Year 1-Usagi

This year has passed by in a blur. I barley care about anything since he left. It hurts so much just to wake up and he is not there. I used to only sleep in his bed but it no longer smells likes him so what is the point.

"what do you want?" I say as the demon editor walks in with Isaka-san

"you need to get up and get out of this house. Go on a date"

I growl

"no" I say pulling the blanket over my head

"its been a year since Chibi-tan dumped you, its time to move on"

"I wasn't dumped, we will be together in three years"

" yeah yeah, he is dating why cant you?"

"excuse me"

"I am pretty sure he is dating one of my chief editors, they are awfully handsy with each other"

"it doesn't matter who he dates, he is still mine"

He rolls his eyes

"okay then get up, shower, date, live. Do you honestly want Chibi-tan to come home to a corpse"?

that gets me up

"oh Aikawa has it off can you give this to him from me"

I hand him the watch

"oh yeah its his birthday, you got him a watch"

"there is a tracker in it"

he raises an eyebrow at me

"are you serious?"

"yes"

"you want to put a tracker on Chibi-tan" I nod

"okay I will give it to him if you go on the date tonight"

"you want me to go on a date tonight?"

"it will keep you from wanting to kidnap him"

"I want to kidnap him everyday; he would try to escape if I took him now but I am never letting him out again"

"I hope you are joking"

"no" I shake my head.

He looks concerned but then shakes it off.

"alright I will text you the details of your date, don't be late".

I nod as he leaves. I don't care about the date, as long as Misaki wears the watch I will know his every move.

I endured that horrible date. The only thing that got me threw it was Aikawa texted me a picture of my sweet angel. He cut his hair slightly shorter. he still looks like perfection but I miss the way his hair would perfectly sit his face. Maybe I can get him to grow it out longer when he comes home. It was a man who was completely boring and dull. Be perfect for Haruhiko.

I have meetings all day that I have been delaying. I walk in when my angel, my sweet Misaki bumps into me. All I can do is look at him. He looks up at me. Those perfect emerald eyes that can always see into my soul. He bows his head

"I am sorry for bumping into you Usami-Sensi"

what. He talks on the phone and runs outside.

"Sensi we are going to be late" she screams at me until she sees who I am looking at

"he bumped into me" I say to her

"come on"

I follow her to these boring meetings. We are walking to the next one

"Masamune"

I hear my angel yell. I look and see him clinging to another man. I am just watching him as he comforts me. Until Isaka-san speaks up and they both look at us. I am expecting my angel to blush and jump away from the man but instead he leans into his chest.

What? Where is my shy Misaki who would never allow me to comfort him? I growl at the man as he holds Misaki head and pulls him away. I put my fist against the wall

"who was that" I say in a low voice

"oh that would be Takano Masamune, he is am chief editor for emerald"

he replied to me

"that is where chibi-tan mainly works now, if rumors are true then yes they are a couple before you ask that"

I hit my fist against the wall.

"take a couple of minutes" he says dragging Aikawain the conference room with him. I am leaning against the wall counting un my head until I hear someone walking back down the hall. Misaki looks at me. He bows to me

"Usami Sensi I am worry for bumping into you again"

that's it! I grab him and drag him into a bathroom. I want to fuck him against the door. I want him to scream my name so his editor will hear it and know he is nothing compared to me. Whatever Misaki is feeling is nothing compared to our love.

"hey what's wrong?"

he actually looks concerned for me

"you were hugging him?"

"eh"

I squeeze his arms

"your hurting me"

he complains. You are ripping out my heart slowly every day, you can out up with a little pain from me

"why were you hugging him?"

he is trying to break on him, like I am going to let him go now that I have him, "I basically had to beg you to hug me in private and you just give them away now" I say getting angry.

i would beg him for his attention for his love. I would survive on touching him alone and here he is getting all touchy with someone who isn't me.

"I miss your smell"

I take in a deep breath, I am hoping his smell will get all over my suit so it will smell like him for days.

"I tried buying the same soap you use but it is not the same"

I lick his perfect neck

"Usagi-san" I hear him moan.

How I missed that sound

"your body still knows who it belongs to" I say letting go of his arms.

I want to touch everywhere I need to feel him. I feel him getting hard

"you are responding perfectly" I whisper in his ear nice and low

"no I cant do that" he tries to push me away

"why?" I ask "I am not a cheater"

What he has got to be kidding me.

"you left me but you will be loyal to a simple toy"

"what?" he asks

"I agreed to this nonsense agreement because it is better to get you back in three years instead of you trying to run away" I say leaning into him again.

He would try to run from me. I would never allow him to get far

"your father thinks differently" I feel myself get stiff at that

"what did he say to you?"

"he was happy with your selection of a new partner, so don't lecture me. I can do whatever I want"

wow one date and he think I am over the most perfect person ever to me born

"when I get you back, I am never letting you go again" I say seriously. Which is true, he is never leaving my sight for anything ever again

"that sounds creepy" I pull back to look in his eyes

"why aren't you wearing the watch I gave you?"

"eh?"

"Isaka-san said he gave it to you"

"he didn't say you got it for me"

oh of course he left out that detail

"well I did, please wear it"

he shakes his head

"we agreed and he told me about how good you are doing with your work without me"

"I am doing it so you will come back"

"what if I do not want to go back"

I feel my blood run cold. Did he not understand that is not an option?

"you don't have a choice, you are mine, play with whoever you want, when you graduate you are mine"

I kiss those beautiful lips. I want to groan with pleasure but I want him to think I am actually doing what he wants so I pull away

"I will see you soon"

and I leave the bathroom. Isaka-san is looking for me

"ready to go?"

I nod and follow him to another day of meetings

I was happy when my phone beeped to alert me that Misaki moved. He must be wearing the watch. Good, I want him to have it. He is at the beach? Must be with those friends of his. I shake my head. Good I hope he has fun. I wonder if that stupid boyfriend of his is there as well. I have to go in for another meeting today. I just want to be alone but I wonder if his boyfriend is there. I drag myself to the meeting and pretend to be listening. I walk around the building until I see him. So, this is Misaki's current lover. He is tall not ugly by any means but he is not worthy of him.

"may I help you Usami-sensei"

"actually I was looking for you if you have a moment"

"I do

" he gestures for me to lead the way. I find an empty room.

"I think it is time we had a talk"

"I believe so as well"

"he doesn't love you; he will never love you. He loves me and only me. His heart, body and soul belong to me, you are nothing more than an amusement so I wouldn't get attached"

he chuckled

"oh do you know how I met him?"

"I could careless"

"you see his brother just called him and told him he was getting a divorce and had a crush on a man who was in love with him for ten years before pushing all of those feeling on his little brother, who basicallt forced an 18-year-old into a physical relationship"

I growl at him

"so he did what most kids do when they are under so much stress. He ran away. he was crossing the road and all of sudden he stopped, looked up at the clouds while a car was honking for him to move. I grabbed him before he was hit"

he did what because of what Takahiro said?

"after pulling him this kid who I never met before clinged to me for dear life crying his heart out"

I feel sick

"I told him to talk to you like a grown up but he said you love his brother, he is nothing more then a substitute plaything"

he stops and looks me over

"he was broken, you left him to go to his brother, making sure the message was loud and clear in his head. Then of course as you may expect his brother came to his home that he shares with his lover, to show his brother how much their love is true and to rub it in his face"

he sighs

"he came and lived with me for two weeks and until he found his own place"

"so he was with you?"

he nods

"I love that kid, I am not going to let you destroy him"

"I would never hurt him"

"but your father would. He called me to say he was going to hurt himself the night he came home to find your fathers gift and note, explain how worthless he is"

"I could care less about my father"

"and that is the problem, your father knows what Misaki feels, he wants approval that he would never get from your father"

I look away

"let him go"

I snap up

"never"

"why?"

"he is mine"

"he is not a pet, he is a person with needs you cannot fulfill, you know his brother barley speaks to him now because he is busy getting ready for his own family? He acts as if he doesn't care but it is killing him"

"and you think you can fulfil his needs"

"I will always be there for him"

"he doesn't need you"

he smirks

"its killing you isn't it? he still works, he is doing well in school. He doesn't need you and that is killing you"

I punch him in the face

"you are just a phase, he will be mine in three years and you will be nothing"

I storm out with that. Stupid man, who does he think he is, he is nothing and Misaki is mine, the only one I want, the only one who means everything.