Everyone was fighting but me. I remained inside the room I was in. I could hear the rumbles of the two Great Fangs as they combined their power to take on their common foe. I held my clothes on tightly as I heard the battle rage on. I could only wait. I don't want to hinder them any longer. Kagome had untied me before leaving to fight. I sat quietly as I tried to smooth out my hair. With trembling hands, I wrapped my kimono around my body again and held it in place. Naraku had only torn an arm sleeve, thankfully. I stared at the kimono cloth draping around me on the floor. I could see the fine cloth becoming damp as drops of my tears fell on it. I could not stop my sporadic crying.

Once the battle had finally come to an end, the giant spider started to head to the ground. I stood and went to the door that led outside with the assistance of the wall. My legs trembled too much to walk on their own. There, I saw Sesshomaru. He extended his hand to me. I couldn't help myself from simply staring for a brief moment. I was hesitant. Would he still want me, even though I've been touched by that vile creature? I know that I didn't want it, but still. It was because I came in the first place that it happened. Sesshomaru held his hand out even further. I slowly took his hand, and he pulled me into his embrace. We left the giant spider together. I placed my head in his chest. I wanted to be nowhere else but in his protective arms.

Once we landed, the giant spider disappeared before touching the ground. Everyone in InuYasha's team celebrated the death of Naraku. Miroku's growing Wind Tunnel had disappeared completely and left no threat to his life. Sesshomaru landed with me, and I didn't leave his embrace. I didn't want InuYasha to smell Naraku on me. I knew instantly what was happening as Kagome was dragged into a dark abyss. InuYasha instantly opened a Medio Zangetsuha and followed.

"What just happened?!" Sango asked.

I quietly explained what had happened, and watched as horror came onto their face.

"If you knew, you could have stopped the reincarnation from doing that to her!" Sango yelled at me.

"I couldn't have. If you've forgotten, I was preoccupied." I said sullenly.

Everyone was silenced by that. I said it because Sango wasn't considering my side of view, and to remind myself of how freaking useless I am.

"Even if I did try, it has to happen. InuYasha needs to realize how much Kagome means to him." I continued.

We all went back to the village to wait. During the first two days, Sesshomaru refused to allow anyone to see me but Rin. This bothered me. I was glad to have Rin with me, but Sesshomaru was not. After placing me in the house, I didn't see him. I guess he didn't want me anymore, and that he felt as though I deserved a better death than dying from the fall.

I sent Rin away, and sat in the house by myself. I didn't know what to think about other than how pathetic I am. I tried to keep myself from crying, but that was impossible. The thought of losing Sesshomaru's love was worse than being killed in cold blood.

I covered my face with my hands, as I heard the door open. I tried to quickly dry my tears, but was interrupted by Sesshomaru himself. He held my chin and looked into my eyes. I couldn't look in his.

"Why are you crying?" he asked me.

I was reluctant to speak, but I needed to get used to the truth.

"It's okay if you don't want me anymore. Being the Lord of the West, I'd guess that you wouldn't want someone defiled." I said.

"Defiled? He had his way with you?"

"He wasn't able to… but the thought of-"

"You are a fool."

I looked at him with a confused face.

"You are not defiled if he did not finish, and I would never let you go." He said.

"Then why have you been avoiding me?"

It was his turn to be silent for a moment.

"I was not able to protect what is mine. I imagine that you would want a new protector."

I stared at him. Why was he filling his head with nonsense? I've been hurt before, and sick, and I didn't leave him. Why the hell would he think this now?!

"What the hell? Of course not!" I yelled at him. "You have the audacity to call ME a fool?!"

Yes, I yelled at him.

"Even if that was true, though it never will be, you should have stuck to me and tried to win my favor back! You should know that leaving me alone after something that psychologically disorienting doesn't help me in any type of fashion!"

"You should know that I will never let you go."

"Well, that's easy for you to say! You're not the one that's completely, and utterly in love!"

"And who told you that lie?"

I opened my mouth to say something, but stopped. Who told me that lie? … He loves me? My body went limp as my eyes widened slightly. He LOVES me. I grabbed him, and pulled myself onto him.

"You love me." I said happily.

I could tell that he didn't mean to tell me yet, and that I had gotten it out of him. I was too happy to care. I held onto him. I love him, and he loves me. The fact that he can even say that means so much. He must have been thinking of it before he asked me what it was that night.

"Hey, is something wrong?" I heard Miroku call as he entered.

"Get out!" I told him.

He instantly did, and I treasured this moment a while longer. Love fills your head with nonsense sometimes, doesn't it?

The third day went by slowly but eventually, they came back and looked more in love than ever. I was happy. My mistakes made no huge impact on the ending. Everyone that's supposed to be alive is alive, not too many casualties from the messed up plot… Everything… had… ended well…

I felt drowsy and felt myself fall. My biggest fear was coming true. Seeing the shock in everyone's eyes as my eyesight darkened, especially Sesshomaru's, made my heart ache. I tried to speak before falling asleep, but had no luck.

….

I was in bed. It was afternoon. It was 12 o'clock. I knew because of the clock in my room. I sat in my bed and cried until 1 o'clock when my sister came into the room.

"Oh, you're awake." She said.

"Yeah." I said with lack luster in my voice.

"Have you been crying?"

"Yeah."

"Did you have a bad dream?"

I managed to not start crying again after she asked. "Yeah, a really bad one."

"A penny for your thoughts?"

"No, I just want to be alone."

She granted my request and left the room. I sat in bed with my head in my hands. I could feel my face beginning to stick to my hands with my tears as the adhesive. There was still a chance that I could go back, but the feeling in my gut was telling me that a void was beginning to grow. If I was going to go back, why would a void grow?

I didn't want to talk to myself. I didn't even want to think, but Sesshomaru continued to float through my mind. The man that had grown to love me, and I, him. I was being forced to walk away from my fantasy and to join "the real world." I forced myself out of bed and into the bathroom. I stared into the mirror, despising the person looking into it. Why did I want to go home in the beginning? If I never thought of it, I… My eyes were bloodshot and puffy. I washed my face in hope of clearing away the tears, but ended up taking a shower.

I stood in the falling water after scrubbing. I would return to the boring life I live. I turned off the shower and dried myself before leaving the bathroom. After a faithless day, I went to sleep early. I had school early the next morning.