Thankyou for sticking with me! I now have a new Mac, however still snowed under with uni work! hopefully this will settle down soon! i know a lot of you dont like moody liv, but trust me theres a lot to come shes a little cow at the moment lol! Please enjoy and review! xxx

Chapter 4

A week or so later and Rachel was lay in bed, she hadn't slept all night the pain in her back and stomach becoming unbearable. It was 4am when she gave in, went downstairs, made a cup of coffee, sat on the sofa and started to sob into her dressing gown. She had also made several hot water bottles that were placed around her body.

"Mum?" Liv asked coming into the lounge.

"Liv darling what are you doing up?" Rachel wiped her face quickly.

"Time of the month, you know the drill, saw the light on" she smiled.

Rachel put an arm out for Liv to come next to her.

"You alright?" Liv asked.

Rachel thought for a moment, she had kept this hidden from her children, they didn't know what was happening. She sighed openly.

"I know we tell each other everything but I can't burden you with this" Rachel pleaded

"You can" Liv said.

Rachel sighed "but you promise me if you have questions you will ask them"

"I promise" Liv nodded snuggling into her mum.

"Nothing went right with Charlotte and it's caused a lot of issues"

"In what way? I know she was born at 26 weeks and you were poorly for a long time, I don't think you were awake for about a week"

Rachel nodded "that's right, I had to have an emergency c-section which turned into major surgery, I had a hysterectomy, lost so much blood and then shortly after got a nasty internal infection. It's left me with an illness that flares up on occasion"

"Oh, I didn't know" Liv looked at her.

"It's nothing to worry about, I just feel sick, sometimes I am sick, I get headaches and then pain around my body, I don't know what causes it" Rachel admitted "I just wake up and it's there, it's like my body thinks it's pregnant still it's a weird feeling"

"But I've never seen you like this" Liv admitted. She was generally scared for her mum.

"I know, I hide it very well. Charlotte is the little miracle that was never supposed to survive"

Liv smiled

"Now it's me and you I want you to be open with me" Rachel said looking at her daughter.

"What?" Liv asked

"This whole defence and rebel against me, I know it's not the Liv I know, it's an act, your not doing it now so why do it?"

Liv rolled her eyes "it isn't you, do you realise how difficult it is having your mum and dad as headteachers"

"But Lizzie copes okay"

Liv sighed "yeah she's the perfect daughter isn't she" she said folding her arms moving away from Rachel.

"Liv your no more important than any of the other children that live here, I give you a lot of freedom with the amount of parties you go too, I just expect a little bit more respect towards me and your dad"

Liv rolled her eyes once more "whatever" she sighed standing up.

"See that's what I mean, that attitude right there, you realise how hard it was to put you on report because of your attitude your supposed to be a gifted and talented student, you failed your GCSEs last year, your lucky you have another chance" Rachel sighed

Liv looked at her "I'm just a failure then aren't i"

"Liv I didn't mean it like that"

Liv turned on her heal "night mum" she said walking out the room and upstairs.

Rachel sighed as she threw her head back, she sat and closed her eyes for a moment, but was abruptly woken up by her body, she stood up as quick as she could going into the kitchen making it to the sink just in time to throw up last nights meal.

Eddie had heard her pottering around downstairs and headed downstairs entering the kitchen to see Rachel hunched over the sink. Eddie came over and rubbed her back "flared up again?"

Rachel nodded wiping her mouth with kitchen towel and turning to face him wrapping her arms around him "Liv was downstairs and we spoke and now she thinks I think she's a failure"

"oh darling, I'm sure she will get over it pretty quick"

"I hope so" she spoke into his shoulder.

"Are you sure you want to go to work today"

"Yeah I'll just stay in my office today, I've got nothing major planned today" s

"Alright at least I can keep an eye on you" Eddie kissed her cheek.

Rachel pushed him away as she turned round to throw up again "sorry"

"It's alright" he said rubbing her back.

"You didn't sign up for this when we got married"

"I did…in sickness and in health" Eddie smiled. "Come on let's go back to bed for a bit"

"Bring the bucket just in case" Rachel smiled going upstairs.