**I DON'T OWN THESE CHARACTER'S*** Sadly. Hope you Enjoy this chapter
Eddie and Jamie decided to stop by a small family owned cafe for breakfast. They were almost done with the meal when Eddie paused.
"Jamie," Eddie questioned. "I can't help but feel this breakfast has an ulterior motive."
Jamie chewed the side of his lip thoughtfully. "Can't a guy take his girlfriend out for breakfast and not have an ulterior motive?"
"If we were a normal couple maybe, but we aren't a normal couple." Eddie articulated. "You can tell me anything, you know."
Jamie averted his eyes to the almost empty plate in front of him.
"I talked with my physical therapist and I'm making more progress than he expected me to. He thinks I am going to get most if not all of my movement back." Jamie explained.
"Eddie, he thinks I can go back to the job."
Eddie stared at him, she hadn't expected him to ever be able to go back to job.
"That's great!" She found herself saying, thought she felt like her heart had dropped into her stomach.
"Is it though?" Jamie questioned. "Should I even go back? We have two kids on the way."
"Danny seems to be able to do alright." Eddie mentioned. She did not know why she was defending the job; did she even want Jamie to go back? She enjoyed the idea of him doing a job that did not have the possibility of him getting killed.
"I just don't know what I should do?" Jamie sighed.
"Did he mention how much longer until you could be back on the job?"
"Still a couple months because of the gun shot wound healing." Jamie answered.
"Is this why you weren't able to sleep this morning and why we talked about you quitting?" Eddie questioned. "Why didn't you tell me you might be able to go back last night?"
"I was still processing." Jamie admitted. "I just don't know what I want to do."
Eddie reached across the table and took his hand in hers. "We still have time to think about it, we should just focus on the things at hand, like getting better." Eddie smiled, she hoped it hid her storm of emotions on the inside. She didn't know what to feel, her stomach twisted, whether it was from excitement or anxiety she didn't know.
"Yeah," Jamie agreed. "Let's just focus on the things at hand."
Eddie lay on the couch. Jamie was at physical therapy, she was thankful he could drive again. She was exhausted, she and Jamie hadn't gotten back to bed until after three-thirty. She smiled at the memory of their shenanigans last night. She closed her eyes, Jamie had sprung the idea of him being able to go back to being a police officer and to be honest she felt terrified. She had just almost lost him a few weeks ago. Slowly her thoughts stopped racing as sleep claimed her.
She woke up to a loud knock on the door. She sat up quickly grabbing her phone and saw that she had slept until twelve fifteen. Erin was supposed to pick her up at twelve ten.
"Coming!" Eddie called struggling to get off the couch. She padded over to the door and opened.
Erin stood outside. "Are you okay? I've been knocking for three minutes."
"Sorry, I fell asleep." Eddie apologized.
Erin's agitation disappeared. "Oh I remember those days. Do you need to grab anything before we go?" Erin questioned.
"Yeah, let me get my wallet and shoes. You can come in while I grab them." Eddie said turning around and heading back to the bedroom. Her shoes waited patiently at the door as she did a quick once over in the mirror tweaking her hair, and adding a little more lipstick.
"Okay I'm ready." Eddie stated, grabbing her purse and slipping her shoes on.
"Let's do this." Erin said with a smile.
Linda was already waiting for them at the table, when they arrived at the restaurant.
"How are you doing Eddie?" Linda asked, as Erin and Eddie sat down.
"Tired, and tired of being pregnant. I feel like the twins never stop moving." Eddie sighed.
"I remember that feeling." Linda said with a smile.
"How is Jamie doing?" Erin questioned.
Eddie bit her lip. She didn't know what to say, that he was getting better? That he was considering the NYPD, that he was considering becoming a lawyer.
"He's doing better." She finally resolved upon the best answer.
"That sounds convincing." Erin laughed sarcastically.
Don't say something stupid Eddie.
"Eddie, is something going on with Jamie that he hasn't told the family?" Linda questioned noticing Eddie's down cast eyes and thoughtful expression.
"If he hasn't told you then I don't think I should." Eddie returned.
"Is he okay?" Erin asked in turn.
"Yes, he's fine, just…can you keep a secret? " Eddie sighed.
"That's what these lunches are for, so we can talk about the men." Linda started.
"And figure out how to deal with them. Nothing said at these lunches leaves the lunches." Erin added.
Eddie took a deep breath. She needed to talk to someone, she felt like choices were waves crashing over her and she needed air. She looked down at the menu in her hands.
"Jamie and I are both thinking about quitting the NYPD." Eddie revealed. She saw the shock in both of the other women's eyes. "I am thinking about it because I don't know if I could leave my kids everyday knowing I might never come home. Jamie because…" Eddie paused, the women looked at her with compassion and no judgment. "He might not ever be able to shoot again, they don't know if his right arm will heal enough, but it looks promising. We are concerned about how we are going to make the finances work, he's thinking about going back to law. He told me today that he doesn't want to quit but he doesn't know if it's practical for him to stay. I want him to do what he's passionate about but a little bit of me hopes he can't go back. I don't want him to be in danger everyday. How do you do it Linda, watching Danny leave knowing he may never come back."
Linda laughed bitterly. "I don't know to be honest, just that I say a prayer everyday begging that he comes home safely and hope that my phone doesn't ring until he's safe in my arms after that shift."
"And you go through that everyday?" Eddie questioned, her heart falling even lower, she didn't know if she could do this.
"Until he decides to give it up, it will never happen, it runs in his blood." Linda remarked.
"I just don't know if I can do that everyday." Eddie sighed resting her hand on her forehead..
"You guys will work it out." Erin comforted. "Anyway, he won't be back on the job for a while now anyway."
"How's trail prep going? Is Sydney drilling you on what to say and how to say it?" Erin questioned. Eddie gave her a quick smile of gratitude for changing the subject off of Jamie going back to work.
"Wait Sydney as in Jamie's Sydney?" Linda questioned with a slight laugh.
"Wait no. I'm not allowed to talk about the trail!" Eddie interrupted. "Erin you should know that."
"Fine, we won't talk about it." Erin said.
"Sydney is back in town?" Linda exclaimed. "I can't believe it. I never thought she'd come back to New York, but to be honest I was kinda glad to see her gone. She wasn't good enough for Jamie"
"Agreed, when he told me they broke up I was just like 'thank God' " Erin joined in.
"Was she really that bad?" Eddie inquired.
"She wasn't a bad person, just not for Jamie. They brought out the worst in each other and she wouldn't take the time to understand the family business." Erin explained. "It was nice at first to have another lawyer at the table but she was in it for the money and the fame not for the pursuit of justice."
"I don't really know much about her. Jamie didn't tell me about her for a long time and when he did it was in passing." Eddie said, taking a sip of her water.
"Well, Reagan men don't talk about the past much." Linda cautioned, squeezing Eddie's hand.
"What have I got myself into?" laughed Eddie.
The women joined in. Reagan men were a special species of men.
Hey guys I'm back…Please don't hate me…I know I've been gone a really, really long time…I'm so ashamed that I left you guys with nothing and no warning for me being gone for so long. Did I have to go back and re-read this entire story so I could remember what I had planned. Yes….School got crazy out of nowhere and my health took a turn for the worse and it took me awhile to recover (*yay*), leaving very little to no fun writing time. I am back. School has calmed down and I am almost done for the year. (YAY!)
I am planning on holding myself to a writing schedule from now on. I am going to be posting twice a week, Wednesday, and Saturday. For this story at least.
ALSO! Who saw the finale coming? I was shocked when I found out (SPOILER) that Joe Hill existed…My mind is BLOWN.
Just a question, do want me to try and work this recent discovery into this story or not?
If you have anything you want to see take place in this story, please feel free to share it. I love hearing what you guys want to happen it helps when I have writers block.
This chapter was very heavy in Sydney hate…I never like Sydney and I always felt that Erin and Linda didn't either and I just kinda hate her…who in their right mind would leave Jamie...
Well, I love you guys and thank you all for being so patient it means the world to me! And I hope you are all staying safe out there in this crazy time.
Eliza
