Chapter 19
Therapy appointment day. There will mention of sexual assault in case you don't like that sort of thing. 2 or 3 parts not sure yet. Hope you like it. Part 1
The night was uneventful. Amanda fell asleep in Olivia's arms. Olivia loved her and wanted to take her fears and pain away. She was worried about how the appointment would go, but she was going to stand by her. Olivia woke up to an empty bed and she looked at the clock. It was almost 11am and she must have been exhausted. She wondered where Amanda was, because she never beat her up and plus she should have heard her get up. In her mind, she freaked, it was Friday after all, appointment day. Olivia jumped out of bed searching the apartment. She stopped when she saw Amanda sitting at her desk with her headphones on working on her lessons. Olivia thought for a second that Amanda ran, she was relieved when she saw she was wrong. She walked over and wrapped her arms around her neck and took her headphones off, "Morning beautiful. Did you eat anything?" Amanda looked up, "No, I'm not hungry. I'm, I'm…" Olivia waited for Amanda to admit her true feelings. She knew this day would be tough and when she woke up to an empty bed, it scared her. Liv pulled her up and paused her computer, "Let's take a break, eat, and talk. This will be here when we are done. Can you handle eggs and toast while I get cleaned up?" Amanda shook her head yes and headed to the kitchen. "About time you cooked for me", Liv said smiling.
When Olivia was done she joined Amanda. She sat at the table where Amanda was pushing the eggs around the plate. Olivia said "Confession time. I'll go first, when I woke up in bed alone, I was scared you ran." Amanda stopped and looked at Olivia, "I'm scared of what's going to happen this afternoon, but I won't run from you, you asked me to stop." Olivia reached over and held Amanda's hand, "What can I do to ease your fears?" Amanda thought, "Melinda said she was off today and she set it up. Can she come talk to us?" Olivia got up to grab her phone, "Sure baby. I'll call her now, but you need to finish eating." Olivia called Melinda, "Hey if you aren't busy, will you come over. Amanda has some questions about Dr. Hanover's appointment." Olivia hung up the phone, "She will be over in 5 minutes." They finished eating, then they heard a knock on the door. Olivia went to answer it, "Morning Melinda." Melinda gave them both a hug and they sat down in the living room. "Melinda, I'm scared. Can you explain what's going to happen before I go." Melinda moved to sit next to Amanda, "I don't know everything that's going to happen, but she has helped young women who have been physically and sexually assaulted and even helped them with sex therapy and how to deal with life after the assault. I'm sure everyone's therapy experience is different. I just know she's a good person and all you have to do is be honest with her. If you don't want to talk about something don't. Express your feelings and don't worry about judgment. She won't judge you, I promise. Amanda I think you need this." Amanda still felt unsure, "Melinda, how do you know all of this? You saw some bad bruises that's all. I don't want to go and I know you've done nothing but help me, I just wished you would have asked me what I wanted. So what, she helped other girls, maybe I'm ok." Melinda looked at Olivia then back to Amanda, "I'm sorry. You're right I know I should have asked, but I know you need this because I was you Amanda. I don't know what happened, but I know something bad did happen. I know it was so bad that it's leading you to not love, care, or trust. I care about you more than that and so does Liv." Olivia and Amanda's eyes flew up at the same time. "I don't know your experience, but I'll tell you mine. I was sexually assaulted and I waited too long to get help. When I was in college I went to a party, met a guy, he slipped something in my drink, and he raped me. I woke up the next morning sore with bruises all over my body. I didn't get help, I didn't even tell anyone. Olivia is my best friend and this is the first time she's heard about it. I don't care if she knows, if it will help you. I let it eat me alive for years and when I saw what was happening to you, I didn't want that for you. I didn't want you to spend years that you can't get back. I see that Olivia loves you and you love her, but if you don't get help none of this will work." Everyone sat in silence and shock for 15 minutes. Olivia and Melinda had been friends for years and she never knew about any of this. "All I'm saying is give it a chance. If you don't like it and you don't think it's for you, don't go back." Melinda gave Amanda a hug and told her she could talk with her anytime. Olivia walked her to the door and gave her a big hug. "Thank you. I could have been there for you." Melinda shook her head, "No you couldn't, I wasn't ready, but she's got a chance now to turn it around." As Melinda left Olivia said, "I love you." Olivia went back to Amanda, "What are you thinking baby?" Amanda looked at Olivia, "I didn't know, she's so together. I mean she's a doctor, I would have never thought something happened to her." Olivia sat down, "Well you never know what others are facing Amanda." Amanda stood up, "I'm going to finish working so I'm ready to go when it's time." Olivia and Amanda kept themselves busy. They were both pretty nervous, but they knew it was the right thing to do.
