Regina's diary:

-Monday

Here I am, writing down my own thoughts again... It's been ages since I wrote down my feelings for the last time, but today I feel like I'm drowning. I desperately need to get this out of my chest. As I'm writing I find it extremely hard to stop my tears. I'm in the bathroom... I'm technically hiding from him. We had a fight again and this time it got even worse... he didn't just yell at me... this time he laid a hand on me. I never thought he was capable of such thing... don't blame me but I kinda believe that this is my fault! I haven't stopped mentioning her name today... I miss her more than ever! 6 months ago from today she died. Six months ago from today I walked into her nursery and felt the coldness. Not the actual sensation of cold air inside the room, but that weird feeling that there was something dead in there... I approached her crib and there she was. "Sleeping" peacefully! This time she was asleep forever... I wouldn't get the chance to see her beautiful eyes ever again, to hear her laugh and listen to her cute giggles.I miss the sound of her voice... but most of all I miss my Ophelia. My baby girl... he kept blaming me about her death for ages! He still does... but he doesn't mention it anymore. He despises me... I can feel that! Every time I look at him he looks away or just exits the room. This time he crossed the line. I turned him into that beast.. I took away both of his children. I took away my little boy as well... I'm the reason why everything is falling apart right now! When I first got pregnant I never expected that I would love her that much! I felt guilt... I felt that I was moving on! Oh gosh I didn't want to move on! I didn't want to forget Henry but the pain was too much. I had no choice... I am pretty sure that I will never see him again! He's vanished... and even if I ever saw him he would hate me! I'm a horrible person and now I'm paying for my sins... I accept that! But please... I can't take this anymore! I'm trying to find the strength to leave everything behind and start over for once again! I can't take this any longer... I'm driving crazy... I feel like I'm drowning!

Emma's eyes were flooded with tears. Her lips were shaking, and her hands were holding the page she just read tight. She moved her left hand and scratched the top of her head in shock. Regina had a daughter...

That's who Ophelia was! She shut the diary and placed it underneath Regina's pillow again making sure that she hadn't changed the position of the diary. She couldn't let Regina find out that she had read her thoughts and feelings.

She laid back on the bed and shut her eyes trying to relax. All these years she always focused on the horrible things that happened to her. Of course the one to blame was Regina since she was the one who casted the curse and forced snow and David to come up with a solution to save their daughter but now... she felt guilty. Her life was messy, but Regina's life was messed up as well.

They had multiple things in common. They had never experienced love and protection. They both forced themselves to build walls around them in order to protect their heart and soul from any possible heartbreak, and last but not least they were in need for a proper family!

She placed her hands on her chest and huffed in despair...

In the minute Regina was pacing up and down the halls in front of doctor Heart's office. The hotel had made sure that all residents of the hotel had the opportunity to visit a doctor in case something was wrong.

She sighted and took a look at her watch. He was late... he had another client in there for the past 40 minutes and Regina's impatience was growing bigger and bigger. There was no important reason for her visit at the doc but back then when she gave birth to ophelia, the labor caused a couple of fallouts on her body. She kept having migraines and stomach aches so the doctors subscribed her a couple of pills and doctor appointments in order to have a check up on a regular basis.

During Ophelia's labor she almost died... she lost way too much blood since she experienced an abdominal detachment. The baby came three weeks early and Regina had to stay in the hospital for a whole month.

Since then, it was a doctor's order to visit a gynecologist one time per month in order to check out if everything's okay. She tapped her foot on the floor neurotically and huffed annoyed.

What's taking him so long? She hated doctors... she hated hospital since Ophelia's last time in the hospital. It was the time that the doctors announced Regina that Ophelia was gonna die anyway. The chemotherapy and the pills were way too strong for an eight month baby and the cancer was spreading way too fast.

There was nothing they could do to save their baby girl.

A few seconds later the door of doctor Heart's office opened up widely and a short man with a camelback greeted her with a bright smile covering his entire face.

"You must be Trina Moore."

He smiled even broader and took a few steps back allowing Regina to walk in the room. He held the door open for her like a gentleman and shut it closed as soon as she walked in the office silently.

"Yes that would be me."

She forced a terrified smile and sat down on the black chair across his desk.

"You don't have to be nervous darling I don't bite."

He joked and wrote down a couple of notes on his notebook.

"So you're here for a Pap smear right?"

"Exactly."

"Is there anything I need to know about gynecological issues you had in the past?"

He scratched his head focusing on his notes.

"Ugh... I had my baby three weeks earlier. The doctors said that it was an abdominal separation. They advised me to visit a doctor one time per month to make sure everything's okay."

He then stood up from his chair nodding his head and smiled at her kindly.

"Okay follow me in the next room. There's a hospital night gown for you there! Put it on and when you're ready to start let me know."

Regina nodded uninterested and walked in the small room. She put on the hospital night gown and laid on the hospital bed. She spread her legs on the supporting equipment and covered the bottom area of her body with a white sheet she found on the bed.

Doctor Heart walked inside the room a couple of seconds later, but for Regina, the waiting time felt like an eternity. She was staring at the ceiling with that peaceful look on her face. She was trying her best to empty her thoughts as much as she could. She had to relax... she had to remain strong.

He put on his hands a pair of latex gloves and retained that stupid smile on his face. He spread Regina's legs open and grabbed a tool off the wooden table next to him. He cleared his throat and turned on the the light of the shiny floor lamp that was placed right next to Regina's bed.

She squeezed her eyes shut when her eyes started burning in annoyance and displeasure. She used her fingers and rubbed her eyes irritated and opened them again slowly focusing her vision on doctor Heart'a face.

He wasn't smiling anymore. His face expression was actually hard to read. He was now holding a long medical tool slot directing the tip of it towards her private parts. She raised her eyebrow looking at him closely. She had never seen any other doctor in the past using such tool during that specific examination.

Doctor Heart suddenly stopped, pulled the tool out and raised his sight towards her face.

"Is everything alright miss Moore?"

He asked with that irritating and goofy smile on his face again.

"Excuse me but no doctor has ever used such tool on me again... during previous examinations."

Her face concerned.

"Are you doubting my capability of being a good doctor Miss Moore?"

"No gosh! Of course not."

"I'm just doing my job here! I wanted to make sure that everything is alright so I decided to use another tool in order to be sure! Excuse me for doing my job right."

He rolled his eyes and stood up annoyed. He took off his gloves and threw them inside the dumpster.

"I didn't mean to offend you... I just like to be thorough."

Regina added to the conversation and sat upright staring at him.

"Maybe it's time you let go of your past miss Moore and start trusting people again and their professions."

Regina frowned looking at him in disbelief. That man acted like he actually knew her... what an idiot. She tightened her grip on the hospital bed in order not to snap at him and breathed out.

"Okay... so is everything alright?"

"It appears so."

He said through an unpleasant grimace on his face.

"You can go. I bet your medical insurance is going to take care of the bill so you're free to go."

Before Regina got any time to fight back, he walked outside of the room and slammed the door behind him.

People really need to stop being irritable she thought. She stood up pulling her panties up and then put on her black dress zipping the zipper carefully.

She took a look of herself on the mirror fixing her hair and walked outside of the doctor's office with her head high like usual and her feminine march.

What a woman...

In the meantime Emma was on a video call with Henry via Skype. She had missed his cute face so much that she really needed to see him ASAP. After her quick short time breakdown she applied foundation on her cheeks, and underneath her eyes in order to look normal again and pressed the video chat button on the top of her screen in order to call Henry.

Although she didn't see that coming the teenage boy answered the call immediately and seemed all excited and emotional as well. They had been talking for over an hour now, discussing about school, chicks at school and prom. Oh yes... it was about time henry would go to the prom.

It was supposed to be his last year at school before university so it was about time to celebrate his final year. He was in the middle of a dilemma though... two girls asking him out!

Emma couldn't actually believe that he was growing so fast. It seemed like yesterday that he was reading his comics at Emma while holding a Spider-Man doll on his hand, and now he was discussing about girls...

"I think you should go with Holly."

"Really?! Mummm! Natasha is our neighbor. In case I go to prom with holy she's gonna see me meeting up with her! She's gonna get hurt..."

He replied in soft and guilty voice.

"Oh come on kiddo! It's not your fault that you're so handsome and cool for her."

She joked and laughed.

"But still... Natasha asked me to prom first... maybe she should be the one I get to spend the night with. Rumors say that she likes me for three years straight."

He whispered the last part of his sentence approaching his face even closer to the camera like he wanted to avoid anyone in the house ear dropping.

"Honey you've been telling me about how perfect Holly is for so many years as well. I think it's time you get to ask her out and claim your princess."

She winked.

"How can I be sure that she likes me back? What if I ask her out and she rejects me?"

"Unfortunately you can't be sure. But you know what? In case he says no she has no idea what she's missing! You're an amazing young man that knows how to treat a lady right! Anyone who is around you henry should be honored to have such a amazing friend."

She smiled broadly and Henry smiled back shyly.

"So what should I do?"

"Ask her out kiddo. Give her a rose and tell her."

"So you think that a Rose is gonna do the work huh?"

He frowned rubbing his chin skeptically.

"Women love flowers so you can't possibly go wrong with flowers!"

She insisted smiling broadly when the door of the honey moon suite opened broadly and Regina walked in.

Emma's eyes widened open as she hid the camera of the computer and looked at Regina with her jaw dropped. Regina looked at emma in shock and then at the computer. Henry's face was distorted in shock. He covered his mouth with his left hand.

"MUM!"

He screamed at Emma in anger...

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