I know this is odd, but stick with me, there is a plot here somewhere. FFN seems to be messing with this story, it is annoying me rather a lot. (P.S the title now has commas as it would not allow me to end it with an ellipsis (eg I just want to tell you...) *angry face*
January 3rd 2017
Gina.
I'm sorry about this morning. I only came by Mifflin to drop Henry's books off. He'd left them at the house and needed them for his homework. I shouldn't have got angry and started yelling at you, especially in your own home. I don't know what's going on with me lately but it seems my hormones are all over the place.
I wonder how long I'll be able to keep this diary going. Three days in and I'm already tired of it, but Doctor Hopper said it should help. There's so much I wish I could tell you Gina, stuff that I've kept inside for weeks, months, even years. You were the only one I could ever talk to, especially after Neverland, even more so that Mary Margaret. So why do I feel so alone?
I wanted to talk to you about maybe the three of us going out to dinner to that new Italian this week? I know nothing beats your lasagne but it would be nice to spend time with Henry, and you. I know it's your week with him but I've literally spent the first three days of the New Year alone. You know what, I'm gonna call you. Right now. Please say yes.
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Of course you'd ignore my call. That's just like you isn't it. Well, see how you like it. When Henry comes to stay next week I'll ignore every call. And you know you'll call. You never trusted me with our son did you? I don't know why I bother with you sometimes. I try my best you know, I'm the first to say that you were the best person to raise Henry, but I'm sure I've done enough to prove my worth as mother over the past five years? I know I've done enough to prove myself as a friend over the years. Who was the one who always stuck up for the evil queen when the rest of Storybrooke were against her? Exactly. Me. The woman who's childhood was ruined because you couldn't forgive a ten year old.
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I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that I know. Me of all people knows how much you've changed. I know you're no longer the person you were just like I'm not the person I was. And that's what made us such good friends.
God, I never cry. Why am I crying over you again?
I just want to tell you I miss you.
Em.
