Several hours later
We finally arrived at Bobby's place after we had to stop twenty times for me to throw up and Dean was very annoyed with me toward the end of the drive.
Sam shook me awake and I looked out of the window, seeing Bobby standing there out on the porch. Bobby heard about my illness.
I moaned as I felt my stomach churn again. I got out of the car quickly after Sam got out and I ran into the house, passing Bobby.
I slammed the bathroom's door and vomited again in the toilet. I rest my forehead against the toilet, feeling the coldness. It felt good.
I heard a soft knock on my door. "Emma?" Bobby says with concern behind the door.
"Bobby, I'm fine." I said quietly.
"No, you're not. According to Dean, you have been throwing up since this morning. It sounds like a stomach bug to me."
I chuckled quietly. Only if you knew… I thought to myself.
"I'll be fine. I'm staying in the bathroom until I don't feel like I am going to puke any second anymore."
I lay down against the floor near the toilet and put my arms underneath my head, making myself comfortable.
Bobby is still there. "Bobby, trust me, I'll be alright. I'm going to take it easy and rest now."
I heard his footsteps walking away from the door.
I stared at the toilet for a long time until my eyes started to close. I finally gave up and closed my eyes.
I got startled awake when I heard a knock on my door.
"Huh?" I mumbled out of confusion, looking around at my surroundings. I'm still in the bathroom. I looked at my watch and realized that it was eight in the morning.
"Emma, are you okay?" Sam asked.
I sighed heavily and stood up, groaning as I stretched the tight knots out of my legs and arms.
"Yeah, I'm fine. I'll be there."
Sam walked away from the door. I brushed my teeth then washed my face. I look so much better today than I did yesterday.
I opened the door and walked downstairs slowly.
I walked into the kitchen. Dean, Sam and Bobby were sitting at the table, eating breakfast.
"Morning," I greet to them as I walked to the coffee maker and poured myself a cup of coffee.
I took a sip of my coffee as I sat down next to Bobby.
"Glad to see that you're better today." Bobby says, looking at me. I smiled gently as I grabbed myself a toast and nodded.
"Me too." I said softly, spreading butter on my toast.
Dean and I looked at each other then we ignored each other and ate silently.
Dean got up and left to do whatever he wanted to do.
"Alright, what is going on with you guys?" Sam asked, after noticing the silence between them.
I was startled by his question. I looked at Bobby and he nodded. He stood up and walked away from us, giving us some privacy.
Sam frowned at Bobby then stared at me. "Well?"
I sighed heavily and crossed my arms, looking away from Sam for a moment. When I looked back at Sam, I had tears in my eyes.
Sam notices my tears immediately. "Emma, what happened?"
"This is hard for me to tell you. Dean and I broke up about two weeks ago."
"What?" Sam says in shock. "Why? You guys were so happy together. I don't understand."
I laughed bitterly. "Ask Dean. He'll tell you why."
I stood up and grabbed my bag. "I'm going to run some errands. Bye."
I walked out, leaving Sam confused by what I meant about Dean.
I took Bobby's car and drove to the pharmacy that was about twenty miles away from his house.
I went inside and browse the aisle until I found them. There must have been ten different pregnancy tests.
I grabbed two boxes and put them down at the cashier's. I paid for them and put them inside my bag so nobody could see them.
I drove back to the house and got out of his car, walking to the house. I could hear Sam and Dean arguing. They were pretty loud. I heard my name and realized that they were discussing about our breakup. I didn't want to face them so I turned around and stood there to decide what I need to do.
Therefore, I decided not to go into the house and started to walk into the forest nearby. I discovered a lake and there was a huge tree near the lake.
I walked to the tree and sat down against the tree, staring out at the lake. I moved my jacket collars near my neck and shoved my hands in the pockets to keep myself warm.
I don't know how long I have been out there when I heard footsteps behind me. I glanced behind and it was Sam.
Sam sat down next to me. He sighed heavily. "So… Dean told me what happened."
I nodded and glance back at the lake. Tears came into my eyes quickly and I swallow back a lump in my throat.
"I'm not angry at you, Emma. I understand why you didn't tell us. You were following Dad's orders. I'm angry at Dean for not telling me what was going on. I'm angry at Dean for dumping you just because you kept a secret. Dean has kept secrets from me before and I always find out but I always forgive him. He's my brother. Hell, I have kept secrets from him and yeah, he gets pissed but he gets over it quickly. But what he had done to you is wrong and I think he overreacted."
I still couldn't look at him after his speech. Tears ran down my cheeks and I wiped them away angrily.
"Emma… you need to talk to Dean. You guys need to talk to each other. It's hard for me to see that you guys won't talk to each other."
I sobbed quietly. "I don't know if I can, Sam. I'm hurt and angry. I love your brother so much that it kills me inside that Dean refuses to talk to me about what happened. I wanted to protect him and you from knowing what John had done." I said, glancing back at Sam.
Sam nodded and wrapped his arm around my shoulder. I started to cry again as I realized that Sam forgave me and cried into his chest.
I felt his chin against my head and started to rub my back in comfort.
"It's okay, Emma." Sam says, comforting me.
I nodded and moved away from Sam's chest, wiping my tears away.
"I'm going inside. Come with me." Sam offered his hand. I stared at it then I grabbed his hand. He pulled me up.
We walked together to the house. Dean was standing there, drinking his beer.
Dean's face softened when he saw me. He notices that I have been crying and started to walk downstairs when I held my hand up.
"Don't. I'm not in the mood." I said softly and passed Dean to go into the house.
Dean stood there with Sam. "What happened?" Dean asks softly to Sam.
"I found her at the lake, sitting against the tree where we used to climb as kids. I told her that I knew about what happened between you guys. She was ashamed and she was very upset. She thought that I would be angry at her like you did when you found out. I wasn't. I forgave her immediately. I told her that she and you needed to talk."
Dean scoffed. "She doesn't want to talk to me!"
"I know and I don't blame her. You hurt her deeply. She's angry at you. Give her time. She wanted to protect us about John. She didn't want us to go crazy with revenge and kill the demon. She followed John's orders and she felt guilty about it. Now, let's go inside."
Sam pats Dean's shoulder and they walked inside.
I closed the door behind me and locked it. I took the boxes out quickly. I picked up one of the boxes and read its instructions.
I took two pregnancy tests out of the box and did my business. I lay them down against the sink counter and read the boxes again. It said that I would have to wait about two to three minutes.
I sighed quietly, feeling the butterflies in my stomach. I sat down on the toilet and waited. I looked at my watch and realized that three minutes has passed. I stood up and sighed nervously.
Okay… here we go. I thought to myself as I glanced over at the pregnancy tests.
The tests came up negative. I let go a breath since I was holding it as I checked on the tests. I smile and danced silently in joy.
I grabbed the used pregnancy tests and threw them into a plastic bag and tied it up. I threw them into the trash can.
I took the remaining box and hid it very well under the sink. Just in case for the future. I never want to have another pregnancy scare again but it's better be safe than sorry.
I walked out, feeling better about my situation but I still feel like shit about Dean.
I went to my room and lay against the bed, lost in my thoughts about what to do about me and Dean's relationship. It's over as far as I know. Dean wanted to talk to me but I couldn't handle it. I'm afraid of what he would say and I'm afraid that I would get angry. Mostly, I am afraid of myself because I have a tendency to say hurtful things when I'm hurt and angry. I shook my head at myself. This is one of those times where I wish my mom was here so I could talk to her.
Damn it, Sam is right. I do need to talk to him. Damn Sam... He could manage to convince me somehow. He's very good. I chuckled at the thought of Sam. I stood up and looked out of the window. I could see Sam and Bobby outside. They seem to be talking.
I walked over to my bed and grabbed my jacket. I slip it on as I walked downstairs and happened to see Dean on the couch, his head in his hands.
I stopped and observed Dean. He leans back against the couch and drinks his beer with his eyes closed. Then Dean opened his eyes and saw me.
Dean stood up. "Emma?"
I started to stammer. "D-Dean. We do need to talk. Just not here. Let's walk." I said, walking away. Dean follows me and we walked for a while in silence until we arrived at the lake that I was at earlier.
"Are you going to say something?" Dean asked, stopping at my side. I looked at Dean's green eyes and chuckle quietly. "I am. I'm just thinking about our time together. We had a good time together, didn't we?" I said, smirking.
Dean chuckled and nodded. "We sure did." His smile faded and stared at me sadly. "I just wanted to tell you that how sorry I am for hurting you. I know I overreacted but it hurt me inside that you knew about what our Dad did. You should have told me in the first place."
I sigh heavily and crossed my arms. "Tell you what? That your Father gave up his life for your life? If I had told you that in the first place, you would go nuts and try to find this demon. He didn't want you guys to do that. He didn't want you and Sam get hurt or killed for God's sake. Hell, I didn't want that for you and Sam. That's not your job. It was his job and he's gone, Dean. The demon got what he wanted and therefore, you should stop. I'm not saying stop hunting but I'm telling you that you can continue to save people's lives and get rid of the evil creatures off the planet. But you can't save your Dad's life. That's the reality, Dean."
Dean nodded and glance away from me to the lake. "You're right, Emma." He says softly, glancing back at me.
"Of course, I'm right. Your Dad told me one time that I should remind you guys once in a while when you lose your temper or lose your way. I guess that's why I'm here with you guys. He was... So proud of you guys and he loved you guys. He was proud to be your father of you and Sam. Yes, he has done some things that a father shouldn't have to do but it was to keep you guys safe. I know that he regretted that. He told me so himself."
Dean had tears in his eyes but kept them back. "Dean, it's okay. You don't have to be tough all the time. I know why you keep up the tough appearance so nobody can see that side of you like I have when we were together. It's okay to cry once in a while. It's okay to grieve... It's okay to get angry because that helps you to survive on a daily basis. Someone once told me that having emotions can mess with your hunting job. I don't agree with that because not having emotions makes you cold. I know that having emotions can keep you going. I know that for myself. Anyways..."
I paused, putting my hands on his cheeks. "I know that we can't go back together again because I betrayed you and you need to trust me. Trust is important in relationships. That's important to me. But I just wanted to let you know that I am sorry for keeping things from you. I wish I didn't and I struggled with that every day of life since John died. I will always love you and I am so thankful that I met you. I don't know what I would have done if I didn't. Thank you for everything, Dean."
I kissed him gently.
Dean opens his green eyes after I kissed him. "Why does it feel like that you're saying goodbye to me?" Dean says gruffly from his emotion.
I remove my hands from his face. "Because it is a goodbye, Dean. It's a goodbye to our relationship. I'm saying goodbye to the man I love. From now on, we will remain friends and hunters. I will work with you guys once in a while... I'm leaving today. Bobby knows about it and please don't get angry at him. It's been a long time coming and it's time for me to get out of here and travel for a while. It's not because of you. It has nothing to do with you guys. I have some unresolved issues that I need deal with and I can't keep shoving those issues away while on a hunting job. I need to figure it out for myself and I promise that I will come back when I'm ready."
Dean nodded and turned his back against me. I looked down then at his back. "I love you, Dean." I whisper and walked away.
Dean's POV
Dean stood there, listening to Emma's parting footsteps. His tear rolls down his cheek. He was losing his love of his life. He accepted because he loves her and when you love someone, you let them go. That's what he was doing. He wipes his tear away angrily and maintains his tough appearance then started to walk back to the house.
So... Don't kill me! The story is not over if you are thinking. Yeah, you may think that Emma is a coward for walking away but aren't you glad that they had a talk? Don't worry, you'll see her back soon! :) Oh, if you were hoping that Emma was carrying Dean's baby, sorry to disappoint you guys. Maybe in the future...;) Anyway, I made this chapter longer for you because I am going to be busy this week to turn in all of my assignments before the break for Thanksgiving. Hopefully I'll see you guys next week with one or two chapters.
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