Chapter 72
After Kat left, Amanda came out 10 minutes later. She opened the door and saw Olivia sitting on the bed. "I'm in trouble right?" Olivia stood up, "I think I will give you a pass this time." Amanda walked over to Olivia, pushed her on the bed and straddled her. Liv didn't fight, but sat up on her elbows, "So we're back to replacing sex with talking. I know you're new at this whole thing, but usually you actually have to make up to have make up sex." Olivia gave her a wink, but Amanda started to cry. "I know it's a shock baby. The only thing I can say is, I will do whatever you want. We are together so we should decide together."
Olivia moved and held Amanda in her favorite spot. "Amanda talk to me. It's freeing." Amanda held Olivia tight, "Liv I care about them. I feel bad, because they're just babies who don't understand what's going on. I know you probably want kids and this is the only way I can give them to you. I think if I say no, maybe not now, but eventually you will hate me for it. I really only want it to be me and you and I'm being selfish. I'm scared because it's going to change everything." Amanda looked up at Olivia, "Amanda I do want kids, but I know this isn't ideal and they're your siblings. We don't have to do this. It's scary and lots will change, not everything but somethings. I don't want you to have regrets about anything Amanda. We don't have to decide today, but I would like you to talk to Ms. Hardwick, because they are your family. Amanda even if we decide this isn't for us, you still deserve to know them and be in their life."
With Olivia's support, they called Ms. Hardwick.
Amanda: Hi Ms. Hardwick, I'm Amanda Rollins. I heard you have been trying to reach me.
Ms. Hardwick: Hi Amanda! Wow Jesse looks like you. She's got your eyes and blonde hair. Noah looks like his mom though, brown eyes and hair.
Amanda: Can you send us pictures?
Ms. Hardwick: I can and I will, but I actually can do something better though. I can go get them now. I'm in their Foster home.
Amanda: Okay!
Olivia was happy to see and hear some excitement. It had been a rough afternoon. "Amanda, this Noah and Jesse! Noah say hi." Amanda saw two big brown eyes and a lot of teeth in the camera and smiled when he said "Hyee!"
Ms. Hardwick made Amanda feel a lot better. Amanda even had some questions that were answered. Olivia wanted her to say yes, but she didn't want to push her to say yes. "Ms. Hardwick you said you would rather place them with relatives and I'm it. I'm 19, in New York, getting ready to start college, you really think I'm the best option?" She smiled, "I'm going to be honest here, normally no. I've known about you for a while Amanda. This isn't Noah's first time time in Foster care. You were actually in Georgia and I didn't bother you because I knew your situation. I do my job and when Noah's case came up again and I saw it wasn't just him, I was hoping you were in a better place. And if it was just you I wouldn't bother you now, but I'm hoping with you and Olivia, you may want to help." Amanda started crying, "Hey it's okay! It's even okay if you have to say no, but I didn't want to keep you in the dark anymore. They are your family. They are safe okay and I don't expect you to make a decision right now."
Olivia spoke up, "Ms. Hardwick we appreciate everything you've done and are doing. Do you need anything from us?" Ms. Hardwick smiled, "I'll be in touch and I will send you files, photos, health information while you two decide. I would also like to video chat with both of you once or twice a week. Noah is older and whether you say yes or no, I think it's important that he is able recognize you. No pressure with this, but I notice a ring." Olivia and Amanda smiled, "Yeah this kid proposed at Christmas. No date yet though, I think we wanted her to finish college first." Ms Hardwick smiled, "That's nice congratulations, still no pressure, but let me drop this information and I'll leave you two to figure it out, but if you decide yes, and you're married, it wouldn't just be Amanda's name on the adoption papers."
When they finished the chat, Amanda felt better, but still unsure, "So great she wants us to take two kids, but tie the knot first." Olivia pulled Amanda in her arms, "Baby she said no pressure, stop thinking." Amanda didn't want to be held, "I'm going to take a shower." Olivia heard crying, she stripped and climbed in the shower and held Amanda. "You know you can cry in front of me. Tears fall the same, the shower won't hide them baby." Amanda turned to face Olivia, "I love you Liv and I will marry you right now and I don't want to turn my back on them. I just thought we had more time. It's all happening so fast. Let's do it! All of it! We've figured everything out so far together, no need to stop now."
After a very passionate kiss and a lot of touching, they dried off and headed for bed. "You know I'm excited about one thing, with kids, my punishment days are over." Olivia grabbed Amanda and threw her on the bed. She bounced a little while laughing, "Liv!" Olivia reached in her nightstand and pulled out her paddle, "Who said kids meant you weren't gonna be punished?" Amanda bit her lip "Whack" Olivia giggled when Amanda yelled, "We still need to talk about your mouth today."
