Chapter 71

Olivia sat on the bed patiently waiting. It had been 30 minutes and even though the crying had stopped, Amanda hadn't come out. Olivia walked over to the door. "Amanda do you want to come out and talk to me now?" She waited for a response, "No, because you're going to kill me." Olivia giggled to herself and took a breath, because Amanda probably realized how bad she acted. Whenever she was in trouble, she was adorably cute. "I'm not going to kill you, but we do need to talk about this. It would be easier if you came out." Olivia waited then heard, "No!" Amanda was brave behind the locked door. Then Olivia heard a knock at the front door. "Someone's at the door Amanda, I'll be back."

Olivia looked through the peephole and laughed, "She wants you over me. Should I be jealous?" Olivia hugged Kat, "Liv what happened? I couldn't make out anything she was saying. I heard, cuss, Liv, locked, bathroom, and belt." Olivia closed the door, "My belt is around my waist thank you very much." Kat laughed, "What's going on Liv?" Olivia explained everything starting with the call from Alex, the call to Ms. Hardwick, and the breaking it to Amanda and Kat lost all the color in her face. "That's old Amanda in there Kat and I don't know how to get her back and I want her back." Kat sat down with Olivia, "I hope she didn't call me to agree with her. There are just kids Liv, why would she react this way? I mean she can't be this cold and selfish. I mean she's not a kid anymore. Liv do you want kids?"

Olivia held her head in her hands, "Kat, she is a kid. Geez you're a kid. I don't think she's cold or selfish, so please don't go in there saying that. I think this is about not having her dad's love, and her having to clean up his mess again. They robbed her of her childhood, her innocence, and now her future." Kat didn't see it that way at first, "Liv you really should be in there, not me." Olivia stood up, "She wants you, but I promise I'll be right here when she comes out." Kat walked towards the bathroom, "Liv you didn't answer me. Do you want kids? I mean you two are both girls, so it's gonna take something different to make them." Olivia looked up, "Yes, I want kids, but those kids are her siblings and she's 19 and that's weird for her. We are in two different places Kat and before I told her yes on Christmas Day, I accepted the fact that I was gonna have to give up some of my wants. She's 19 and unless she wants them, because she loves them as her siblings, I won't put this on her."

Kat knocked on the door. "Amanda, it's me and only me open up." Amanda cracked the door and Kat felt like they were back in their old apartment the next morning. Amanda didn't even look the same. Olivia was right, this was old Amanda. Kat walked in and Amanda shut and locked the door. "Liv's not coming in Amanda. You don't have to do that, she respects you. I'm sorry Amanda. Talk to me." Amanda sat on the floor, her knees were to her chest, and her head was down on her arms. Amanda was 19 and technically an adult, but she wasn't an adult, she was just a kid.

Amanda lifted her head and Kat saw bloodshot eyes and tears falling, "I know what you two are thinking, I'm just a selfish baby. If it were you, Liv, Alex, or Melinda you wouldn't think twice. You would have already called and probably want to adopt them, but I'm the baby because I don't. My dad isn't like my mom Kat. He didn't want me, Kim, any of us. I cleaned up his mess for years, why do I have to be the responsible one. This is going to break me and Liv. I see it in her eyes, she wants them. I'm not dumb she's over 30, has always been with guys and I'm pretty sure kids were part of her plan. Now I have the chance to hand her 2 and I'm saying no. She won't want me after that."

Kat moved and sat next to Amanda and put her arm around her, "Amanda, she loves you and she would give up everything she wanted to make you happy and if you can't see that by now, I sure as hell can't prove it to you. Amanda you wanted her, you're great with math. You knew the age gap was going to make things harder and yeah you're just a kid and life has been so unfair to you, but your life brought you to Olivia. Relationships are about give and take. Just because Liv will give you everything doesn't mean you should take everything from her. I can tell you what I would do, I can tell what Olivia wants to do, but in the end you are the one who has to be okay with it. Kat stood up, "Amanda don't throw away everything you fought so hard for. Talk to Liv, work it out, and have some make up sex." Amanda covered her face laughing. Kat went to leave, "Amanda you aren't your mom, dad, or Kim. Your nothing like them and after everything they've put you through, I know you still love them. So I know this was a surprise and it wasn't what or how you wanted things to happen, but I know you love them too. You and Liv have a lot of love for each other and those innocent babies need a little bit of it. I love ya kid."