends with her.
'Its just shyness okay?' I argue back to my mind.
Glancing at her expression, I could see her lips pressed into a thin line, almost as if it was trembling.
Ah, crap, did I do...
"Can I-I really be your f-friend?" She asked with her voice wavering.
Throwing the thought of I done something wrong, I stared at her. Processing her words.
Somehow... The idea of her being just a timid girl was wrong. As if...
'But, she's just 4 years old kid? ..That can't be possible... right?'
If what I think it is, is going on with her and her parents are maybe some abusive shit or something then...
No, mentally shaking my head, its not... its just can't be since she's still this young and might be just afraid since this is the first time children in this age are in a room alone with strangers they don't even know.
'She's probably just very anxious since this is everyone's first time being left alone with strangers...'
That's right, it was just like how I also reacted when I was first called out after an accident by those adults who intently stared at me as if trying to stab me with their eyes.
Putting away those thoughts at the back of my mind, I gave her a sincere bright smile.
"Of course!"
This is my second chance...
A second chance in life to experience what its like to be able to have friends again and be depended with trust by others than just business.
Whatever this world has for me, I will do my best to do what it takes to live a life without regret.
Note: At the early life, Our protagonist who go by the name Tsuki Avalyn, in her early life, she still doesn't know or notice yet where or what world she's in.
