I chocked on air. How was it January?!
I believe I have to tell you now. As you roamed the other world, another part of you roamed this world. Time continued to pass in both realms. [Beast]
'Oh… so when am I going back?' [Me]
I do not know if you will ever go back. But if that time comes, you will not be able to return to this world. [Beast]
'Of course I'm going back! There's no way I'd stay here. I mean, I've gone back and forth, so I should be able to go back.' [Me]
I don't think you understand. [I]
'No, I think YOU don't understand! I'm going back! Why do you all want to keep me here? You know I'm not happy here!' [Me]
Kazumi… I know it's hard on you, but you need to accept the truth. You might not ever go back… [Myself]
'But, but I did what I was supposed to do there, why can't I be given the choice to stay?' [Me]
It's because you're finished there. [I]
'Then I won't be finished. I'll find something else to do, something else to fix!' [Me]
We're sorry.[Myself]
'…I'm really not going back? No, I-I-" [Me]
need to get dressed for school. [I]
'…Can't that part of me continue to roam this world? Can't I go back to Sesshomaru?' [Me]
…
I couldn't believe it… I knew it wouldn't last forever, but… I can't just stop going. They weren't the ones that decided last time, so they can't decide this time.
I probably would have believed that it was all a dream if I had not gotten better at sports, and if Beast wasn't in my head. I'd go to sleep many nights, hoping and praying that I would return to Sesshomaru, but it never happened. I was hurting myself. I would always sleep, keeping that shimmer of hope that I would return, but every time I woke up, that hope was shattered, and it shattered me. That small little amount of shattered hope hurt the most. It felt as though my heart was treading on a path filled with shards of glass. Even though I knew this, I would always pick up the shard of hope and glue them back together, just for them to shatter again.
Three years had passed and the cycle continues. I had kept track of time unintentionally. I sighed. I'm 18 now, and going to college. I had great choices… but I still felt empty inside. There were days when I couldn't will myself out of bed. Because of this, I started therapy, but since I wouldn't speak to the therapist, I stopped. They've tried a psychiatrist, but that didn't work either. I've been growing distant from my family and friends, and I always find myself looking outside, imagining the life I could have lived. They've classified me as depressed and even prescribed pills for me. I'm sure they wouldn't have worked since I don't have Depression, but I didn't want to get un-depressed anyway.
You're still depressed? [I]
'Should I not be?' [Me]
It isn't good for your body. [Myself]
'I don't care.' [Me]
You know, you should be on acceptance by now. [Myself]
What the hell do you mean? [I]
'The Kubler-Ross model of grief.' [Me]
Oh, yeah, that. Seriously, you're going to kill yourself with grief. Don't end up like Romeo's mom! [I]
What is it that troubles thee to such extent that thy own soul is on verge of corruption? [Myself]
'Thou dost know well of what troubles thee.'[Me]
I went to sleep early that night with that thought. I was going to have a busy day tomorrow Moving into dorms is no easy task, especially when you have to catch a flight to New York to get to school. Thank God for scholarships.
I woke up because of how cold the room was. Why is it that my parents love sleeping when it's freezing cold? My eyes had to adjust to the lighting. Why did my sister always have to dress …with the lights on? I wasn't in my room. I looked behind me and saw Bone Eater's Well. I instantly stood up and looked around. Was this some cruel joke Myself, I, and Beast were playing? I pinched myself, but to my surprise it hurt. It hurt. My surprised face instantly turned into one of absolute happiness. I was back.
I looked one way and saw InuYasha coming. He jumped onto the well and put his hand in. He was extremely happy to feel someone grab on. He pulled Kagome out and held her tightly. I smiled at the little scene, but was surprised, again, to see cherry blossoms falling, mainly because there weren't cherry blossoms trees here. I turned around, and to my great joy, there stood Sesshomaru as surprised as I was. Tears accumulated in my eyes before ran over to him and threw myself into his embrace. I buried my face into his kimono and cried myself a river. Once I was able to look at him, I saw a pure smile on his face. I pressed my lips onto his own and gave myself to him in my entirety.
He wiped the tears out my eyes and comforted me for a while longer.
"I'm back, and this time to stay." I promised
Epilogue
"What are you doing?" My mate-to-be asked me.
"Oh, I'm sorry. I was reminiscing." I answered.
"Of what?"
"Our love story."
"Why?"
"It just feels good to remember sometimes."
"Then remember, that you are mine and mine alone."
"Of course, do you think we would have gotten this far otherwise?"
"…You have done it again."
"What?"
"Shown me the woman that changed my heart."
"Oops."
He brought me closer to him, and nuzzled my neck. I loved it. It was adorable how he made sure there was enough of his scent on me. I returned the favor, a bit more seductively. I kissed his neck and then sat him down on the seating. He would not escape me. Our kiss was gentle and loving. My hands ran down his chest and his down my waist and hips.
"Kazumi-san! Come with Rin!" Rin exclaimed as she ran into the room and grabbed my hand. She dragged me up from my spot on top of Sesshomaru.
"'Come with me.'" I corrected again as I held onto Sesshomaru's hand.
I would never let him go again, and I had the feeling he felt the same. Way. Toward. Me.
