When she arrived there, Nami was already in bed, still awake. Kiwi and Mozu, the other two women in the ship at the moment, had preferred to stay with the Franky Family. So Nami and Robin managed to have a bedroom for them alone. Robin was a bit relieved: it was hard to sleep with strangers around her. She had developed through her years on the run a constant state of alert during night when she was around people she didn't know, and it was an habit that she wasn't sure if she will manage to get rid of it anytime in the future.
Robin went to her bed in silence. Nami was pretending to act 'natural', but she could tell she was …worried? about her. She laid in her bed, put the sheets on, and pretended to be ready to sleep, closing her eyes. She knew it will be difficult, maybe impossible, to sleep tonight. Her emotions were too convulsed. Even if she managed to sleep, she would probably wake up due to a nightmare. And her headache had been worsening since dinner. The nausea too.
-Robin?- she heard Nami say through the darkness
-Yes?- she replied, knowing that this wasn't going to be just a small talk.
-Hum…nothing, don't mind me- Nami wasn't sure if it was a good idea to ask her. Maybe she will be offended by the question, and she didn't want Robin to be angry at her. Fuck it, she thought. Robin was troubled, and she was her friend. Even if she was scared of her reaction, she wasn't that coward. -Do you trust us?- Nami finally said, hoping her question didn't bother her friend.
-I certainly do- Robin replied. She was going to end her phrase with 'Navigator-san', but then she thought that calling Nami by her nickname would contradict her statement.
-Are you okay?- Nami asked, hoping to get something out of the question.
-I'm fine, I'm just tired. You must be too. You deserve some sleep- Robin managed to say, trying not to be evident about the uncomfortable nature of the question.
-Hm. Good night, Robin- Nami replied, admitting her defeat.
-Good night- Robin finished. Robin stayed in her bed with her eyes open for about an hour or two. Now she was sure she won't sleep tonight. She felt terrible. The nausea was getting worse every minute, her body was aching a lot, and her headache now was almost unbearable. From time to time, she repeated all the images of the day in her head, but they were vanishing quickly. Even thinking was painful now. Robin heard the rhythmic breath of her crewmate, and assumed she had fallen asleep. Silently, she stood up of the bed, and went to the deck, to get some fresh air.
Robin stopped in front of the railway, and looked to the sea. It was calm and covered in darkness. She felt an overwhelming sense of freedom now, but she didn't know how to embrace it. This was all too new to her. She was feeling a bit lost. However, the cold breeze had helped a bit with the nausea, and she was grateful for that.
-Oi, woman, what are you doing here?- she heard Zoro say from the crow's nest.- Shouldn't you be sleeping or something?- he added.
-I'm just enjoying the night breeze, Swordman-san- replied Robin. -What are you doing here?- she said, trying to deviate the conversation out of herself.
-Night watch- Zoro replied, still with a serious expression on his face.
-Well, you certainly can scare the crap out of intruders- teased Robin- You look like a decomposed mummy with all those bandages.
-Yeah, whatever- Zoro finished, closing her eyes and getting ready to his usual naps.
Nami had fought her urges to sleep during all this time. She had fallen a couple of times, just for a few minutes, before forcing herself to wake up. She was sure Robin was not asleep, and she wasn't going to let her fight alone, whatever her trouble was. She was falling asleep one more time when she heard Robin move through the room, and go outside. She decided to wait a few minutes before going after her, otherwise, Robin would suspect more than she was already suspecting, and Nami didn't want her with her full-guard up.
Nami got out of the bedroom and walked towards the deck. When she arrived, she spotted Robin next to the railway, with her hands grabbing her hair, and a cup of coffee next to her.
-Robin? Are you okay?-
Robin felt like she was about to throw up at any moment. But that didn't prevented her to feel a bit annoyed by the sudden interruption. The only thing she had wanted in the last hours was to be left alone. And everybody seemed to interrupt her at a constant rate.
-I'm fine- she said, still hiding her face with her hands, and with a hint of annoyance in her voice.
-Robin…- Nami didn't know if it was the right decision to push her friend into telling her what was going on.
-It's nothing- Robin was getting angrier every second. She managed to compose her expression a bit, and got her hands off her face.
-You know, I'm not stupid. I can tell you're not well. You're pale, and you hands are shaking. Should I wake up Chopper?- Nami said, a bit angry herself, but mostly worried.
-No. Navigator-san, I said I'm fine. -Robin's voice was now cold. So cold, that Nami was doubting if she should keep talking.
-But…-she replied.
-But nothing, I'm fine, just leave me alone- Robin had lost her patience. Her eyes were now full of anger.
Nami stepped back: she was scared of her crewmate. Nami knew that if Robin wanted to, she was able to kill her in a second. Not that she would do it anyway, but Robin was an intimidating person when she wanted. However, her fear quickly turned into anger. She couldn't help but say what she was thinking.
-So, you lied. You don't trust us- Nami said, muttering- After everything that had happened, you still don't trust us. You don't trust me- her voice now was louder, and she sounded hurt.
-Naviga…-she stopped and correct herself. She didn't want to worsen the situation- Nami….-Robin's eyes now were showing a hint of guilt, apart from anger.
-No. Shut up. I gave you the opportunity to talk to me. Now, you'll listen- Nami was the one that now was really, really angry- You hadn't noticed me before dinner. You let Luffy steal your food. You didn't let Chopper check you properly. You're acting weird, and you think we all are stupid enough to not notice it- Nami's voice was raising at every word- I tried to talk, but you don't want to. We are worried about you, but you don't care. We have all fought for you, risked our lives for you, and you don't trust us at all! So what the fuck is going on Robin?!- Nami finished, clenching her fists.
-I didn't ask you for help in the first place!- Robin yelled- I know how to take care of myself anyway. I just want to be alone!- she regretted saying that when she saw Nami's hurt face- I…I just….-Robin couldn't finish the sentence, because she passed out at that exact moment.
