Chapter 115 Izzy has a panic attack

Izzy's POV

The next morning, we were all in studio A while Stormy was watching the kids. And we were all doing the semi finale dance rehearsal. But as we were all doing the semi finale dance rehearsal, I was looking around, I felt my heart was racing, my whole face and body started to sweat, I was starting to have a panic attack.

"Izzy, are you okay?" Jake asked me as I was now breathing heavily.

"I AM HAVING A PANIC ATTACK, JAKE!" I yelled a him as Austin got me a chair to sit on.

"I get you some water." Jake said to me while Peter came up to me.

"Izzy, what's wrong?" Peter asked me.

" I am panicking right now about the Nationals and my baby Boys first leg surgery." I said to him.

" It's going to be okay, you'll do great at during the nationals, and baby Jay will do great during his surgery." Peter said to me.

"Yeah, but I am worried that he might wake up during his operation." I said to him as I was taking a sip of my water bottle.

"You're going to be okay Izzy." Jake said to me.

"Yeah, but what if I have a nightmare tonight Jake?" I asked him.

"If you start having a nightmare, I'll wake you up immediately." Jake said to me.

" Thanks, Jake!" I said to him.

"Hey, Izzy do you want to take the rest of the day off?" Peter asked me.

"Yeah, I guess." I said to him as I took my water bottle and went into the cafeteria to hang out with my kiddos.

Jake's POV

As we all went home Izzy went to go take a nap, while the rest of us were in the living room watching TV.

"I am worried about Izzy Cubby." I said to him.

" Yeah, I was there Jake." Cubby said to me.

" Wait, what happens to Mommy?" Princess asked us.

" Your mother started to have a panic attack during our semi finale dance rehearsal." I said to her.

"Aww, poor Mommy." Princess said to us as I went to go check on her.

Once I arrieved into he bedroom, Izzy was now crying while rocking herself.

"Izzy, you okay?" I asked her as I sat down in her bed.

"J, Jake, I I, I am, worried...about, our son." Izzy said to me.

"Izzy, like I told you back at the dance studio, baby Jay's going to be okay." I said to her.

"YOU DON'T KNOW THAT! OKAY, YOU'RE NOT A DOCTOR." Izzy said to me.

"Izzy, I promise you that our son is going to be brave during his surgery." I said to her.

"I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO DIE!" Izzy said to herself.

"Izzy don't say that, you're not going to die not on my watch.

"Jake I do feel like I'm going to die, right now. My heart is pounding, and I also feel like it's going to explode." Izzy said to me.

" Izzy don't say that, you're not going to die." I said to her.

"I feel like I'm the worst mother." Izzy said to herself.

" Izzy, you're not the worst mother. You are a lovable mother to baby Jay, and Princess." I said to her.

"And you're the best big sister to cubby, and the best little sister to me even though you are my girlfriend." I said to her.

"I'm just worried about my baby boy." Izzy said to me as she started to cry on my chest.

"Shhhh, shhhh, it's okay there, there Jakey is here." I said to her as I was rubbing her shoulder.

"Hey, is everyone okay I'm here? I heard crying." Cubby asked us.

"Yeah, everything's fine Cubby. Izzy was just getting her emotions out." I said to him.

" Is there anything I can do to help Izzy?" Cubby asked her.

" Can you make me some ice tea with ice?" Izzy asked him.

"How about I just give you some water and ice." Cubby suggested to her.

"Okay, thanks Cubby." Izzy said to him as Cubby left. Leaving Baby Jsy and Princess with us.

As Cubby came back with Izzy's ice cold water, he gave it to her as she drunk it.

"Wow this water, is really cold. Thank you Cubby." Izzy said to him.

" Anything for my big sister." Cubby said to her.

"What about me?" I asked him.

"Were you the one crying?" Cubby asked me.

"Yes." I said to him.

"You're not getting anything from me." Cubby said to me.

"Aww man." I said to myself disappointed.

"So I don't get like a gold medal?" I asked him.

"Now why would you want a gold medal Jake?"used Izzy asked me.

"I don't know maybe I did something nice." I said to her.

"Daddy, you don't deserve a gold medal." Princess said to me

"Oh man." I said to myself disappointed once again.

"What, make you scared of baby Jay being in surgery Izzy?" I asked her.

"Well, I am scared of him waking up in the operating room." Izzy said to me.

"Oh." I sakd to her.

"I promise you he's going to be okay." I said to her

"Okay." Izzy said to me

"I'm also scared of him dying, and I'm scared of him being cut open. I mean, can you imagine how Princess would feel if baby Jay died? Actually, can you imagine how I would feel?" Izzy asked me.

"Well to be honest, you and Princess would cry, because you will miss him a lot." I said to her.

"Exactly, Jake. I just don't want our family to be falling apart if baby Jay died." Izzy said to me.

"And he's not going to." I said to her.

"But, the most important thing that I'm scared of, is Baby Jay being cut open." Izzy said to me.

"Well, Izzy Baby Jay is going to do fantastic." I said to her.

" I know he will. I have faith in him, even though I still scared." Izzy said to me.

"That's the spirit!" I said to her as I hugged her.

"Izzy, are you still scared?" I asked her.

"Yes, a little bit no, a lot. Jake I think I'm helping you know the panic attack." Izzy said to me as she was now sweating.

"Okay, okay, breathe Izzy breathe. Everything's going to be okay, Baby Jay is going to do fine." I said to her as she was breathing.

"Cubby, can you get Izzy some more water and some ice?" I asked him.

"I'm already on it." Cubby said to me.

Cubby's POV

As I came with Izzy's water, I have it to her as she drunk it.

"Dang you can really drink." I said to her.

"I'm thirsty." Izzy said to me.

"Izzy, are you sure your bladder can hold that much water?" I asked her.

"Hey I'm not a bad wetter, like you." Izzy said to me.

"Okay, now I'm scared of seeing Baby Jay after his surgery. I mean I can already imagine what he would look like." Izzy said to us.

"Izzy, I am sure baby Jay won't feel a thing. Besides, he'll be out like a light with his Daffy duck toy in his arms." Jake said to her

"Okay, Jake if your sure." Izzy said to him.

Izzy's POV

As we were watching Frozen, I was crying while holding baby Jay in my arms.

"Baby Jay, I'm scared for you." I said to him as he blinked while sucking his thumb.

"I don't want you to die, during your surgery. Please promise Mommy you'll be brave?" I asked him as he blinked again.

Jake's POV

As I was calming Izzy down, I have baby Jay his other Daffy duck toy.

"Shhhh, it's okay Izzy. It's okay, I am here for you.

"I know Jake, I know." Izzy said to me.

As I was holding Izzy by her shoulder while she was holding baby Jay, I was calming her down some more.

"I know your scared Izzy but, our son, our boy will do great during his leg surgery. And if he does do great, I'll buy ice cream for all of us." I said to her.

" Yay! And this is for celebrating Baby Jay's first surgery, right?" Izzy asked me.

"Oh, of course." I said to her.

"Wait, Jake, doesn't baby Jay have to eat soft food after his surgery?" Cubby asked me.

"He eats soft foods all the time Cubby, he's a baby." I said to him.

"Mommy, are you alright about Baby Jay needing surgery?" Princess asked her.

"Yeah, I'm okay sweetie." Izzy said to her.

"Okay!" Princess said to her.

"Baby Jay, I want you to be the bravest boy ever during your first ever surgery. Now I know what's going to be scary, and you might probably want us to be with you, but the doctors and nurses are nice and they will make sure that your leg will be as good as new." Izzy said to him.

"Mama!" Baby Jay said to her.

Cubby's POV

While Jake took baby Jay upstairs to his room for his nap as baby Jay was cuddling with his daffy duck toy, Izzy and I were talking about Jake's surprise birthday party.

"So, Cubby you know I am planning it all for Jake right?" Izzy asked me.

"Yes, but what can I do?" I asked her.

"You can order Jake's birthday cake, and not spill the anything to Jake." Izzy said to me.

" not to spill what to me?" Jake asked as he came back from putting baby Jay down for his nap.

"Baby Jay's surgery is in 5 weeks that's what I wasn't supposed to spill." I said to him.

"Cubby I knew that, I'm his father." Jake said to me as he sat down next to Izzy as she started to have another panic attack while I took Princess out of the room.

Izzy's POV

As I started to have another panic attack about baby Jay's surgery what's happening in 5 weeks, I was also anything about entering the hospital building knowing that baby J surgery will be happening in that he's staying in the hospital for a week or two. I don't know yet, because we haven't been told that he has to wear a hospital gown.

Not only that, he's going to be surrounded by doctors and nurses when surgical mask and surgical tools MD machines surrounding him. I'm also scared that he might try to take the wires off himself like Princess did when she let's put to sleep during her surgery and she's scared that he will be screaming for her to be with him.

"Okay so, next week, we will talk to Baby Jay's surgeon to talk more about baby J's operation that will be happening in a couple of weeks and to see if you or I can you do with Baby Jake to support him in the operating room until he falls asleep." Jake suggested to me while I wiped the tears off my face.

"Mommy are you okay?" Princess asked me.

"Mommy's just worried about baby Jay, but, I promise that baby Jay will be really Brave during his surgery and that he will be happy when they get to see him in the recovery room knowing that there by his side and that the doctors and nurses are going to take such good care of him." Jake said to her.