No more sleep
Just one of my own today.
Rock Trex: I'm not sure I'm getting you? Lol.
HeySnow: I've already written requests like that before, I'm afraid.
It happened every morning at three am on the dot. I woke up with this growing panic when I couldn't find whatever it was that woke me up. I felt this need. This unknown need to…I don't even know what. Was it some recurring nightmare I was having? What it some kind of anxiety? I just didn't know. I kept meaning to make an appointment with Archie about it, but I just kept forgetting. I just wished I knew why.
I always found myself looking out of the window before I went back to bed. I don't know what I was looking for, but I found my eyes scanning the streets. Even when I did allow myself to lie back down, it took me ages to get back to sleep.
I eventually stopped waking up at three every morning after a few months. I still woke up during the night, but it was more sporadic after that. Then, after a year or so, I just didn't wake up at all during the nights. Although I never really slept well. It was always a light sleep, where before I had been a very heavy sleeper. I still felt that panic underneath the sleep every night. Almost like I was missing something. I thought that would stay with me for the rest of my life. It was only years later, after I took on Henry's biological mother as a roommate, that I was suddenly able to sleep properly once more. Talk about coincidence.
