A deep pain filled her at that moment, but at the same time she felt it was important for him to open up. "I see, well you know InuYasha. I don't see anything wrong with us just being friends." Even though she was finding herself wanting to be much more. 'No it's wrong to think about another relationship when I'm just getting out a terrible one. Besides he doesn't want me, InuYasha already said he doesn't want that anymore.' Her thoughts stopped when he took her hand and intertwined his fingers with hers. Looking at their joined hands made her feel a little better, but still somewhat confused. "Inu-Yasha?" She questioned, trying to understand his feelings.
Their hands still intertwined and his mind racing at what he was going to say next. To ease his mind InuYasha's thumb lightly moved over the top of her thumb and his eyes kept a hard look down. It was quiet for a moment as he collected his thoughts, wondering if he was really ready to finally open up. He felt her place a hand on top of his and slowly looked up at her sad eyes. It was then he knew that this woman held a great love for him and cared for him just like...
"Her name was Haruhi, her hair was like yours a beautiful raven color. I often ran my claws through it as we set on a hillside watching the sunset." He swallowed a lump in his throat as he tried to continue. "Haruhi, was so different compared to other humans. Caring, quiet, and most of all she never saw me as half a human. No, like you Kagome she saw me as an equal. We met by actiddent on day while I was in her village. Being a hanyou I didn't have a real home or village to stay in. Once someone knew what I was they chased me out." Kagome felt tears forming in her eyes as he told her the story of him and Haruhi.
*Flashback*
He was walking into a new village when a young woman with long raven hair and brown eyes bumped into him from behind. "I'm so sorry si...r, y-you're a hanyou?" He was about to start cursing when she giggled. "Well you sure are one handsome hanyou that's for sure. And your hair is white as snow, I just love snow it's so beautiful. May I ask your name?" Now his face began to turn red. Never before did he get a compliment for anyone, that alone a woman.
"I um, InuYasha. M-My name is InuYasha." She giggled once again this time at his cute red face. "Just what the hell is so funny wench?" His words caught her off guard and thinking she had upset him. She gave a gasp and started to apologize.
"I'm so sorry InuYasha, I didn't mean to upset you. I'll be on my way then." She turned to leave when his clawed hand stopped her.
"W-Wait, I'm sorry. Please may I ask your name?" Still she felt a little unsure and thought for a minute.
"My name is Haruhi, if you'd like I'm going to my hut for tea. I'd be happy to have some company." With a grin and a nod yes they headed to her place to relax. Of course people stared as they walked through the village still she didn't care and once in her hut, Haruhi made them both some tea. As they enjoyed their tea and talked, they quickly became close and after a year he asked her to move away with him and marry in his customs. Which they did, and soon after trying for a family. Which sadly was not meant to be, since she was unable to carry a child and they just decided maybe it was for the best. They were happy and very much in love till the day old age took her from him.
*End Flashback*
Once he finished telling Kagome about his life with Haruhi, his body stiffened and the feelings he felt once again attacked him. Kagome felt him start to release her hand and instantly she tightened her's. Now she knew his tough guy act was indeed a cover, a way for him to push those he truly cared about away. It was his way of not letting anyone get to close to him. InuYasha was surprised to feel her hold him back, it was starting remind him of her. 'Damn her, no...I can't...I won't let this break my walls.' He thought with a growl still it didn't scare her and held him tighter as he tried to move free. "Dammit Kagome let go!" He almost yelled. He really didn't want to be there in the room and her trying to console him, was only making him angry. He gave a hard pull trying to free his hands, but she held tight and was now in his lap on the chair. Both stared in surprise before he stood and placed Kagome back in bed. He said nothing and left, even though she was calling for him and asking for him to stop.
When he reach the door InuYasha turned and looked back at her. He could see the look of hurt in her eyes, it was a look he hadn't seen since she died. 'I'm sorry Haruhi, I said I would never let my heart love another, but this woman keeps making me feel like I'm back with you. I miss those days and I'm starting to think you sent this woman to me.' He closed his eyes after his thoughts passed and then looked down at the floor before speaking. "You don't need to feel sad Kagome, you're actually the first person in along time I've felt close to and part of that is because you give me a feeling of home when I'm with you." He gave her a smile and left the room.
The tears she had been holding back finally were released once she was alone. Her emotions were going in so many directions that she just felt like crying. Which didn't go unnoticed by the hanyou that just walked outside her hospital door. He hated the smell of her tears and to think he was part of the reason for her tears didn't sit well with him. Still he wouldn't leave his post by the door. Kouga was still out there somewhere and that bitch Kikyo was helping him. No he would never let her alone again to be hurt by anyone ever again.
