Oh, ow. My head.

"Fucking elephant," I muttered, holding my head and cracking my eyes open as I sat up.

I'm gonna kill that bitch when I see her again.

"What about an elephant?" I turned at the sound of his voice. Mikey sat cross-legged in a bed beside the one I was in, which I recognized as Raphael's. "Oh god." Mikey's blue eyes widened in horror. "You guys she has brain damage for sure!" A groan resonated from the living room.

"Mikey, I told you! Her cranium never came into violent contact with anything, so there's no way she could've damaged her brain!" Donnie called, obviously annoyed with his younger brother, who just ignored him and held a hand up in front of my face.

"How many fingers am I holding up?"

"Two," I said drily. "Mikey, I'm fine. My head just hurts a bit."

"See!" He cried, pointing a finger at me just as Donnie entered the room. "See I told you!"

Well that was the wrong thing to say in front of him.

"Mikey can you go get her an ice pack, some water and something to eat?" He asked calmly, stopping at the edge of my bed—or really, Raph's.

Wait, where is Raph?

"Where's Raph?" I blurted without a thought. Donnie grimaced and adjusted his glasses nervously.

"Ah, he's with Sensei."

Again? Oh, he is not going to be happy about that.

"He's not in trouble, is he?" I asked, not sure if I wanted to know the answer or not. He bit his lip and briefly glanced away, which was an answer in itself. I groaned and fell back into the bed.

"Damn it, this is all my fault."

"Well..." Donnie began to work up some way to reassure me that it wasn't, but trailed off upon realizing that it really was. "I mean, he could've been more discreet in saving you, but...uh." He cleared his throat. "So uhm, how do you feel?"

"Like shit. There's a headache in the back of my head right here..." I sat up and pressed a finger to the spot for a better explanation.

"Yeah, that's where you were hit, that's normal. Anything else?"

"Well I somehow did a high kick and probably pulled something in my groin. But hey, I didn't fall on my face." He chuckled.

"Oh yeah, I've done that before. Just treat it like a sore muscle, it'll heal on it's own." I nodded.

"Thanks Donnie... so uh, what happened?"

"Well I was asleep until Raphael ran in here with you unconscious and yelling at me to fix you, so I don't know much."

Oh my god he's going to kill me. I sighed.

"Well I woke up at around eleven and everyone was passed out, so I left but I somehow zoned out and got myself lost in the sewers. I ended up near the docks where I found the Foot looking for something in the shipping crates. I used the little tracker thing you made, which is awesome by the way, and was going to go hide but then one of them found me and they were speaking Japanese so I had no idea what was going on. Anyways, Raph showed up and distracted them enough for me to escape, but I still got knocked out. And that's all I know. God, he's gonna murder me." I glanced toward Sensei's room a bit fearfully.

"I can sedate him long enough for someone to take you home," Donnie offered, only joking. I laughed.

"Yeah, then he'll wanna kill both of us."

"Here you go, RaiyRaiy." Mikey tossed a water bottle at me as he reentered the bedroom. I smiled and rolled my eyes at the new nickname.

"Thanks." Gratefully, I took a swig of the cool water.

"What took you so long?" Donnie asked.

"I was tryna find something that was healthier than pizza," he said, shaking his head and handing me an ice pack and a bag of carrots. "Didn't think it was gonna be so hard!"

"I didn't think you guys even had anything other than pizza." I laughed, pressing the cold pack to the back of my neck.

"Me neither! I had to dig this out from under some burritos." Donnie recoiled in surprise.

"We have burritos?"

"Yeah bruh! I mean, they're probably expir–" Donnie bolted to his feet and was out through the door before he could even finish. I held back a laugh, not wanting to spew carrot everywhere.

"Since when does he like burritos so much?" I asked. Mikey shrugged.

"Since he figured out we have them, I guess." I laughed and went to eat another carrot when I frowned and paused upon noticing the absence of yet another turtle.

"Where's Leo?"

"Oh, him and Raph are getting their shells whipped," he said as if it were a regular occurrence. My jaw dropped in horror and the ice pack slipped from my hand.

"What!? How'd I get both of them in trouble!? What happened!?"

"Girl, chill! It wasn't you, don't worry. All I know is that when Raph got back here with you and Donnie went off to fix you, Leo got mad at him for not taking you home and letting you get hurt."

I groaned. "Mikey! That totally is my fault!" He frowned in confusion.

"It is?"

"Yes! Ugh!" I ran my fingers through my hair, frustrated.

Why am I the root of all these problems!? This never should have happened!

"Woah! Hey, RaiyRaiy, don't worry. It's fine," Mikey soothed as he pulled me into a hug I didn't know I needed.

I relaxed against him and exhaled in an attempt to calm myself.

I'm sorry I'm causing so many things.

"Thanks, Mikey." I forced a smile to my face and released him before it got awkward.

"Anytime you need a hug just let me know, girl. I usually get hurt if I hug my bros." I started to laugh but was interrupted by a loud shout originating from Splinter's room. The rat's voice seemed to shake the whole lair with each word.

"Stop with this foolishness immediately!" Mikey shared a grimace with Donnie, who had finished devouring a burrito and decided to return.

"Sensei never yells," the younger turtle said quietly. Muffled voices conversed in lower tones until Leo stormed out and into the training room. I met his burning gaze, trying to see a glimpse of the soft, clam Leonardo. But it was buried deep beneath the angry fire.

This is my fault. Upon seeing his brother in this state, Mikey darted into the living room without a word.

Leo didn't even look my way.

"Get her out of here," he snapped at his brother. I narrowed my eyes at him, no longer saddened, but angry. Donnie nodded submissively and looked over at me as I glared after Leo's retreating figure.

I hopped unsteadily to my feet and went to go after him, but Donnie caught my arm and shook his head.

"Don't, it'll only make it worse."

"Worse? How could it get worse!?" I hissed.

"Trust me, it can." I glanced hopelessly after Leo, who'd disappeared back into Splinter's room.

"Alright," I sighed, "I should be getting home before Olivia wakes up anyways."

••• 影の秘密 •••

It was still dark out when Donnie pushed the sewer panel out of the way for me.

"Come with me," I said, stepping toward the ladder. "I want to show you something." He hesitated and I grinned.

"Come on, you've never been above ground before. We can make it quick if you want and you can be back here before sunrise."

"I guess anything's better than dealing with Leo and Raph right now, but no more than an hour."

"Okay, follow me from the rooftops," I said, climbing out into the open. He nodded and disappeared into the shadows of a building. I tugged my hood up and exited the alleyway, quickly weaving in between people on the sidewalks to get home faster.

I didn't want to risk waking Olivia up, so I darted into an alley and climbed the fire escape onto the roof of the building next to the apartment.

"This is incredible!" Donnie whispered excitedly when I reached the top.

"Why are you whispering?" I laughed, "there's nobody around to hear us." I went over to my window and slid it open.

"Why isn't your window locked!?" He cried. "A million people could have robbed you!"

"Donnie, chill. I unlocked it earlier so I could get back in. And people usually don't steal from top floor apartments like ours." I climbed inside and ushered him in after me. With the gear on his shell it was a tight fit, but he managed it and closed the window behind him.

"Okay, close the blinds," I ordered in a quiet tone. He did, and plunged my room into an even darker interior, and allowing the paint on the roof to glow even brighter. I fell back onto my bed.

"Now look up." He did, and I could hear the breath catch in his throat.

"Are these the stars?" He breathed, after regaining his voice.

"Yeah. I didn't like not seeing them when we moved here, so I painted them on my roof."

"That's–that's Ursa Major!" He pointed excitedly to the constellation. I grinned when he didn't say the Big Dipper.

"And that's Polaris." I pointed to the North Star.

"How do you know?"

"If you look at the line these two stars make in Ursa Major, it leads to Polaris, and to make sure it actually is, you can check by making sure it's in the Ursa Minor constellation."

"Do you know all the constellations?" He asked in wonder.

"Yep. That's Orion... And Gemini... Cassiopeia... Corona Borealis... Cepheus..."

"...Wow," was all he said. I smiled and continued to name all the constellations and stars, sometimes telling the myths behind them.

"How do you know all these?" He asked at last.

"My mom taught me. We used to live in an incredible stargazing spot." I glanced over to check the time.

"The sun's gonna come up soon," I said, pushing myself off my bed.

"Oh, right! Thanks for showing me this, I'd love to learn more about it sometime–" He hurriedly pulled the blinds up.

"I have an astronomy book that I used to learn everything." I threw open a drawer in my bedside table that usually remained untouched for months, and I paused upon seeing the contents, but quickly shook it off and extracted the book my mother had given me.

Donnie noticed the sentimentality I held over the items in the drawer and shook his head.

"No, I–I can't. It's important to you, I–"

"Donnie," I interrupted and held the book out to him. "It's fine. It was a birthday gift from a million years ago. Just... don't let Mikey near it." The genius couldn't resist an opportunity to learn something new, so it didn't take much for him to cave and take the book from my outstretched hand.

"Thank you so much. I promise I'll return it intact," he said sincerely, then turned to open the window and crawl out.

"Thanks for everything," I said, leaning out the window after him.

"Anytime." The turtle tucked the book into his belt before disappearing off the edge of the roof. I sighed and tilted my head back to look up into the sky.

Somewhere, behind all those clouds and smog, there were stars.

AN: It was really different but I kinda liked writing moments with Raiya and Donnie. I might try to incorporate him and Mikey a little more. Since this chapter was kinda boring (sorry) I'm gonna be introducing a NEW CHARACTER in the next update! YAAYYYY!

Thank you to all my wonderful reviewers! I love hearing from you guys! :D

Also, I've started writing a Spider-Man: Homecoming fic if you'd like to check it out, I'd appreciate it TONS!