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Christian P.O.V
Fuck! FUCK! Storming around the classroom I was seething! I fucked this all up! Who the fuck was that? "Fuck!" I yelled knocking a load of books and papers of my desk and onto the floor. I turned and slammed my fists into the table, staying there looking at nothing. I closed my eyes and tried to steady my breathing.
"Um, Mr. Grey? Are you like ok?" I turned my head to see a young girl standing there. She's in this class with Ana I think. Licking my lips and letting out a breath I stood up straight.
"I'm fine. What can I help you with Miss…?"
"Smith... um Cordelia Smith."
"Off course."
"I was just coming to see about the homework assignment? I need a few more days to complete it."
"Whys that?"
"Well I just broke up with my boyfriend and I'm a bit down about it… can't focus well on anything… He was so like childish. Not really a man… you know Mr. Grey?" She looked up at through her eyelashes. Oh boy. It's just a pretty face sweetheart.
"Everyone gets the same amount of time Miss. Smith. I'm sorry about your situation but I hardly think a break up is reason enough to extend a deadline." She looked a bit shocked.
"Yeah but you see he was kind of like always saying that I was cheating on him with like older men and stuff… he really wrecked with my head. Messed me up a bit you know. Wasn't an ordinary break up. I mean older men flirt with me all the time and it's great having older men wanting you, they have so much more experience…"
"Miss. Smith I'm going to stop you right there. You are not getting an extension. Please have the assignment in for tomorrow. Have a good day." She looked completely taken aback. I don't have time for this. "Don't you have class?" She turned and walked away without saying another word.
I let out a large sigh. What have I done?
How could I have been so reckless. She's in high school… and I'm showing her a fucking play room? Stupid! I shouldn't have shown her so early on… what was I thinking?
I hoped she would have taken it a bit better... at least not deciding to leave me altogether.
"What did you expect you idiot? Damn it!" I just wanted her to know about that part of my life… to maybe think about trying some of it. I thought maybe she would have been just a little more open minded about it? Is that really that crazy? I didn't mean to jump right in and have sex then and there… I just needed her to know. I didn't want to keep it from her.
She's afraid… she doesn't understand this lifestyle. She thinks you want to beat her up or something…
"Fuck…"
Ana P.O.V
I dropped my bag on my bed and threw myself down next to it. I don't know what to do about this whole situation. I really like Christian but BDSM? I don't think so. How could he even consider showing me something like that? A good point is that at least I know early on and not a year down the line after I've gotten attached. My phone buzzed in my pocket. Reaching for it I seen his name on the screen.
From Christian – 4:01pm
Please Ana, I need you to talk to me about this
To Christian – 4:02pm
I don't know what you want me to say Christian
I got up and walked down the stairs to get myself a drink. Damn, it's hot today. I opened the fridge and grabbed a bottle of water and poured it into a glass adding loads of ice. Walking back upstairs I changed my clothes from jeans to shorts and a jumper to a white vest, folding the bottom of the shirt over my chest leaving my stomach exposed.
From Christian – 4:05pm
Me either… just please.
From Christian – 4:15pm
Ana, please answer me. We can't leave it at this
Looking over my messages I thought screw this. Throwing my phone on my bed again I walked out of my room.
"Hey baby."
"Hey mom." Drinking my water, I walked out the back with her following behind me. "What are you up to today?"
"Just wedding prep as always. Hey it's your 18th soon, what do you want for your birthday?" For things to be sorted with Christian.
"Nothing mom. You know me I don't like people spending their money on me."
"I'm your mother, it's my job." She laughed. "So what do you want?"
"You're too persistent you know that? Surprise me?" Nodding and smiling she walked back inside. I lay down on the sun bed, closing my eyes.
I must have fell a sleep because out of nowhere something very cold landed on my stomach. "What the hell?" I jumped up trying to swap whatever it was that landed on me. Standing in front of me. My mother was laughing, holding sun block in her hand. "Mom? Are you serious?"
"I noticed you didn't u..use any…" she got in between sobs of laughter. "Thought y…you could u…use some so you wouldn't b…b…burn."
"Ok mom haha. Calm down though before you pass out." I smiled. Rubbing in the sun block I noticed the hose. While she was doubling over I walked over and unwound the hose turning it on. Smirking I pointed it right at the back of her head soaking her.
"Ahhhhh! Ana! Stop!" running after her as she tried to run away I was able to soak most of her, before the water stopped flowing.
"What the…" pointing it towards myself I looked down the hose, dropping it quickly as the water splashed right into my face. Hearing laughter, I turned to see Bob holding the hose. He put a kink in it! "Bob!" I screamed looking down at myself… drenched. "I'm gonna get you for that." He sobered up quick and looked at me with panic. He knows my revenge can be savage.
I walked back a few steps and knelt down for dramatic effect for sprinting after him as he ran around the yard.
A few hours, lots of water, flour and a few eggs later we called it quits. It was getting darker and a bit cooler outside.
"Ana you are messed up." I turned to get a finial look at Bob, who was missing a shoe and had egg yolk dripping from his eyebrow. Smirking I turned back towards the house calling out behind me.
"You should know better Bob." I have some harsher feelings towards him because I feel like it won't be long until he's just another divorced man, but he really is an alright guy. I just don't want to attach myself to him incase mom leaves him.
Walking up the stairs, I made my way to my room. Peeling my clothes of and throwing them into the laundry basket, I made my way to the shower and turned it on to a relatively cold setting. I grabbed my PJs for tonight and glanced at my phone which was vibrating.
Incoming call from Christian Grey
Do I answer? Deciding against it I threw it on my bed and went to have my shower.
Jumping it, I loved the feel of the water washing everything away. What do I do? He has me so confused. I mean, I'm still a virgin, and we just started dating. Hell it took me long enough to convince him and he shows me that? What did he expect me to do? Jump with joy shouting 'Jackpot! Found a sadist on the first go!' Jesus.
Tomorrow should be fun, English for a double period, first thing.
"Hey Ana."
"Hey Kate, what's up?" Taking some books out of my locker, I leaned against it and smiled at her.
"Not a lot. How's it going with… you know who?"
"Voldemort?" I grinned, but my smile didn't last when she giggled herself but then mentioned Christian. "I don't think it's going to work out with us. He showed me something and it freaked me out pretty bad."
"What? It couldn't have been that bad." The bell rung and we started walking towards English. "Come on Ana. You were so desperate to get him to ask you out and when he does you decide you don't want to try?"
"First, I wasn't desperate. Two, you don't understand. He's looking for a relationship I don't think I can offer him. A sexual one."
"Well, that's what a relationship progresses to Ana, but if you decide he's not the one you don't have to do it, but don't break up with him before anything actually starts."
We reached his door and stood outside for a moment. "Kate, it's complicated."
"Ana… don't blow this. You will regret it. At least try, I mean does he even know you're a virgin? Because a lot of girls have lost it by 17 and he may think you aren't as innocent as you are."
"Well I didn't tell him, I just left when he… um… brought it up." She raised her eyebrows.
"You didn't even tell him?"
"Kate, what he was offering scared me ok, I didn't want to tell him my sexual experience was nonexistent I just wanted out of there… He's so…"
"Ladies, are you planning on coming into class today?" Christian stood in the door way with his hands in his pockets. Nodding and keeping my eyes down, I walked past him with Kate behind me. We made our way to our seats and it wasn't two minutes before Kate started again.
"Come on Ana. He is so fit." She whispered. Shaking my head and smirking I started to pull out my books and notes.
"Ok class. Hand in your papers please. As normal, pass them to the end of the row." Doing so I ended up taking my rows papers down. Exchanges of thank yous from Christian and the student was all I heard, even with all the talk in the class. All I could focus on was his voice, not really knowing how to act when I get to him. Should I be angry? Upset? Scared? Should I say anything?
"Thank-you, thank-you. Anastasia. Thank-you." I was the last in the que. Nodding I went to turn away, not sure what to say. "Ana, wait please." He whispered.
"What?"
"We need to talk, please."
"I have nothing to say to you Christian, I don't know what you expect from me."
"Nothing, I expect nothing. Just please, meet me here after school. I just need you to listen."
With a reluctant nod, I turn to go back to my seat. Looking down I see a small smile playing on his lips.
A few hours later the bell rang, everyone getting out of their seats. Kate and I headed towards the canteen for our break. "So what did he say to you? Most importantly, what did you say to him?"
"Doesn't take you long does it?" I laugh. "Well, I'm meeting him after school today. To talk."
"I don't see the problem here Ana. I mean yeah he brought up the sex kinda early but generally it's what most relationships head towards. Don't you think you are over reacting just a little bit?"
"Kate, it's not the sex that's a problem I mean look at him! He is so damn hot and to be honest I wanted to jump him since I met him but it's the… well it's the kind of sex he's interested in…"
"What are you on about? Does he want like a threesome or something?" She asked turning her nose up.
"What? No!" I laughed "It's…"
"Hey Ana."
"Jose! Hey." I smiled.
"I'm gonna give you guys a minute." Kate said, walking away with her tray of food.
"So you're actually going to talk to me now?"
"Ana, listen. I'm sorry. I know I haven't been the best of friends lately but it was such a shock to hear that you were dating… him."
"I know but it's not up to you who I date." Grabbing our trays, we walked side by side, making our way to the outside tables. "It's so amazing that you care about me so much, but Jose you have no right to get so angry about my choice in boyfriends."
"Ana it's because… well because I have… Ana I like you. I have always liked you, but you keep pushing me away. You won't give me chance. I have known you my whole life and I can't remember a time when I haven't felt like this about you. Please Ana, just give me a chance. I promise you, you will not regret it."
"Jose, I am so sorry, I can't. I don't know what's happening with me and Christian right now but I do know I want to figure it out. Please don't make me chose between you two." Sighing, he starts to get up to walk away. I stand up with him and put my hand on his wrist to stop him. "Jose please, I still want to be friends but I just … I don't feel that way about you, I'm sorry."
"Don't. Ok, don't patronize me like that. I get it, I'm friend zoned for life right?" He laughs sadly.
"Jose, please. I can't live with you hating me."
"Don't you get it Ana? I don't hate you." His voice started to rise. "I could never hate you, how do you not understand that?" I stood there. Not really knowing what to say at this point.
"This is just so overwhelming."
"I'll always be your friend Ana, you know that, but I also need you to know I won't stop fighting for you either." With a small smile he walks away.
Sighing I grab what's left of my lunch, throwing it away and heading to my next class as the bell rings through my ears.
