Chapter 37
"Liv why are you… yelling?" Amanda froze right in the bathroom doorway when she saw Liv on her Mac. Then she remembered, she just shut the top. "I'm in trouble again right?" Olivia tilted her head, "Come here." Amanda walked slowly dragging her feet. "You're not in trouble, although I would rather you not Google this stuff in the SVU squad room. Especially if you're using my computer." Amanda looked at the screen and then at Olivia, "I was just curious and I didn't want to ask you anything yet. Can we just forget about it?" Olivia closed the Mac seeing it was making Amanda nervous. "We can, but you do know you can always talk to me right?" Amanda bit her lip, "Do you have a vibrator?" With that question Olivia turned the TV off. "I do Amanda. What's this about? Come on no more hiding."
"Liv, after yesterday I started thinking that since you only dated guys and I haven't dated anyone, that maybe I can't make you happy. I mean I don't have a…a…you know a dick." Amanda swallowed hard. She was so uncomfortable. "Well I appreciate you pointing out the obvious, but I'm aware." Amanda looked down, "Yeah, but I've never had sex, so I don't know what I'm missing, but you. Liv don't you miss it. I mean don't even know what I'm doing when we fool around. Maybe you'll get sick of me." Olivia flipped Amanda on her back and kissed her forehead first saying "l", then kissed left cheek "won't", then kissed her right cheek "get", then licked the left side of her neck "sick", then sucked the right side of her neck leaving a mark "of", and finally kissed her hard on her lips, biting the bottom softly pulling it with her teeth "you". "Do you believe me?"
Amanda had done enough with Liv to know she was wet. She caught Liv off guard and flipped her on her back, pinning her arms over her head. "I learned that from you. My turn and yes I believe you." She tongue kissed Liv and moved her hand down her breasts to the hem of her night shirt. She drew circles with her fingertip around her stomach and belly button. "Liv your so soft." Then she slowly moved her hand in her panties which made Liv arch her back. "No no no! Be still isn't that what you told me." Amanda ran her fingers through Olivia's soft, wet folds. Olivia kissed Amanda and groaned. "Liv you're so wet." She inserted one finger in deep and Liv's eyes rolled back in her head. Then another until she was moaning. She moved her fingers and Liv was on the verge of screaming. Amanda found the spot and didn't even know it. She kept hitting it over and over, "Shit Amanda that feels so good. Do...you...know...what...you're...doing?" Amanda didn't really know what she was doing, only Liv seemed happy. She curled her finger and Liv moaned even louder, so Amanda moved her fingers faster and faster. "Ohhh!!! Go faster and harder Amanda!" Amanda was scared and she didn't want to hurt Liv, but she did as she was told. "That's it! Yessssss! Oh my God" She felt Liv tighten and everything squeezed. "How was that Liv?"
It took Olivia a while to gather herself, "Amanda, that was amazing! Wow!! And you are worried you don't have a dick. You don't need one. I need a shower and you need to change the sheets." Olivia took a shower, while Amanda changed the bed. She still wasn't sure that everything would be ok. The more she thought about it, she wasn't sure if she was worried about Liv leaving or if she was just curious herself. Looking at the stuff on the site was amazing and scary at the same time. She had so many feelings and she didn't know how to express them. This was how she always ended up doing the wrong thing. She needed to talk to Liv and tell her the truth. She wanted to try some toys, because Liv was it for her. It helped that she said she had a vibrator, maybe Liv wouldn't be totally against some of it, but not tonight. She climbed into bed and fell asleep not wanting to face Liv when she came out.
