Luckily for me this week seems to be flying by. Living Takano-san is actually extremely easy. I felt a little awkward after I asked him to kis me but be both have decided to never mention it again. I am learning more at work and I am getting used to it. I think i would like to go into publishing when I graduate. It is interesting and thrilling to be a part of something like that. I am doing my homework in the lounge waiting for Takano-san to be done work and then we will go to his place together. Nii-san has called every night to tell me about his days, tomorrow is Saturday and I promised I would spend the day with him because I do not work.

"how is the school work" said Kisa-san sitting across from me

"not too bad, although I am not the brightest person out there"

I put my head down on the table. He laughed

"neither was I but I worked hard"

I nod

"I always do my best

" "well that is all you can do really"

I look up at him

"I got you hot chocolate"

"thank you" I take the can from him

"you're welcome, do you want any help?"

I shake my head

"nah I got this"

"big plans for your day off"

"visiting my brother"

he nods

"sounds fun"

"not really"

"oh?"

I sigh

"I don't want to talk about it"

"okay that's fine"

"come on kid" said Takano-san

"oh okay" I pack up and follow him out

"you shouldnt stress yourself out about it"

I sigh

"i know"

"all you have to do is, go, eat and leave

" "its just"

"because you were expecting him to not actually fall for your brother"

I nod

"well he didn't flat out say he likes your brother back so there is hope"

I shake my head

"I do not want to cling to it"

he pets my head

"good, don't, move forward always"

I nod

"do you want to come with me?" I ask. He shakes his head

"I will be on standby but you need to do this alone, you can't use me as a crutch"

I lower my head

"its all a part of growing up"

"why did I want to grow up again?" I ask him

"beats me"

I laugh

"same here"

"everything will be fine"

"I know I want to see my brother"

"good"

"maybe I should bring him something"

"like?"

"flowers"

"for? I don't think flowers are good for a divorce"

"maybe not"

"come on"

we get off the train and walk the rest of the way to the building.

"you do not need to do anything"

"I know"

I say as I lay on the couch. He laughs

"do you want to cook with me"

I nod and get up. We always cook together. It is fun and I enjoy our time together. Takano-san is probably the gentlest person I have ever met. At work he is high tempted and stubborn but at home he is gentle, soft and kind. He wants to help me and I feel like I owe so much for letting me stay here. We hear the door open and a man walks in. He looks at us

"hello" he says.

I bow at him

"hello" he looks confused and then nods

"you must be Takahashi Misaki"

I nod "I am Yokozawa Takafumi"

"it is nice to meet you"

"he is my best friend who I told you about"

"oh of course"

he looks me up and down and then nods.

"I came here to drop off the cat"

"oh right I promised to look after him for you"

he nods

"oh kitty" I say to the cat. He sniffs my hand and then jumps into my arms

"awwe you're a such a beautiful kitty aren't you" I say petting him Yokozawa-san gives me a look

"does he always act like that?"

Takano-san smirks and nods his head

"yeah he is like a fairy tale princess"

"hey I am not a girl" I yell at him but he continues laughing.

"are you staying for dinner Yokozawa-san?" I ask him

"no I was only here for that, I will see you around" he gives me a look and leaves

"well he liked you" said Takano-san

"really?"

"normally he is rude to people but he wasn't to you"

"oh"

"it is a good thing" I nod

"okay" as I take the kitty to the table with me

"he was mine but during college I was not able to care for him so he took him"

I nod

"oh he is so sweet" I pet him

"he likes you as well, so Yokozawa-san has a key"

he nods

"in case he needs to drop off the cat or I drop off the face of the earth"

I nod and look down "what's wrong? Are you jealous"

"what? No!" he laughs

"I was teasing, he and I dated back in college, I used him to get rid of my pain, I still feel guilty about that"

"I am sure he forgives you"

"he may but I cannot forgive myself"

I hold his hand. He smiles and squeeze it back and we finish our meal and head to bed.

"remember to call me if it is too much"

I nod and look at the building

"I promise I will"

he smiles and ruffles me hair

"I will see you later"

"or sooner is I choose to run away"

"remember be a grown up, I will stop at the store and stock up on chocolate and ice crem"

"thank you"

"you will be okay"

I nod and get out of the car and head into the building. I can do this; I can do this I keep chanting to myself. I open the front door and see no one

"Nii-san" I call and I hear something in the kitchen.

"Nii-san I am here" I see my brother and his wife cooking

"hello?" I say

"oh Misaki you are right on time"

"what is going on?" I ask walking up to them

"oh we got together the other day and talked everything out, we decided not to get a divorce"

oh no! Usagi-san!

"where is Usagi-san?"

"he is in your room; he has been sleeping in there all week"

"I will go get him"

brother nods and I run up the stairs. Why didn't he call me? I would have talked to him. I open the door and see the half naked man standing in my room. I look him over. He looks almost shocked to see me. he did know I was coming today? I close the door and go over to hug him.

"I am so sorry"

he is still but then returns the hug.

"you left me because you thought I wanted him?"

"I am so sorry, I didn't think they would get together, why are you staying in my room anyway?"

he throws me on the bed

"hey!" I yell as he climbs on top of me

"because it smells like you. Takahiro slept here and I almost couldn't smell you anymore"

"I'm sorry about him leaving you again"

"what exactly did you think happened between us"

"I am sure you were extremely charming now can you please get off of me"

"I called that damn Senpai of yours, he said you haven't been staying with him but refused to tell me where you were"

"I never said I was staying with Senpai"

"no but I didn't know you had more friends"

"well maybe I am popular"

I joke

"now please get off"

"why?"

"because I am not comfortable" I complain and try to break free

"you hugged me"

"I wanted to comfort you, I still care about you"

"nothing has changed you know that right"

I shake my head

"no I think things have changed"

"excuse me?"

"I want to move out on my own" he backs off

"excuse me?"

"I need to start looking for a place but I will"

he cuts me off by kissing me

"look I"

he cuts me off again

"I am sorry I gave you hope, I never meant to be cruel"

"no you were cruel the second you left me. I love you, not him you, you are it for me. I thought you knew that"

"you say it, I want to believe you but I can't"

"why not?"

"I am not moving out because I do not love you, I am moving out because I don't know who I am"

"you are Takahashi Misaki and you are mine"

I sigh and push him off of me. I am surprised that he actually moved

"I have learned a lot recently. I have lived my life based on what I thought nii-san wanted me to me. I have no idea who I am or what I want to be. I need time to grow"

he growls

"you can grow here"

"no I can't, I will be too busy trying to be the person I think you want me to be. You want me to be my brother as well"

he looked shocks

"no"

he takes my face into his hands

"I want you to be the brat that cried for me, the brat who takes care of me"

I shake my head

"I need to grow on my own. I think the time apart will be good for both of us"

"how?"

"if it was meant to be then we will only be stronger when we can be a couple again. If it is not meant to be then it will fall apart"

he sighs

"is this what you truly want?" I nod

"yes"

"I hate it" he leans in and kisses me again

"you don't have to like it but it is what is going to happen"

"how long"

"until I graduate, then after that I am all yours"

he starts crying

"it will be okay"

and I rub my hands over his face

"its not goodbye its see you later"