A/N: I'm not dead! …yet. But I am swimming in a pool of school work. I'll try to post as often as I can, and I WILL FINISH THIS! There's no way I wouldn't. If I didn't, I'd hate myself. I don't hate myself right now, but what I do hate is this Georgia weather! It's like 91 degrees Fahrenheit down here! Like Damn! Just checked Google, turns out its 93 degrees (34 degrees Celsius). I wish it would cool down. Enough about me, here's another chapter that has nothing to do with the weather. None what-so-ever. Hope you like it!
Rin and I have been doing a lot of hiding recently. With all the battles Sesshomaru's been getting into, at this point, we're dead weight. I'd like to help, but I'd get in the way, and I don't exactly trust leaving Rin with only Jaken. I don't know where things are with the Inu Crew, so I can't really tell what we'll be dealing with next. I don't even want to think about the fact that things are going to be screwed up because of me. I tried, I really did, but I still messed up in the end. I'm going to have to give Kagome back her jewel shard so the jewel can be completed and Naraku can be killed. Then I'll somehow get Tokijin to break, and we'll go from there. It won't be easy, but that's not going to stop me.
I sighed. "Death might though."
It's at times like these that I forget that Sesshomaru can hear my words, even when I whisper them. He stopped walking and turned around to face me. I'd never gotten that type of reaction before. I stopped walking and stared back at him. I can't come up with excuses all the time! Even if I were to say something now, it's too late! He'll know I've had time to think of an excuse. I could always lie, but he'll be able to smell that. So my Plan B was to have a staring contest… I blinked, damn it. That's not fair, the wind was blowing!
"Rin! Do you want to hear a story?" I asked the little girl, steering away from Sesshomaru's gaze.
"But Kazumi-san, I think Lord Sesshomaru wants to speak with you."
She caught the message! When did she start paying attention?
"W-What makes you think that?" I laughed.
"I have a feeling?"
"You're not sure?"
At that point, I felt Sesshomaru grab my arm and pull me off in another direction. As I was dragged away against my will, I tried to reason with Sesshomaru, but nothing seemed to be getting through to him.
"It's not a big deal. I didn't even say anything out of line this time!" I told him as I got out of his Hell Hold.
The man instantly grabbed my hand and continued to drag me behind him. He grabbed me by my hand…my hand. I insta-fangirled. Usually he grabbed me by my arm, neck, or kimono, but it's my hand now. Do they even think hand holding is a huge deal here? I-I-I don't think so…but isn't any sort of physical contact a huge thing? Oh my… this is a bit more than I can handle… though I can handle him basically giving me foreplay... I am a very special girl indeed.
When we stopped moving, I looked up at him for the reason as to why he dragged me out here.
"Explain yourself." He commanded.
"What do you mean?" I asked him, honestly confused.
The glare he gave me was sharper than any knife. I was left with that nasty feeling again. I did something wrong again, for sure.
"Your behavior, explain it."
"There's nothing to really explain…" I trailed off when I heard Sesshomaru growl.
"You have been lying and keeping secrets."
Oh, that behavior…
"…Well, I can't really tell you."
"Why is that?"
I exhaled a bit more loudly than I would have liked.
"It deals with what is going to happen?" he asked me.
"No, not really."
"Then why can you not tell this Sesshomaru?"
"We don't have the time for this. We need to-"
"Make time."
"But-"
"Tell me."
"You want to know so badly? I have a jewel shard, okay! Here, have it for God's sake!"
Out of unexplainable anger, I ripped the shard off of my neck and threw it at him. I don't know why I was furious, but I was! As a matter of fact, I was seething with rage! It was my turn to glare before turning around and walking away. I didn't care if he was going to stop me or not. I already had enough food on my plate. I don't need him shoving more mashed potatoes and gravy on! I don't care that they're the best darn mashed potatoes in the world!
But that doesn't mean that I should have gotten so upset. He was just worried, right? That time of the month must be coming soon. That's still no excuse. I need to apologize, but that's going to be pretty hard now. I threw a shard of the Sacred Jewel at him, and that wasn't exactly appropriate. If I think hard enough, that scene kind of looked like an angry wife throwing her wedding ring at her husband. That's if you think about it… I never could handle pressure, but I have a feeling that I'm going to see a lot more of it.
I looked around for a while, but couldn't see Sesshomaru. He usually came out to get me, or stopped me before I got too far, but this time he didn't. I know I said/thought that I didn't care if he did or didn't, but I lied. I'm very moody today for cryin' out loud! It's still my fault for the lack of communication though.
I ended up having to look for the jewel shard. Surprisingly, I was able to find it exactly where I left it. Luck was on my side at this exact moment. After deciding that I needed a little time to myself, I decided to go toward the scent of flowers. I eventually came across a field of flowers. The flowers must have bloomed recently since they were giving off such a sweet smell. I sat amidst the foliage and thought to myself.
'I'm not mature enough for this, am I?'
Mature enough for what?
'Marriage, and all the complications that come before and after it.'
I don't think anyone is when they first start off. At least for people like you.
'I don't think there are many people like me.'
You'd be surprised.
'Yes, I would be.'
Talking to split part of one being, yes, but being nervous and insecure because of love, no.
I don't understand why you are acting so stupidly, just calm down and think about things. I'm sure everything will be just fine.
Is that a feather?
It was indeed a feather, Kagura's to be exact. Then everything clicked. The smell of blood and Naraku's revolting miasma filled my nose. The feather landed next to me softly. I quickly gave her my complete attention, and saw what I expected, only a bit more gruesome. There was a hole in her chest, and the disgusting purple fumes were seeping through. Blood was staining the white flowers under her.
"Kagura…"
"The last person I expected to see." She chuckled.
"Yeah."
I sat with her and just stared at the sky.
"You know, I really hate Naraku." I told her.
"Who doesn't?"
"…I used to think of you as competition, and I don't really know why. You just wanted to be a free woman, and wanted what every other woman wants. You didn't ask for much, but… it's really mean, how the world can be."
I've never felt this useless, other than the time my parents died. I was sitting here, watching her die slowly. I couldn't find much to say to her, seeing that I'm not very social at times. I could feel my tears slowly roll down my face, the same tears I cried when I first watched this Final Act episode. I didn't look at Kagura, but I could tell that she was surprised.
"You deserved better, since the beginning. I've had my share in having a horrible fate, being left all alone, you know. But know that you're not alone, and never will be, just like me, because they'll always be there."
I couldn't keep the tears down any more, and let them blur my vision. I had said "they." I slipped up. The memory of my parents had gotten to me again.
"You, you came." Kagura said in surprise as she noticed Sesshomaru
I sat and listened as familiar words were said. Though the exchange was short, it still pained me. I know I acted as though I hated Kagura, and questioned if I should pity her, but that doesn't meant that I'm a cold hearted bitch that doesn't care if someone dies in front of them. When she finally faded into the wind, her feather danced in front of my face before it floated off. That stupid feather… was very endearing at this moment.
After InuYasha and his friends came and Sesshomaru told them that she was smiling, I went over to Kagome. I took the shard that was in my hand and placed it in hers.
"I've decided that this doesn't need me anymore." I told her. "It won't help if I have it, so put it to good use."
She waited a moment before speaking. "You were crying."
"Death and I have mingled a couple of times, so this isn't easy for me, no matter who it is. Besides, everyone deserves to have someone cry over them, right?"
A/N: Okay, so this chapter actually did have something that dealt with weather in it. Trust me when I say that was not planned. Did you like it? If you did, there's this nifty keen box that you can leave a review or comment in. If you hated it, there's still that nifty keen box! Abuse it's power!
