"Were you worried I would leave if you tried to tell me that you imprinted on me?" My head is still resting in Paul's lap as he plays with my hair.
I look up to see his expression, he isn't frowning nor is he smiling.
"I just didn't want to overwhelm you with anything, sometimes all of this can be a lot for a person to take in"
As our eyes stay locked, I remember the night I had been chased by the man in his car when I ran into the alleyway and hid in the dumpster. Was that really a grizzly, or what is Paul? I figure why not ask him.
"Do you remember the night you called me and I was hiding in the alley in that dumpster?"
Paul nods his head and I can see a glimmer of a smile in his eyes.
"Yes, I do" He answers me.
"What I thought was a bobcat or a grizzly bear, it was really you, wasn't it?" Paul tries to hide his smile but I can see his bright white straight teeth appearing. He nods his head again.
"That was me, I wanted to help you" He replies coyly.
"Does Quil know that it was you and not a bear?" I ask as Paul smirks and nods his head conforming that Quil knew. I can't help but feel slightly embarrassed over the fact that I truly believed it was a bear that had frightened away that psycho in the alley that night.
"Don't feel bad, I just couldn't tell you yet. You already had enough on your plate and I wasn't sure if it would overwhelm you if you knew what I was" Paul replies softly- he takes his hand in my own.
"Let's get you home, it's getting really late." Paul says.
"I have a morning shift tomorrow, eleven to four" I sigh. I don't want to be away from him, we both have our own homes where we live but I want to be by his side. Part of me wonders if I will come off as overly clingy if I ask him to stay with me tonight or what's left of tonight since it's so late.
Paul and I walk to his car and he drives me home in a comfortable silence, I lean my head against his shoulder as he drives.
We arrive at my apartment and I dread being away from him, but I know we have to have our own space. I turn to face him as he shuts off the engine, our faces are close.
"I had a really great time with you tonight, thank you for telling me everything" I begin, "Knowing that you trust me really means so much to me"
"You mean so much to me, Willow" His voice is serene and makes me feel dreamy.
Paul leans in closer to my face and slowly slides his hand into my hair, he glances down at my lips.
"Kiss me" I whisper in a small voice. Paul doesn't waste a second as he crashes our lips tonight, I let his tongue take dominance in my mouth- I feel completely breathless.
I break apart for a second to breathe before Paul's lips meet mine once more. Both of his hands are tangled in my hair and I wrap my arms around his neck.
"Willow" Paul moans softly causing me to want him even more, I want him so much. His lips are dominant and rough against my own- I love it.
The kiss ends, my breathing is uneven along with Paul's as we rest our foreheads together for a second.
Paul places a small kiss against my forehead before opening the drivers side door, we walk to my apartment door together and I turn to face him.
"Good night" My voice sounds musical and soft. Paul gently squeezes my hand.
"Good night" His voice is honeyed and smooth causing my knees to feel like they might give out on me from our moment in his car. I walk inside my apartment and close the door behind me trying to catch my breath.
My covers are pulled off of my body slowly and I look up to see Paul, he's without a shirt exposing his bronze toned skin, my heart begins to pound quickly as he gets on the bed.
His lips meet my own for a moment before he begins to slowly kiss my neck and suck on the skin gently, I close my eyes and feel the overwhelming pleasure as my breathing becomes uneven once more.
Paul's lips travel down to my stomach and then to the band line of my shorts, he takes the fabric between his teeth and tugs at it for a moment before letting it go. He pauses and I exhale, "What do you want?" He asked me.
A small whimper leaves my lips but Paul doesn't move his fingers from his current position. "Tell me, what do you want?" Paul's voice is low and husky.
"You" I breathe exasperatedly. His warm fingers touch the band line of my shorts and he tugs them down to my ankles and he tosses them off of the bed. His lips meet the fabric of my underwear causing me to squirm, his fingers pull at my underwear as he removes them completely.
Paul begins to kiss the inner part of my thighs causing whimpers to leave my lips, my breathing erratic, he stops and looks up at me.
"Willow" He whispers.
I open my eyes to the bright light of the sunlight shining in through my window, a soft sigh of annoyance leaves my lips. How could I have had such an amazing dream that felt so real only to be woken up with disappointment?
My coffee machine finishes filling the coffee pot up to my liking and I pour in my creamer. I finish my coffee rather quickly and I get dressed for work- I had a morning shift today.
My drive to work goes smooth and the rain doesn't bother me today, Paul is on my mind which keeps me going through my work shift.
"You were really smiley today!" Jessie teases as I take off my work apron and open my car door. I unknowingly parked beside Jessie.
"Yeah," My grin is genuine. "I guess I was"
"Could Paul have anything to do with it?"
"Yes. We went out last night and everything was perfect" I gush, Jessie has a mischievous look on her face.
"Was it good?" She asks me.
"Was what good?"
"You know, the sex silly!" She exclaims and I choke on the air.
"What- Jessie!"
"Oh, you guys didn't have sex?" She asks me and I shake my head.
"No, we did not have- you know... that"
Jessie cocks her head to the side and furrows her brows together softly for a moment before her eyes get wide. "Wait a minute."
No. Please no. Don't say it.
"Are you- a virgin?!"
"Jessie! Shhh!!"
"Oh my gosh you are!"
My eyes now get wide and I quickly look around the parking lot to make sure no one heard. My heart stops and I feel like I might die of embarrassment right here beside my car.
Paul who is already close enough to hear the conversation approaches us and gives me an amused smile. He glances at Jessie who covers her mouth. I bite down on my bottom lip, why me? Why today?
"Hey beautiful" Paul says, I can't tell if he's trying to break the ice or not but it definitely melts away some of the tension filled awkwardness.
Jessie coughs and smiles politely, "Well... I'll see you later, Willow! Nice seeing you Paul."
She gets in her car and drives away leaving Paul and I standing beside my car.
"How much of that did you hear?" I ask him trying to rip off the bandaid, Paul places a kiss on my forehead.
"Your secret is safe with me" He winks avoiding my question, but I have a feeling he already heard the virgin comment I feel like digging a large hole and pulling the dirt in after me.
"What are you doing here?" I ask him trying to change the subject.
"I wanted to see if you wanted to have dinner with me tonight, we're doing a bonfire at La Push. Everyone will be there" He smiles exposing his perfect white teeth.
"I would love to, what time should I be ready?"
"I'll pick you up at seven" Paul places a small kiss on my lips before going back to his car leaving me wanting much more, but that would have to wait.
After I drive back to my apartment I take a shower and decide to put on a little bit of makeup for tonight, to be subtle I go with some mascara, and a little bit of bronzer, I let my hair air dry to its natural texture and I go to my closet.
My jeans, a sweater, and my usual Vans will do for tonight. Before long I hear a knock at my front door, I open the door to see Paul who's wearing a beige colored hoodie that brings out his eyes, he gives me a charming smile and pulls me in for a hug.
"Hey, beautiful" He murmurs into my hair as the hug breaks apart I smile at him feeling shy all of the sudden. "You ready?" Paul asks me.
"Ready" I smile as I close the apartment door locking it behind me. We walk to Paul's car and he opens the passenger door for me- he gets in his side of the car and begins to drive.
When we arrive to La Push we get out of the car and begin walking to the bonfire. As we get closer I see a bunch of people sitting by the bonfire, I smile to myself as I spot Quil who's eating a hotdog, he turns his head in my direction and grins once he sees Paul and myself.
"Hey, you made it!" Quil says.
"Hey Quil" I smile as I take a seat beside Paul who is sitting by a girl with shoulder length dark hair and copper skin, she's beautiful- I suddenly feel insecure about my own appearance.
"Willow, this is Leah Clearwater, she's part of the pack" Paul introduces us and Leah gives me a serious but small smile causing me to feel intimidated.
"So you're the girl Paul imprinted on?" She asks me- I nod my head, "Yes"
"Hm, well this should be interesting. You're prettier than the last girl, that's for sure." Leah comments and I'm not sure how to take her words but Paul having a girlfriend before he met me makes me feel slightly second-rate.
"Oh God." Paul mumbles as a brunette girl approaches us, she's smiling and her long brown hair flowing behind her.
"Paul! It's so good to see you. I was hoping to run into you here, how are you?" She chirps, I sit quietly observing- Paul seems uncomfortable.
I look over to see Leah covering her mouth to hide a smirk.
"Fallon- Hey... This is Willow" Paul introduces me to the brunette who's smile slowly begins to fade as she finally sees me.
It was as if I were nonexistent to her until Paul said my name, she gives me a fake smile and flicks some of her hair behind her shoulder.
"Oh, hey. Nice to meet you" Her voice is laced with vexation.
Paul places his hand on top of mine which is resting on my lap, he gently squeezes my hand for Fallon to see. Fallon squints her eyes in irritation and turns around to sit next to Jared on the other side of the bonfire.
"Is that your ex?" I ask Paul softly.
"Unfortunately, yes"
"Oh. Were you guys together long?"
Paul looks at the fire and then looks back at me, "I feel like we should talk about something else..." He gives me a nervous smile and I nod my head knowing Paul doesn't want to talk about Fallon or their relationship.
After the bonfire, everyone gets up and begins to make conversation. Paul and I make our way over to Leah, Quil, and Jared who are all talking together, Jared sees us first and smiles friendly.
"So I hear Paul finally told you about his secret" Quil says referring to the phasing.
"Yeah, he did" I smile at the memory of Paul and I the last time we were here at La Push.
"Welcome to the club Willow" Jared says in a happy tone, I give him a smile.
I turn my head to look over to see Paul standing a few feet away from us in front of Sam, they seem to be having a serious conversation but they don't look upset. I walk over to look around the area when I'm stopped in my tracks by Fallon, she stands in front of me and fakes another smile- I can already tell this isn't going to go well and I can tell she isn't a fan of me for obvious reasons.
"It's Willow, right?" Her voice is slightly nasally and I would prefer if we weren't about to have any conversation.
"Yes" I really don't feel like speaking to her, this isn't going to go well- I can feel it. I glance over to see Paul who is still talking to Sam, I wish he would come and rescue me.
Fallon looks me up and down before crossing her arms and displaying another fake smile.
"So tell me how do you know Paul?" She asks me.
"What do you mean?"
"I don't know, like, maybe how you got to be Paul's date tonight?" Her tone is now icy.
"I don't know, we just sort of ran into each other I guess you could say" My eyes travel to Paul who is still talking to Sam, I'm growing impatient with Fallon but I don't want to be rude and cause a scene here.
"Fun" She displays a plastic grin before making her face sour again. "I think it's more than obvious to you and everyone else here that I'm Paul's ex. We were together for a year before you came into the picture"
"Oh... I'm sorry. I-"
Fallon scoffs and hides a laugh. "Please. Save your apologies, I'll have Paul's dick back in my mouth again in no time. You're just a play thing to Paul, I can totally tell that you're a virgin. I'm telling you, you're his play thing, you don't mean anything to Paul. He and I have something special and I'm not going to let go of it"
My mouth opens and I'm speechless, I can't find the words I want to curse at Fallon. I can't find my voice, I just stand there feeling my face get hot and the dreaded tears begin to brim my eyes.
"What?" My voice is soft and trembling as I fight the urge to cry. I can't cry, not in front of her.
"You heard me." Fallon's voice is hard, she gives me an icy glare before turning around to walk away.
My stomach feels like someone has punched me using a brick, I have a horrible lump in my throat and my cheeks are now burning with heat.
They were together a year? Did Paul tell Fallon about his secret too? How could I have been so stupid to believe Paul, I'm sure I looked like a complete idiot showing up with Paul tonight.
I look over to see Paul whose eyes meet my tear filled ones, he glances at Fallon and begins to walk toward me but I can't face him right now.
In fact, I can't face anyone right now. I just want to be alone, I feel humiliated. Paul looks concerned as he gets closer to me and I feel my legs take charge of my emotions as I run. My legs carry me further and further away from the bonfire as more tears escape my eyes, I'm feel so humiliated and I can't even bring myself to turn around to see if Paul is still following after me.
When I am finally far enough from the bonfire I stop running to catch my breath.
"Willow!" Paul's voice calls after me and I turn around to see Paul, he stops running once he's close enough me to me.
"What happened? Did Fallon say something to you?" He looks so concerned and worried. I turn away from facing him as I wipe the tears from my eyes.
"Please just take me home" My voice is barely audible, Paul tries to hold my hand but I pull it away from him.
"Willow, talk to me. What happened? What did she say to you?"
"Listen I don't want to talk about it. Please just take me home" I feel like I can't breathe- for whatever reason I feel a strong sting of jealousy.
"Willow, you mean the world to me. I know Fallon said something to you, whatever she said please just tell me so I can fix this."
I turn around to face him and it hurts to look him in the eyes after what Fallon told me.
"Did you have sex with her?"
Paul's eyes go wide- he looks shocked.
I look down at my shoes and close my eyes, I feel so humiliated.
"Can we talk about this?" Paul's voice is soft but it's laced with worry.
"Willow, look, it's true okay. Fallon and I were together for a while but then I met you that night at the diner and everything changed. I broke up with Fallon and I started seeing you, I don't know what she said to you but you mean more to me than anything in the world. I'm not who I used to be, you make me want to be a better person. Willow...You have to believe me."
Paul brings his hand up and gently rests it on my cheek, I lean my face into his palm and close my eyes for a second. His fingers tangle in my hair as he pulls me closer to him, our lips meet and he brings his other hand around my waist pulling my body much closer to his. The kiss is gentle but it turns rough as Paul tugs roughly at my hair, he breaks the kiss for a moment.
"I can't imagine my life without you" His voice is hoarse. Before I can say anything else he crashes his lips against my own once more as our tongues meet.
The kiss ends and Paul hugs me tightly, his skin is warm causing me to feel serene and comforted.
Paul and I walk back to the bonfire with our hands intertwined together, Fallon is nowhere to be seen and I couldn't be more happy that she's out of sight.
Quil spots us and walks over with a friendly smile.
"Everything okay?" He asks me glancing at Paul.
"I'm fine, no worries" I give Quil a reassuring smile which he seems to buy.
"Who invited Fallon tonight?" He asks Paul.
"I have no idea. How did she even know this bonfire was going on?" He replies in annoyance. Quil looks over to Jared and sighs.
"Do you think he told her about it?" Paul asks
"Well, I found out about the bonfire through a group text that Jared sent me earlier today"
Paul rubs his head and sighs at Quil's words.
"Have Jared delete her number. Willow and I are going to head home"
Hearing Paul put our names in the same sentence like that causes a small smile to appear on my lips.
"See you two later" Quil waves as he turns to walk over to Jared.
Paul places a kiss on my forehead as we walk to his car. Paul drives as the radio plays softly in the car, but he doesn't turn on the street to get to my apartment. He turns on the street to get to his house, I look over at Paul who's staring at the road but a smile appears on his face.
"I want you to stay with me tonight" He says in a husky voice.
"Okay" I don't object or protest, all I want is to lay in bed bedside Paul tonight.
Paul opens the passenger side door for me and we get out of the car. His hand intertwines with mine as we walk up the steps to his front door, he opens the door and the familiar scent of pine in his house softly fills the air.
Paul closes the front door and turns to me as he places a kiss on my forehead, then my nose, then my lips which causes us both to smile. A giggle leaves my lips as he kisses down to my jawline, his lips travel to my neck as he wraps his hands around my waist pulling me closer to him. He begins to gently suck on the skin of my neck causing my breathing to become uneven as I bite my bottom lip.
"You're so beautiful" He murmurs against my skin. His hands grip my waist as his lips meet my skin suck gently on the tender skin once more. "I want to make you feel good"
Paul brings his lips back to my own as he tangles his fingers in my hair, his tongue enters my mouth and I let him have dominance over me.
"Let me make you feel good" He murmurs in husky voice.
"Paul" I whimper softly. "I want you"
I hear the words escape my lips as Paul swiftly and smoothly picks me up wrapping my legs around his waist. He carries me down the hallway to his room all the while kissing my neck.
My back is met with the familiar and soft bed in the dark bedroom only lit by the moonlight shining in from the window.
Paul gently removes my shoes and my jeans, his mouth kisses my inner thighs and I shiver from enjoyment at his lips.
"You've never felt this before, have you?" He says softly.
"No.." My voice is quiet and I feel slightly embarrassed.
"Are you nervous? We don't have to do anything you don't want to do" Paul says as he sits on the edge of the bed by my feet.
"No, I want to" I whisper.
Paul moves to my thighs as he spreads them gently, his lips begin leaving a soft trail of kisses against my skin causing my breathing to become unsteady. His hands move to my underwear as he gently tugs them down to my ankles before removing them.
I feel his lips back on my inner thighs leaving small kisses trailing upward to between my legs.
His tongue meets my sensitive spot and I gasp softly in surprise at the new feeling of enjoyment.
My body squirms and whimpers begins to leave my lips as Paul continues to flick his tongue against my area.
"Paul" I moan breathlessly. "What's happening?"
I feel a strange tightening in my stomach as if something if building up.
"Let go for me, Willow" Paul whispers as he places his lips back between my thighs. I whimper as my hips squirm and move as this feeling of ecstasy that Paul as introduced me to. The feelings inside of me explodes like fireworks as I sharply gasp and my legs begin to shake. I arch my back and close my eyes as this feeling takes over my body.
My body relaxes and I lay on the bed trying to get my breathing back under control, Paul crawls up on the bed and lays beside me as he wraps his arms around my body. My eyes begin to battle with the urge to fall asleep as the feeling of relaxation covers me in Paul's warm arms.
"What was that?" I whisper to him.
"The feeling you just had?" He asks me and I slowly nod my head.
"You just had an orgasm" Paul places a small kiss on my lips. "Haven't you ever- touched yourself before?"
I shake my head, "No"
"Ever?"
"No, I never have before" A small smile of embarrassment plays on my lips and Paul places a finger under my chin and lifts my face up to connect our lips together.
"I want to make you feel what you felt tonight all the time" His voice is husky and warm.
"But for now, get some sleep beautiful" Paul places a kiss on my forehead as he cradles me in his arms as my eyes fight sleep I finally give in as I begin to drift off to sleep.
