Chapter 39

Amanda felt hot, really hot and not the good hot that she felt when her and Olivia were intimate. She tried to swallow and felt nothing but pain, "mmmmmm". She tried to clear her throat, which prompted her to squeeze her eyes shut tight. She felt like she was swallowing razor blades. She blinked twice and opened her eyes, which were now bloodshot red. "Liv why are you staring at me?" Olivia brushed her blonde hair, "You scared me baby, because you got so sick. You know Amanda I didn't think you were sick, I thought it had something to do with Tuesday night. You just didn't seem right and when I got out of the shower, you were asleep. After what we did, you didn't even wait up for me. Then, when I found out how sick you were, I felt bad." Amanda sat up, "Liv I'm okay. I didn't know I was that sick. I didn't feel that bad." Olivia sat back against the pillow, "Will you promise me to tell me if you ever feel really sick, because I just want to take care of you?" Amanda smiled, "Yes Liv. I will always let you take care of me, you do now you know." Olivia lifted up Amanda's shirt. "Really Liv? You're going to take advantage of me like this." Olivia narrowed her eyes, "Absolutely not! I'm putting cream on your rash. We will not be doing anything until all fever and antibiotics are gone!" Amanda sat up, "Livvvvv!!! I was just kidding!"

The rest of the week and weekend went by in a blur. It was spent sleeping, taking medicine, sleeping some more, and a little bit of eating, but nothing more than chicken noodle soup. Amanda's throat was so bad, Olivia had to force her to eat, but at least she kept drinking. They both were able to work from home. Amanda kept working on school stuff and Liv caught up on her studying and files. They didn't have much energy to do anything else.

Sunday night was the first time Amanda had something other than soup and Gatorade. "Yummy Liv! Mac and cheese?" Olivia set her plate down, "Yeah, I figured it would be smooth going down. Do you want some of my salad too? You haven't eaten much of anything." Amanda shook her head, "Yes please." Olivia put some on her plate. "I'm glad to see you eating. Amanda I'm going back tomorrow. Are you coming back with me?" Amanda thought, "Yeah why?" Olivia shook her head, "No reason, didn't know if you would feel like being there and on your medicine, but you aren't sleeping as much as before."

They finished dinner, packed up things for work, took their medicine, and had their showers. By 8:00 they were relaxing in bed with Amanda watching TV as normal. "Amanda can I tell you something?" Amanda put the remote down, and shook her head. "I know we've been under the weather, but I feel like something has been bothering you and you aren't telling me. Am I imagining it or do we need to talk?" Amanda never lied well, so now was the time to just say it. "Liv you aren't completely wrong. Something bothered me after the other night. I liked what we did, I like everything we've done, but I'm a little confused and definitely curious. I just thought that if I asked or said something crazy you would send me to therapy. And Liv I don't want to talk to Dr. Hanover about sex it's embarrassing. I'm 19 and I don't know anything, about this stuff." Olivia patted the bed beside her, "How about we take it slow and talk about it. Why are you confused?" Amanda struggled saying it out loud, "I don't get how you know what it feels like to have sex with a guy and now you're okay with me. I mean what we do feels so good, but how is that measuring up with a guys package? I guess I wonder what it feels like. I remember my friends would talk about their boyfriends.I know the first time hurts, but they also said it feels so good. I want to be with you forever, so I won't ever know, just you know... your….ummmmm…..your fingers. That's why I asked you if you had a vibrator, because I want to try stuff. Liv is something seriously wrong with me?" Olivia put her arm around Amanda, "No nothing is wrong with you, you're a horny teenager with hormones all over the place. You've said it yourself, you never had a thing for girls so, of course you want to know how it feels, but you love me. Amanda if you need time to live and explore, I will always be here for you. I was worried that we were moving too fast, with all this. I never wanted to push you. You aren't stuck with me. Do you want to try and date or find a boyfriend?

Amanda sat up shaking her head, "No Liv that's not what I'm saying. I don't feel stuck, I just want to want to try other stuff, but only with you. Until I saw all the stuff on that site, I just didn't know how it was possible. So when you said you had vibrator, I was wondering what you would be willing to do with me." Olivia listened to Amanda, she was glad she was talking. "Amanda I know nothing is wrong with you. It's sex Amanda and when you love someone, of course you want to show them how much you do, by doing certain things. I was waiting on you to say what you wanted. Did you expect me to dangle a vibrator in front of your face and say here screw me with this?" Amanda scrunched up her nose. "Amanda if you can't say it, you sure as hell aren't ready to do it. So with that said, now that we have talked, we can try some things. But let me be clear, we have to have full communication Amanda. It's an age thing, it's an experience thing and I don't want you throwing tantrums if I say no, or I don't think you're ready." Amanda shook her head agreeing with Olivia, she trusted her. "How about we get you a vibrator and you explore with it first, then I can help you, and we can see where we are. But don't you dare think we are getting strap-on. Well not yet anyway." Amanda fell out laughing and covering her face. Olivia climbed on top of her hold her down with body, "You're so shy about this, but so cocky about other things. You and your mix signals. You do need to do something before we do anything else sexual though and I don't know how you are gonna react. Amanda looked concerned, "Dr. Hendrix wants you to go to the Gynecologist. She needs to check you out and yes I will be there with you. Do you have any questions?" Amanda bit her lip and smiled, "Yeah. Can I get a BIG blue vibrator?" Olivia shook her head, "What am I gonna do with you." Amanda smiled, "Love me!"