Mal double checked to make sure no one had seen them as they snuck into Ben's room at the ski lodge. The minute the door clicked and locked behind them it was like a magnet snapped them together. Their bodies crushed as close as possible and they devoured each other.
"I have barely been able to contain myself since cotillion," Mal breathed against their kiss.
Ben groaned, "You know know this is all I've been able to think about too."
Mal quickly spelled the room soundproof. She held Ben's face in her hands. "I'm ready. I want to be with you. How do you feel?"
Mal was terrified to speak those words aloud. What if he wasn't ready? What if he couldn't trust her like that after everything that happened? Ben stared back at her, "Of course I want to be with you, but are you sure? There's no rush."
"Yes I am."
"Are we prepared for this?" Ben asked her. He was prepared. He wasn't planning on this happening. But ever since cotillion he had been bringing with him what he needed. He respected that Mal hadn't wanted to plan this out. But he still wanted to be ready for the moment.
"I'm on birth control," Mal figured they could talk about that more in depth later. He just needed to know they were covered.
Ben kissed her, "Alright go get ready for bed and I'll get ready out here."
Mal gave him the most confused look and he smiled. "Just trust me," He held her face before she turned to go off into the bathroom.
The minute the door was shut Ben raced to his bag and started to scatter the purple petals and little candles about. He knew she might think it was massively cheesy but Ben had dreams of how this would go too. He just wanted it to be special.
When Mal walked out of the bathroom they both stared at each other with their mouths wide open. Mal from all the flowers and candles and Ben from the fact that Mal had just walked out in only her lacy black undergarments.
Mal found her voice first, "I thought you hadn't planned this."
Ben rubbed the back of his neck, "Well I didn't. I just kind of had this stuff ready."
"You just had it ready? Like you've been carrying around flowers and candles in that bag for a month?" Mal joked with him but one look at Ben's face told her that's exactly what he'd been doing. Mal's hand flew up to cover her mouth.
"Well not a month but maybe two weeks. I just know you didn't want to plan it out but I still wanted it to be special," Ben explained hoping that didn't seem crazy.
Mal threw herself at him, wrapping her arms around his neck, "You're really sweet. You know that?"
Ben breathed a sigh of relief and kissed her back running his hands all over her soft skin. She had been showing basically the same amount of skin all night in her bathing suit but this was different.
Mal started to kiss Ben's neck and balled her hands up in the bottom of his shirt to push it off of him. Once it was off she ran her hand down the front of him and cupped him through his shorts. But before she could start to work him he grabbed her wrist and gently brought it back up to safer territory.
Ben knew he wasn't going to last if she started with that. This had been building up for a month and they'd scarcely had time together. Ben again did a little research. He found that if he wanted to minimize hurting Mal then he had to work her up and keep her at optimal relaxation. He was trying to keep a light mindset and not feel the pressure.
"No let me take care of you," Ben moved his fingertips up her stomach and pinched her nipple over her bra.
Mal let our a quiet tiny moan but again snaked her hand down to grip him. Ben groaned both in pleasure and frustration. "Why," She asked with a smirk.
"Mal," Ben tried to warn but she kept stroking him and was beginning to sink down onto her knees. He had to muster up some self restraint and stop her. He gripped her waist and picked her up from her sinking and up off the ground to spin her and throw her down on the bed.
Mal looked up at him shocked and turned on. "You have to stop doing that Mal. I'm trying to make sure this feels good for you."
Mal laughed a little and leaned up on her elbows, "And what? I can't do the same?"
"It's not the same. I don't want to hurt you."
Mal sat up fully now and reached her arms out for him to step in. "I'm not afraid of you hurting me and you shouldn't be either."
"Please let me take care of you," Ben whispered holding her face.
Mal smiles up at him, "I'm going to let you but you have to trust me and let me too."
Mal leaned forward and open mouthed kissed his crotch right over his swim trunks. Ben knew there was absolutely no arguing with her so he just surrendered to it, "Okay." She teased him, kissing him passionately over his pants before finally pulling them down and diving right in to suck him bare.
Ben closed his eyes and tangled his hand in her hair careful not to hurt her. He surrendered to the feeling knowing he wasn't going to last long with how perfectly her tongue was stroking him. She grabbed his hips to pull him closer to her, bobbing her head up and down him at a more steady rhythm.
She was so warm and so wet and all he could think of was that soon he was going to feel what it's like to be inside of her elsewhere. Ben was absolutely right he didn't last long at all. Mal swallowed again, like she had that night on the boat, which only enhanced his pleasure.
He swooped down to kiss her. "I love you. Now can I take care of you?"
Mal laughed and pushed herself back into the pillows on the bed, "Yes."
Ben crawled up after her and started to caress her body. He wasn't just teasing for fun. He wanted to make her really wet and really heated before they continued. "You're such a tease," She breathed out. Ben let out a breathless chuckle.
He dove in to start kissing her body. Big open mouthed kisses, but nowhere she really wanted them. Mal kept arching her chest and wiggling her hips. Ben knew he couldn't give in just yet as much as he wanted to.
Ben bit at her nipples over the lace and Mal gasped, finally getting some contact. She arched her back into his mouth and he wrapped his arms around her back to unclasp her bra and throw it out of the way. His mouth descended on her breasts again, this time bare. But Mal's tension was growing below and she needed him to move his attention south.
"Ben," Mal moaned trying to reprimand him for teasing again but it gets lost in her throat. She tries again, "I didn't tease you like this."
"I need to make sure you're wet enough," Ben's voice is husky. He's definitely turned on again.
Mal decides she's had enough of the gentleman for tonight. She grabs his hand and uses it to grope he crotch and practically moans out, "Ben I promise you I'm plenty wet."
She doesn't even wait for him to respond. She hooks her hands in her underwear and slides them off of her. Mal pushes Ben's chest and he's so surprised he falls to the bed and she's able to switch their positions.
Mal climbs over him but keeps her hips up for a second. Ben's hands fly straight to them, trying to gather some semblance of control back. "The condoms are right on the nightstand." Ben tells her. Mal leans over to grab one and she rips to packet open, rolling the condom down him. Ben's hands flex against her at the feeling.
Mal and Ben lock eyes and she slowly starts to lower her hips. She rubs herself against his dick and they both are breathing much heavier from the first contact. Ben's grip on her hips tightens.
"This is it, I love you," Mal looks down at Ben. He smiles up at her and brings a hand up to caress her cheek with his thumb before returning it back to her hip.
Mal grabs his dick and Ben lets out a short breath as she tries to position herself over it. She doesn't know why but she starts to shake a little bit. Maybe she is afraid. Not that he'll hurt her. But that this will somehow change them. Somehow ruin the beauty that they seemed to have found with each other lately.
Ben brings her back to him. His hand is back at her face, "Mal look at me. Are you okay? We don't have to do this."
She leans down to bring her face closer to his. "I love you. I want this. I'm just a little nervous."
"I'm nervous too. I think that's normal. Let me take care of you?" He asks this of her for the 3rd time tonight and she finally understands what he really means. He means let him take the reigns. Let him guide them and let him brush all her worries away.
"Yes," She whispers.
He slowly starts to flip them so she can stop him. But she doesn't want to. He doesn't try to push in right away like she expected. Ben is licking and sucking at her neck again. And then her breasts. And finally down to lick her core. Just a couple of times and she feels herself completely relax into his love and ministrations.
Suddenly she only feels desperate to have him inside her. "Ben please."
Hearing her beg him had him seeing stars. Now was the moment. Everything felt so right. He crawled back up her. Mal immediately started rubbing herself against his hard on again. Until he was completely coated in her. They were both moaning as their hips found a rhythm. "I love you Mal."
"I love you Ben." Then Ben positioned himself and started to push in. The feeling was indescribable for Ben. Like a warm embrace that set him ablaze. But he was forcing himself to focus on her. He couldn't enjoy this if she wasn't also. He had to check in despite his panting, "Mal are you okay?"
It didn't hurt at all. But it didn't necessarily feel good. "It doesn't hurt. It just feels foreign. Why don't you try moving?"
Ben pulled back and then pushed in again. It was starting to feel less foreign and then suddenly everything changed with one rock of his hips. Mal let out a moan, "That- that felt good."
Ben moaned in response and set a rocking pace. In retrospect he was actually glad Mal had gotten him off because he had a little bit of self control. He probably wouldn't have lasted at all had they just gone for it.
Ben was getting completely lost in the feeling. Everything felt like a blazing heat and pure chasing bliss. Ben needed to get Mal there with him too. She got off the best from his mouth but that wasn't an option right now. "What do you need," Ben groaned and he rocked in over and over.
Everything felt amazing but it didn't quite feel like it was building anywhere for Mal. "I don't know but it feels good," Mal moaned back. "Don't stop."
Ben let out a breath. As if he could stop at this point. He leaned down to kiss her but they were both really distracted. Ben was completely losing himself. He hasn't expected to lose control like this but he wasn't sure he could hold on. He was getting close. And Mal moaning loudly and thrashing her head beneath him wasn't helping. Ben knew he needed more and his body was just acting on instinct. He pulled her hips up just a bit and started rocking at a faster pace.
Mal moaned out his name. This new angel felt like it was definitely doing something. She felt like fire. She felt completely surrounded by him and she never wanted to leave this bubble. She just kept licking and sucking at any skin of his she could reach from her position. He came down on his elbows so their bodies started sliding against each other. He was surging faster and faster. His eyes screwed shut from his effort. He opened them to look at her. He panted but couldn't stop, "Baby I can't hold on."
Mal brought her arms up around him to rub his back and gently started to move her hips with him. "Ben I love you let go." Their foreheads contented and they were totally lost in each other. He was making her feel so good but she knew she wouldn't get there this time. So she just surrendered over to the feeling, hoping to force him over the edge.
Mal moaning his name and rocking her hips with his was Ben's undoing. He came inside her with one forceful thrust and then collapsed. He slowly pulled out and Mal gasped at the loss. It felt really strange and she felt a little overwhelmed.
Ben rolled over towards her and started to caress her body. She was still really turned on and it felt tingly and amazing. He immediately started traveling down her body. His mouth ghosted close to her body but didn't kiss or touch anything until her reached her center. Ben stroked her with his tongue over and over and she was moaning quite loudly. She started to rock her hips like she was when they were having sex which was just so hot.
"Ben please," There she went again with the begging. Ben thought he might just be starting to get hard again which seemed impossible.
He knew what she needed from the way her hips were moving. His mouth focused its attention on her clit while two fingers started to dive into her. Mal forcefully thrust against his mouth and fingers, surging towards her release which was so close. Ben thrust back into her just a little harder and that did it. Her hips lifted up and his name escaped her through a raspy throat.
Ben crawled back up to lay with her. She was smiling and reaching for him. "Is it okay if I go get us cleaned up quick?"
Ben didn't want to leave her side, not at this moment or forever if he was being honest. But he had to throw the condom out and he wanted to help her too.
"I would go with you but I think my legs are jelly," Mal giggled.
Ben gave a quick peck, "Don't worry. Relax, I got it and I'll be right back."
Ben crawled back into bed with a warm washcloth and helped clean her up. She dove over him to grab a shirt of his out of his overnight bag and slipped it on. All warm and cuddly they snuggled down. Ben could not stop staring at her.
"That was- so overwhelming but in an amazing way. I love you so much," Mal told him, stealing a quick kiss.
Ben pulled her closer, holding her to him. "This has been the greatest night of my life. I love you more than anything."
