Chapter 10.

In this chapter you will get to see one of Logan's therapy sessions.

Logan sat down to in the waiting room outside his therapist's office and waited for his turn. In the meantime he were texting with Rory.

" My mom and dad asked if we wanted to come down to the Hollow for a few days? If you're up for it?" ~ Ace.

"I think that would be a good idea, getting out of the city for a while. I'd love to, it's been so long since I saw your parents. When would we leave?" ~ Logan.

"Mom wanted us to come the day after tomorrow, but I said I had to check with you first. I really feel like we should get out more, a specially you." ~ Ace.

"I actually agree with you Ace, besides my therapist have been telling me to get out of the apartment more. So let's do it." ~ Logan.

"Great, I'll call mom now and tell her we're coming the day after tomorrow. Text me when you get home? I just have a few things to do at the paper. Love you❤️" ~ Ace.

"Love you too Ace.❤️" ~ Logan.

As soon as he had put away his phone, his therapist came and got him.

"Hello Logan, how are you feeling today?" asked him.

"Hello , I'm doing good actually. I haven't had a bad day for a few days now actually." Logan answered.

"I'm glad, now the last time you were here we talked a lot about you girlfriend and why you broke up. And that you are now back together again, how does that feel?" asked.

"To be honest she is the reason why I get up in the morning, she always manages to pull me out of my dark thoughts." Logan answered.

"That's good, now what about your parents? Have you heard anything from them lately?" asked him.

"Dad have called Rory a few times, demanding to see me. He showed up at her office a few days ago and started calling me weak. And that I have never had what it took to be the heir to the Huntzberger group and that is also my own fault for being depressed."Logan answered.

"How does that makes you feel? Your dad calling you weak and that it is your own fault for being depressed?" asked him.

"In a way I'm not actually surprised that he thinks I'm weak. I have been hearing that all my life, he has always thought that. But the fact that he says that it's my own fault for being depressed. It's like it's my dad's mission in life to push me further and further down, and make me feel even worse about myself." Logan answered.

"It's never really ones fault for being depressed, it's often the pressure that we are under from those around us or the society's expectations of us. In a way we always want to show people that we are just as good as them. And a part of that is that we don't show emotions as often like we need too. And we keep things bottled up inside, and one day everything just tips over." explained.

"I feel like everything is always my own fault for being like this, I don't feel like I deserve to be loved or that I deserve to live. That things would be better if I didn't love anymore. That people would be happy that I didn't live anymore." Logan confessed while tearing up.

"You're not the only one who feels like this, there are a lot of people who thinks the world would be a better place without them in it. But the truth is, it wouldn't. Think about all the people who are close to you, who would mourn you and miss you." told him.

"It's hard to think that people would actually miss me, they wouldn't have to deal with my insecurities. Or that I would finally stop feeling like this, the pain, the anxiety. Before I have been able to drink the pain away or hurting myself also helped. I hate to put Rory through that, her always seeing my scars as soon as I remove my shirt or have a t-shirt on." Logan said while trying his tears with some paper.

"Logan, I'm sure that Rory loves you for the person that you are. From what you have told me in our previous session's Rory isn't the kind of person who judges you for you insecurities. She cares about what happens to you because she loves you for who you are. Not for the person you are right now but for the person, she fell in love with." explained.

"You might be right , it's just so hard to see the positive in things and easier to see the negativity in things instead. Some days I just don't want to get out of bed, I just want lay under the covers and cry."

"I understand where you are coming from, I have had so many patients who have experienced similar things like you. It's not uncommon to feel like that. The important thing is that you have people who cares about you. It's also important that you try and drag yourself out of bed. I was thinking about giving you homework until our next appointment."

"What kind of homework?" Logan asked curiously.

"Well I want you to write down your feelings for every day that goes by. If you're feeling sad, angry, happy or anything else I want you to write it down. Just write how you are feeling that day and if you're trying something to make you feel different. And then next time if you want we can go through it together and discuss it." answered him while handling him a black notebook.

"I will try and write everyday, just to get things out of my system." Logan said.

"Good, then I will see you next Thursday Logan." told him while shaking his hand.

Logan walked out of office, walked towards the elevator, he pressed the button and waited. While he waited for the elevator, he texted Rory.

"I'm leaving now, is there anything you want me to bring home?" - Logan.

"If you want you could bring some food home with you? I'll try and be home before 6." - Rory.

"I'll bring some Sushi. Anything else you want me to get?" - Logan.

"No, Sushi sounds great. I will try and be home as soon as I can." - Rory.

"Okay Ace, I'll see you at home." - Logan.

"Oh I almost forgot how did your session go? " - Rory.

"It went okay I suppose. I have another appointment next Thursday." - Logan.

"I'm really glad that you are still going to see your therapist, I thinks it's something you need. You know talking to someone, but you can also talk to me no matter what." - Rory.

"I know Ace, I'm about to step on the elevator but I'll text you as soon as I get home."-Logan.

"You do that, I love you Logan." - Rory.

He read her text and then he put his phone back down in his pocket and stepped on the elevator and pressed the button that would take him down to the parking garage. Where he had parked his car. He walked out of the elevator and walked to his car. He decided to drive straight home instead of stopping for food. He figured he could always order in.

Fifteen minutes later he parked his car in the building garage at home. He road the elevator up to the right floor, took out his key and unlocked the front door. He walked into the apartment looking around to see if Rory was home yet, witch she wasn't. He sighed a little relieved, that she wasn't home yet.

He walked into the bedroom, and started to look through his drawers, looking for something. Then he finally found it. A bottle of whiskey, that he had bought a few days earlier, and he had then hidden it in a place where Rory wouldn't find it.

He sat down on the floor right next to the bed, he removed the cap, he gently moved it towards his lips. He could smell it, that familiar smell. He wanted to take a sip so badly, he wanted it so badly right now. "It would take away the pain." Logan thought to himself.

He were so caught up in his own thoughts that he didn't hear Rory walk through the door. He didn't hear her call out for him either.

"Logan? Are you here, I'm home." Rory called out.

No answer.

"Logan, where are you? Please answer, if you are here." Rory called out once more but this time with panic in her voice.

When Logan still didn't answer Rory decided to start looking for him. She decided to start in the bedroom. She walked into the room, she stopped in her tracks when she saw Logan sitting on the floor with a bottle in his hand.

"Where did you get that Logan?"

"I bought it a few days ago." He said between sobs.

"Did you?" She asked afraid of the answer.

"No." He whispered. I couldn't do that to you.

"Oh Logan." She whispered, she felt so bad for him.

"Why did I do this to myself?" He wondered.

"It is not your fault, you wanted to take away the pain. You were hurting." She told him, while gently sitting down beside him.

"I can't stop. I don't know how. I don't think I want. I just want the pain to be gone." He said while beginning to hyperventilate.

"Whoa, Breath, Logan." You are okay, I'm here with you. Please just breath. Rory begged him while she scooted a little closer to him, not really sure what to do.

"I'm broken Rory." He finally managed to say.

"No, you are not broken, you are hurting." Rory said while feeling the tears rolling down her face.

"I'm weak."

"No you're not, now please give me the bottle Logan. Please." She begged him.

"I don't know if I can." He said while looking at the bottle.

"Yes, you can. Please Logan, give it to me." She begged once again.

Logan looked at the bottle, then at Rory then the bottle again. Slowly he handed it over to her.

"Thank you Logan, I'm proud of you." She said while placing her arm around his shoulders.

" I'm so so sorry Rory." He said between the sobs.

"You didn't take a single drop out of the bottle and for that I'm so proud of you." She told him.

"It was so hard not to." He said while still crying.

After a while Logan slowly calmed down, once he could breath some what normal, he laid down with his head in Rory's lap.

"I'm always here for you, I'm not going anywhere." Rory whispered while drawing her hand through Logan's hair.

After a while from no response from Logan, she noticed that he had fallen asleep. She figured he had fallen asleep from being emotionally drained. From every that had happened in the last hour since Rory had gotten home.

I have never written such a long chapter before, lots of emotions in this one.
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