Chapter 17

"Well thanks for dinner, I should get going, some of us have to work tomorrow. " Melinda looked over to see Amanda occupied with her new program. "You two have an appointment on Friday at 4:30. I gave her a brief update on some things but I told her you will have to fill in the gaps. Does she know about the appointment." Olivia and Melinda moved closer to the front door. "She does know, I can't start this relationship with secrets. She deserves to know what's coming and not be blindsided." Melinda agreed "Amanda! Melinda's leaving come say goodnight." Amanda had already started reading about her program and for the first time in months she felt like things were coming together. "Goodnight Melinda!" Amanda said giving her a hug. Melinda saw that Amanda's cheeks were flushed and felt her forehead. "Did you say she got vaccinations today?" Olivia turned around, "Yeah why?" Melinda grabbed her purse, "She's got a fever, but that's normal, so give her some meds. Goodnight girls!" Olivia grabbed some meds to get her fever down. "Here take these and I'm going to take a shower." Liv went in her bathroom to take a shower so she could relax in bed and read over some files. When she was done she went to check on Amanda. Amanda was in the living room setting up her laptop. "I'm going to take all of the core tests tomorrow." Olivia went over to her and picked up the laptop, "Here let's set you up at this desk." Liv started to move all of her books and things off of the desk. "I can't take your desk." Liv moved her stuff to an empty shelf. "Sure you can. I never use this desk anyway. I always end up reading my files on the couch or in my bed. This will be a good spot for you. Open the bottom drawer and you should see some new notebooks. You will probably need those to take notes." Amanda pulled open the drawer and took out the notebooks. "Thanks Liv! I'm kinda excited. I've always done well in school.

"Well I'm going in the bedroom to read through some stuff. Are you sleeping with me or in the other room?" Amanda stopped to think. "You will let me sleep in your bed?" Liv laughed, "Yeah, you did sleep there this morning." Olivia wanted Amanda to sleep with her until she got the nightmares under control, plus she enjoyed being close to her. Amanda jumped in Liv's king size bed, grabbed the remote and sat facing the tv. "If I keep the volume down, can I watch tv or is it going to bother you?" Liv smiled, it made her feel good Amanda was getting comfortable. "Watch anything you want." Amanda was excited, she turned on NBC to watch the Chicago Wednesday line up. Amanda was laying on her stomach, with her knees bent swinging back and forth. Olivia was happy to see that, thinking her bruises were healing. "What are you watching?" Amanda turned around, "Chicago Med, Fire, and PD, ummm you're a cop. It's an entire lineup of shows out of Chicago." Liv just shook her head and went back to reading. "Wait 3 shows, 3 hours?" Amanda said " shhhhh Liv do your homework!" Olivia couldn't resist, she reached over and smacked Amanda on her butt real good. "Owwww Liv that hurt", Amanda said rubbing her backside. Olivia laughed, "Good! It was supposed to. Watch your shows."

Olivia spent the next hour reading and making notes on the files. She looked over and saw no more swinging legs. Amanda was knocked out. She knew she had to be tired, plus the meds probably kicked in. She decided to DVR the shows she was missing since she liked them so much. After that she got up and turned Amanda around so that her head was on the pillow, kissed her on the forehead, and tucked her under the covers. She looked so peaceful. Liv could only hope she was beginning to heal physically and emotionally. She already loved Amanda so much. Olivia gathered her files and moved them to the drawer in her nightstand and got into the bed to go to sleep. Amanda had a nightmare around 1am, but because Liv was there, she was able to calm her down before it got out of hand. She felt Amanda stir and heard her whimper "Please don't hurt me! Please!" Olivia sat up, pulled Amanda close, "Shhh it's okay baby. You're safe. Go back to sleep." That was it. Olivia held Amanda close to her and they both fell right back to sleep. Some time later Olivia felt Amanda's hands rubbing across her body. It felt nice and Olivia felt a tingling sensation shoot through her body. She slowly opened her eyes to see what was happening. Amanda was still asleep, while her hands inched closer and closer to Olivia breasts. She began rubbing and squeezing and Olivia was wondering what would happen when Amanda woke and realized what she was doing. Just then, Amanda's eyes sprung open, she looked at her hand, and she jumped back from Olivia. "Oh my gosh, Liv I'm so sorry. I didn't know, I mean I didn't mean to touch you like that." Amanda jumped out of bed running to the bathroom, "Amanda it's okay. Stop! Don't overreact. I'm fine." But Amanda kept going, closing, and locking the bathroom door.

Amanda slid down the door, sitting on the cold bathroom floor. Her face was flushed, her heart was beating so fast, and her body felt like it was going to explode. She was attracted to Liv, but she was so embarrassed that she touched her like that in her sleep. "I'm lame. Who the fuck does that and in their sleep" Amanda whispered to herself. Then she heard a knock on the door. "Amanda? I want you to open the door. We need to talk about this. Don't hide from me." Olivia waited for a response and when she didn't get one, she decided to get tough. "Amanda Rollins you have to the count of five to open this door or you'll be sorry. 1...2...3…4" just then the door opened. Olivia saw the young blonde backing up away from the door. She slid back down the wall and sat with her arms and face on her knees, crying.

Olivia went over and sat beside Amanda. "I'm embarrassed okay? I can't believe I touched you like that" Liv put her arm around Amanda's shoulders, "Well I know you like me and I like you too, but I also want us to take this, whatever this is slowly. I don't think think this is weird, I'm sure eventually we will be doing other stuff too. I think it's my fault that you were touching me in the first place. You had a nightmare last night and I decided to hold you in my arms. You don't have to be embarrassed Amanda. We both have feelings for each other, so things like this are bound to happen. I'm not upset that you were touching me, but I am upset that you keep running from me. You've gotta stop and talk to me." Amanda lifted her head, "Liv that wasn't touching, that was practically fuc…" At the last word that Amanda almost said, Liv's head popped up. "If you say that word Amanda Rollins you are going to be in big trouble. Let's get the day started, you probably need a cold shower after all that touching. Liv gave her a kiss and left her to fix breakfast.