Though I'm still not sure if I will carry on with this; I'm not used to the style of writing, one thing I do like is that I can update whenever I want and it fits.


January 6th 2017

Gina.

Bet you thought I'd given up on this whole diary thing didn't you. Well I'm not a quitter.

You know you seemed to almost care when I saw you today. Or maybe you only cared about leaving your town without a sheriff for so long. Well I said I'd only been gone a week or two. With you deeming me invisible for the last few months, I guess I was just surprised when you directed some conversation to me, even if it was only to tell me how disappointed you were in me.

I thought I would tell you before I told Henry, I thought I would give you that courtesy. Henry, who I was actually disappointing took it better than you. He seemed fine that he would get to spend another week with you, when it should have been my week.

You know why I'm not angry Gina? Because I trust you implicitly. I know whatever happens you will keep looking after Henry and raise him right. There was a reason after all that I gave him up. I'm not questioning whether you trust me or not, I already know the answer to that but I guess I just wanted you to know that despite everything, I do trust you with our kid's life, with mine even.

My point is, I'll be in Boston for a while. I would like Henry to spend time with me whatever time I get back, even if it's not my week. I'm asking, not stating. I miss my son.

I just want to tell you that I'm not running away. I will be back.

Em.