Chapter 17

"So you've finally arrived, Kagome has been asking about you. She keeps blaming herself for this happening." Miroku said to the hanyou who was walking with his head down, as he slowly made his way to the bench. His friend was holding a warm cup of coffee in his hand as he set. Even though InuYasha saved his life awhile back, Miroku felt he needed to return the gesture. "I think it's time to put the tough guy act away InuYasha, it's been five hundred years now since the death of your first lover. I think it's time you stop pushing people away and open your injured heart, at least let Kagome have a small part at of it."

Taking a seat by Miroku on the bench the hanyou cursed. "Dammit Miroku, you know how I feel about this! I'm not letting myself open to get hurt again, not by you or that woman in this hospital." His fists tightened as his mixed feelings grew. He wanted to open up, but the scares from the first woman in his life still hadn't faded. "Just because you humans live such a short life compared to me, doesnt mean I have to get over my past in the same amount of time. You think I like living like this, keeping walls up so I don't get hurt."

"Then don't InuYasha, there's no need to keep your walls build. The longer they stay up the harder it is to let them fall. You can't hide from the pain or the feeling of loss, you may be able to dodge it for a little while longer, but it will find you someday." Miroku placed a hand on InuYasha's shoulder and gave him a smile. "That Kagome is one strong woman if you ask me. I'm not sure what happened to her, but if I was her I'd be still unconscious." Miroku knew InuYasha for only two years as they worked together. And even if it wasn't a close friendship, he knew that InuYasha was still a friend in his mind. He started to chuckled earning him a growl from the hanyou beside him.

"Grrrrrr! Just what the hell is so funny to you?" InuYasha didn't take to being laughed at, even if he knew his friend wasn't making fun of him. However when InuYasha looked at Miroku he realized something. 'Even though I always said I wouldn't lift a claw to help any humans, somehow I always seem to help them in the end.' No not anymore he swore to himself after the wench was safe from Kouga he was gone. No matter how much the guy beside him told him it was time to let his walls fall. "Go on laugh but I'm telling you right now Miroku, once Kagome is out of harms way I'm leaving Tokyo for good!"

The laughter from Miroku stopped and he stood, with a small toss of his now empty coffee cup into the trash can. Miroku moved in front of him, looking up InuYasha wondered what words would come next from his so called friend. "Well InuYasha, if that's what you want. Then I'm sure neither me or Kagome can stop you at this point. Though maybe you should leave now, I think it might be better for Kagome if you don't make her love you anymore then she does now." With his hands now in placed in his pockets Miroku turned to leave, he could tell the word love hit InuYasha hard and a mountain of emotions were now hitting him. 'You can keep building your walls higher my friend, after they get so high they will start to crumble.'

InuYasha was going to counter Miroku's words, but when his mind finally cleared his was gone. 'Damn him, what does he know about it? Kagome isn't falling in love with me, hell she doesn't even like me.' He started to get up from the bench as well, letting his thoughts continue to race in his head. 'There's no way I hell I'm letting the pain of loving someone and having them die on me like my first lover did. Losing the one you love because you out live them is pure hell.' Walking into the lobby of the hospital he stated to remember her and the day she slowly slipped away. 'I wil NOT feel that pain again, EVER!'

On the other side of town Kouga was boiling mad. Kikyo had kept her distance and only did as he asked, still she was just as angry and at the same person as Kouga was. It was because of that bitch, that her lover was in this mood and now Kikyo feared Kouga would do something stupid and get himself killed. Her hands were folded in her lap in front of her, as she set on the bed and waited. They already packed and were ready to leave the area. For now it would be safer if he left Tokyo for some time, he needed to also chance his appereance. Which at this very moment he was cutting his hair short, his long pony tail gone and a pair of different colored contact lenses were now in his eyes. To Kikyo it wasn't her Kouga anymore, she loved his long wavy brown hair and blue eyes. Now his hair was short and black with brown eyes. 'Damn her to hell! That Kagome had no right to act so out of line, so what if Kouga came to me for extra sexual activities. My poor Kouga needed me to give him what she couldn't, as if some little girl could ever out preform me and my wild sex.' So engrossed in her thoughts, Kikyo didn't hear Kouga calling her.

"Stop your damn day dreaming woman, it's time to leave this place for a few months. I want them to think I gave up and quit, how sad that our next encounter will be our last my dear Kagome." Kouga gave a deep hard laugh at his plans, then grabbed Kikyo's hand roughly and pulled her off the bed and down the hallway. "You need to change your looks too, Kagome knows you're with me. And I sure as hell ain't loosing my cover because of you!" A disgusted look came to Kikyo's face at his words, but the wolf demon left his anger go long enough to stop kiss her lips hard. "Don't worry I'll make sure we both get the revenge we need to feel better, but first we'll make hard passionate sex just the way I like it!"

A naughty grin came to her, and with a hand now placed on Kouga's ass cheek, she gave it a squeeze. "I love our wild, hard passionate sex my dear Kouga. No one makes me feel dirty like you do."