UnderSwap Sans X UnderFell Sans
Coffee
CHAPTER TWO
A/N: Ahhh! Chapter two so soon? I feel so awesome XD
This is centered around Sans. F Papyrus
Swap walked down the driveway, taking one last glance at Fell's house before moving on to his car. He let out a held in breath, not really wanting to leave the other alone just yet, but he had made the right decision. This was all going much to fast for either of the skeletons. He smiled at his own patience.
He opened the door to his beat up old truck and clambered in, ready to drive home and wallow in emotions for a few hours, as that was all he could ever find himself doing. Swap looked out the window, turning the car on. He sat in Fell's driveway for what seemed to be an eternity, until he pulled himself together and began to drive on with a contemplative face.
By the time he was home he had thought over everything that had happened to him since he had met Fell. Damn it was pretty great to live, if it meant he was anywhere near the other monster. He had pretty much fallen in love since he first met the amazing Fell. Sans had introduced them. Sans pretty much introduced everybody to everybody. It was pretty great at some points, but at others was a pain... Like at that moment it was a mix of the both.
He smiled to himself and stepped out of his now turned off car, and into his apartment. Unlike Fell, he liked the close compactness of many people and monsters living together. It gave him some security. He opened the black painted door and stepped into the cinnamon scented room, grinning madly. He loved cinnamon. With a swift slam of his door, Swap walked over his couch and flopped down, hugging his knees to his chest. He liked the feeling of hiding his vulnerability with his body, like he was covering up his soul. He did that a lot, like a self comfort, but only when he was alone, because showing such weakness around others wasn't his thing. He decided to try to think about anything but the man he had left behind, and found he couldn't, because his brain was an unbelievable butt. He smiled.
He really did like Fell, well most of Fell. He could do without the swearing. But he liked Fell's rashness, and the way he always spoke his mind, weather you would like it or not. He thought of how Fell always managed to embarrass himself to the point of getting red and looking away. Swap pretended not to notice when Fell did this, because he tried not to embarrass him. He was a good guy, no matter how mean or brittle he could be, or how cruel he sounded at times. Swap really did like Fell, he did. But what he couldn't get past was the fact that Fell saw everything wrong with them. Being together, at least. Well, he could understand why, but it still bothered him, even if Fell was willing to get past it.
Maybe it was just Swap being stubborn, he couldn't be sure. He wondered what the other was thinking at that moment. Maybe what a jerk he was being. That made Swap very concerned. He tried to always see things from the more aggressive males perspective, but found it pretty hard, being a more relaxed person- or monster.
Swap stood up and looked around, searching for the journal he had at the coffee shop. He made a confused face when it showed to no avail. Did he leave it at the shop? Hopefully not, as that would be a cow poop and a half. He walked out of his home and turned around, locking the door behind him. He would check his car, and if it wasn't there, he would go back to the Starbucks, as that was the only place he would have left it, because he was pretty sure he put it in Fell's jacket pocket.
He looked around the seats for a little before coming to the conclusion that he had left it behind. With a groan he got into his car and started on his way back to Starbucks. When he arrived he ran in and walked up to the counter, slightly panicked. He cherished that book, and if someone were to read it.. Well that would suck. He smiled at the lady behind the counter. "E- Excuse me. I think I left something here. A little red leather notebook, about this big?" He tried to smile. "Has anyone brought one up?"
The lady behind the desk, a dog-like monster, shook her head. "Not that I know of, and I've been here all day!" She smiled back at him with less fakeness.
He sighed. "Well thanks anyway." He turned back to the door and walked out into the parking lot, less cold than it was before. He looked around there, searching for a small splash of red. Nothing. With a grunt of fear and annoyance he walked along the path Fell and he had taken to get to the park, eyes wide in search. When he found nothing he checked the park, and still nothing. Then he remembered. He had left his book in Fell's jacket. There was no other explanation. He began to panic even more, and quickly pulled out his phone.
-Fell! I think I left my notebook in your jacket. Coming over soon.
Another reply came instantly.
-You did. I have it on the kitchen table. Don't worry, I didn't read it. Was gonna give it to you tomorrow.
-OH THANK GOD. I'll be over in ten
Swap let out a huge sigh of relief and ran back to his car, getting in and setting off for Fell's house. He wanted that book back. He trusted Fell to not have read it, so that was another good thing. Anyone else probably would have. Another reason he loved Fell. He smiled at his train of thought as he pulled into the driveway and got out of his car.
The front door opened and Fell stepped into the sunlight. He smiled and held up the notebook, wincing at the brightness of the outdoors. Swap let out a sigh of relief as Fell walked over to him. "Ugh! I was so worried somebody else had it. You're a lifesaver." he beamed and was about to turn back to his car when he felt a hand on his shoulder.
"Hm?" He looked back at Fell, whom was a bright red. He looked to the side, avoiding eye contact.
"W- Well..." He looked away. "Never mind... See you." his hand dropped from his shoulder and rested at his sides, the skeleton looking away. Swap smiled a little, the sides of his mouth turning upwards.
"You're red." he giggled, turning lightly blue. "It's cute."
Turning a deeper shade of red, Fell looked at Swap, his eyes wide. "D- Don't look at me like that!" In an attempt to hide himself, he covered his face with his hands.
Swap laughed. "Why not?" He looked down at the little book in his hands, and decided to toss it in the car.
"S- So..." Fell looked less red and more of a pink shade tinted his cheekbones. "W- What are you up to?" He was obviously trying to pretend that the conversation that had played only a few hours ago never did.
"I was going to go home and just... I dunno?" He thought about it. What had he been planning to do? Something about moping, which didn't really seem like something he wanted to tell Fell, considering the situation.
"Oh. Okay then, uh..." Fell played with the rim of his hoodie, looking at the fluff with much more interest than necessary.
"Want to go to the park?" Swap took himself by surprise by asking this question. He looked away, wondering why he had no self control. "I- I mean-"
"Why the fuck not?" Fell stretched his arms. "Let me get my shoes on." He turned around and walked back inside, leaving Swap there to contemplate life and the universe. Or that's what it felt like. When a few minutes had passed, Fell came back outside, now in shoes, and walked to stand beside Swap, hands in his jacket pockets, eyes searching for some sort of okay.
Swap decided to stay silent and just start walking in the direction. He had no idea, actually, why they always went to the park to hang out. Usually Fell suggested they go there, so maybe after whatever was going on was all blown over, he would ask. If he was still talking to Fell.
They walked in silence for what seemed an eternity, both looking off in separate directions and Swap thinking of whatever decided to jump out at him from behind the rocks in his mind. After a while, he decided to ask the bitter question burning on the tip of his tongue. "Why do you care?" he looked at the ground, watching his feet move in a rhythm that he wanted to get lost in, and just forget of be forgotten.
Fell let out a heavy breath, causing Swap to look at him confusedly. He was staring at the ground in front of him with such a sad, forlorn expression, as if he couldn't bring himself to answer that question. He knew exactly what Swap meant. "I'm afraid."
"W- What?" Was he afraid of Swap? O- Or maybe he was afraid of himself. Swap could have hugged him, told him that there was nothing to be scared of, but he didn't. He just looked confused.
"I'm afraid of letting everyone down. I'm afraid of everyone judging me or making fun of me. I'm mostly afraid of hurting you." He stared at the ground, light pink tears managing to break themselves away from whatever self-restraint the other had. "I'm afraid I'm going to go and fuck everything up, because I always manage to." He raised a hand and wiped his face off with his jacket sleeve, leaving little dark smudges of tears on the deep red fabric.
Swap felt himself choking up, his own eyes burning with the threat of tears. "H- Hey." He reached an arm over and pulled it around Fell's shoulders, feeling his face burn up. "You don't need to be-" He cut himself off, looking down and the head resting itself a little under his shoulder, leading to many tears being released in quick succession, following many sobs. He squeezed a little tighter. "You don't have to be scared..." He smiled.
"I- I- I..." Fell was choking on his words, trying to force down all the emotions he was pouring out, but not being very successful. His hands were stuck to doing nothing but gripping Swap's shirt, squeezing tightly. "But why am I?" Swap stopped at the park entrance. The sun was setting, and all the children seemed to be gone, although there was a teenage cat monster smoking by a tree, but she didn't really seem to care, and she had some head phones in. Reluctantly, Swap pulled Fell off of him and looked him in the eyes, gripping his shoulders so he couldn't run away, or vanish into thin air.
"Because you care." Fell looked confused, a few more tears running down his red face, and onto the ground. "You care what they think and you let that care eat you up inside until you're holding on to all these feelings that lead to you being over emotional, meaning that the slightest tip is going to push you over and make you explode. You let that care become fear, a fear you can't get rid of." Through this entire thing, Fell was shaking and sobbing, although the tears were slowing down ever so slightly.
Swap smiled. "And you don't have to do that. To care about what they think, or to hold in your emotions. You don't need to be so stoic and feeling-less." He gripped Fell's shoulders.
Fell looked a little shocked, and Swap was afraid he had gotten it all wrong, and he had insulted him. With another shake, Fell began to speak in an almost whisper. "Oh my god. My fucking god. You're so right... You have no idea how right you are." Fell looked back into his eyes, fresh tears pouring out. He reached a hand up from where they had been laying limply at his sides and pressed it onto the side of Swap's face. He placed his other hand on Swap's shoulder and leaned in, pressing his skull against the others breastplate, his body shaking as he was wracked with sobs. All Swap could do was press his hands on Fell's back and try to soothe him by just being there, not talking and letting him pour it out.
"G- God damn it." Fell stepped back and wiped his tears away with his jacket again, sniffling. He looked at Swap with wide eyes. "You know me to fucking well, dude." He smiled weakly. Swap could only smile back and open his arms, letting Fell fall back into them, sighing as he felt the warm traps squeeze him.
"Ah, but that is a good thing." He patted the back of the other skeleton, whom was still shaking. "Is it not?"
Fell shook his head and pressed closer to Swap, whom could feel his non-existent heart thudding in his chest. He was turning a dark shade of blue, smiling at the other. With one last squeeze he let go of Fell and looked at his face, red and tear streaked, twisted into a ridiculous grin. He grabbed Swap's hand and turned around, pulling him into the park. The cat monster looked up at them and smiled a little before going back to her phone, tossing her cigarette bud on the ground and stomping on it.
"F- Fell?" He blushed harder. "W- Where?"
"Swings." Fell squeezed his hand tighter and walked faster, making Swap giggle a little. They stopped at the swings, which sat in the middle of the park, a little to the west of the play structure. Fell let go of Swap's hand nervously and looked away, sitting on one of the swings. Swap sat on the one next to him and smiled, still blushing. He gripped the rusty chains and pushed himself off the ground, pushing his legs in and out slightly to get a rhythm, but trying not to go to high so he could still have a normal conversation with Fell. Well, if you considered their conversation normal.
Fell was smiling and looking at his shoes, kicking at the bark chips below him. "Hey Swap?"
"Mm?" He stopped swinging slowly to look at Fell, whom was still red.
"I- I really like you, you know that right?" He looked up at Swap, whom was smiling like he was insane.
Grinning back, Swap nodded. "I know. I- I guess you know I like you too then?" He looked up at the sky, which was melting from blue to pink, with a few clouds dotting it's vast expanse. He felt something grip his hand on the chains.
"Yeah." Fell let out a contented sigh, his hand squeezing tighter. Swap felt his hand tingle. In fact his hold body was tingling. He felt like he could stay like that forever, just the two of them staying silent, letting everything go. He looked over at Fell, jumping when he was already staring in his direction. "I- I..." He smiled lightly. "I think I love you."
Fell seemed to freeze with a stupid grin on his face, hand gripping his even tighter. "Fuck yeah you do." He laughed.
Smiling, Swap let go of the chain and held Fell's hand properly, the two of them looking at the sky. Swap could almost feel himself melting into a sea of euphoria. He look at the sky with a thoughtful look.
"A- And I think I love you too." Fell squeezed his hand quickly. Swap gave him one back. He smiled, looking at the ground beneath him. "And that right there is exactly why."
"Mm?" He looked up, surprised, feeling his face flush even deeper, which really didn't seem possible at this point. "W- What is it?"
"You're so happy almost all the time. It's like nothing can bring you down. I... I wish I could be like that." He smiled sadly.
Swap looked back at him with a sad expression. "But you don't have to be. If you could just look for some support... Some of us are willing to give it, you know."
"I- I don't know if I'm willing to receive it." He looked back up at Swap with more tears. He felt himself shake a little at the sight.
"You don't know unless you try." He gave a supportive squeeze to the others hand. "You just have to let someone."
Fell smiled, tears running down his face. He stood up and knelt in front of Swap as he sat on the swing, grabbing him into a hug. He sobbed into the others shoulder, tears falling fast, warm as they seeped through his shirt. "I fucking love you."
A/N: AH OMG. I had so much trouble not slamming my face into my keyboard as I wrote this so cuteeeeeeeeeeee
My friend suggested I tell you guys what the AU's are, even tho you can look them up yourselves. (I AM SO LAZY OMG) Maybe next time when I haven't been sitting at the computer all day TO GET THIS SHIT DONE FOR HER. Literally she killed sans (Don't ask) and said finish the chapter or this happens again. I was scared so I wrote... Anyways thanks for reading this SINFUL FANFICTION!
