Author's Note:

So, I promised in the last chapter in the comments that Meredith wasn't just going to walk away before getting some. Well, as I said, she's staying. Read on for all the nitty-gritty details :).

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Lost & Found


Meredith Grey isn't the only one who lost her panties the night of the hospital prom. This is the story of when Derek Shepherd finds Addison Montgomery's panties in Meredith's prom dress.


Chapter 22: Before (11)


ADDISON

When Meredith asks why I'm moving from her embrace, it's my turn to smirk at her widely.

"I want to taste you," I say, licking my lips for effect.

"Please," says Meredith. And with that, I'm upon her.

"Are you okay?" I ask Meredith as I crawl over her smaller body the same way that she did.

"Umm," says Meredith hesitantly, and I immediately pull back and sit on the bed again.

"Erm, so I have this thing where I like to still be on top. At least for the first time with someone. It's a comfort thing, a trust-issue thing, or maybe a kinky thing, I have no idea but is it alright if I at least start on top of you for this?" Meredith asks me nervously.

"Oh, yeah, of course, I didn't know, but now that I do, erm, sure. Make yourself comfortable and let me know when you want to start as long as you still do," I say.

Meredith relaxes and nods vehemently as she flips me onto my back with a 'woosh,' and then climbs back onto me. This time she's straddling my other leg from the last time, and still, I can feel her wet heat pooling again on my thigh.

"Okay, now I'm ready," Meredith's smirk returns, and I'm glad for it. I was worried I pushed her into something she's not comfortable with and it must show on my face or something.

"I forgot to tell you, you couldn't have known otherwise. I'd be madder if you'd already known, you know, through gossip or something," says Meredith sweetly.

"Oh, good. Are you sure you want me to?" I ask her as I gesture with my hand.

"Oh, fuck yeah. What, you think I'm just gonna walk away without gettin' any?" Meredith snarks back.

I smile widely at the return of her sexual persona and nod and chuckle back with her.

"Yeah, that would probably be a bit uncomfortable," I laugh.

"Just a bit," says Meredith, grinding on my thigh for effect to show me how ready and swollen she is for me.

"Ooh," I say as it's heating me up again.

"Look, if you come again before me I won't be mad or anything as long as you're like, getting me off," Meredith giggles.

My eyes snap open again and I realize I'd gotten distracted by Meredith rubbing herself on my leg.

"Oh, wait now, I'm still going to help you out," I smile.

"Oh, yes, more touching please," says Meredith as she guides my hands where she wants them.

I take the hint that Meredith still wants to be in charge here, and I'm perfectly fine with that.

Actually, I find it sort of relaxing that she knows what she wants and what she likes.

Idly, my mind difts for a split second to if she'd been doing this with my husband and I decide to not think about that for the moment (he would probably love that though?).

"Hey, are you still into this?" Meredith questions as she must realize my mind wandered.

"Oh, God, I'm so sorry I was just… Lost in random other stuff. I'm back now," I promise.

"Okay good. Just checking," says Meredith.

"Can I touch your breasts now?" I ask Meredith.

"Uh-huh," says Meredith as she guides both my palms to her breasts.

"More," says Meredith as I massage them in my hands.

"More," says Meredith as I grope them roughly.

"More," says Meredith as I pinch her nipples with my fingers and thumbs.

"Do you want me to suck them?" I ask her.

"Yes please," says Meredith with a lopsided grin.

I nod and I lean up to brace my hands against her back and then bring her closer as Meredith leans in so I can latch my lips to her chest.

"Yes," says Meredith, as I kiss the skin in between her breasts.

I move to the left one first, tracing a path with my tongue until I feel her moans right onto the pad of it.

When I land at Meredith's nipple, I

"Umm, so I've done this like maybe once or twice but that was over ten years ago so I might need a few hints," I blurt out awkwardly as I reach her core.

"Oh, it's okay. Just do what you like yourself," says Meredith easily.

"Huh?" I narrowed my eyes at her.

"You know, when you do it to yourself?" Says Meredith with a scrunched up face. "Addison, it's okay. I do it. You probably do this right? I mean you don't have to say but I've already had my lips on your labia so there's nothing to be embarrassed about here," she offers.

"Umm, I'm not lying, I've just never done it to myself before," I deadpan.

"SERIOUSLY!?" Says Meredith in a tone that resembles Izzie Stevens.

"Seriously," I say, realizing that I also sound a bit like Dr. Stevens right now.

"Wait, like never?" Says Meredith.

"No, I think I'd have remembered," I shrug.

"Wow, you must be really sexually frustrated all the time," Meredith deadpans.

"You have no idea," I laugh.

"Is this why you-" Meredith starts to ask what I think she's going to ask, but then she stops herself because we've had a mutual agreement so far not to talk about anyone else here and Meredith remembers this and doesn't say anything else.

"Do you want me to show you?" Says Meredith.

"On you or me?" I squint, just trying to figure it out.

"Well, ah, is it alright if I say 'me for right now,' because you've already come and I'm just getting worked up here," says Meredith.

"Yeah, ah, you can show me and then I can try?" I say.

"Yeah. I'm even going to have you finish me off," says Meredith confidently.

This is all supposed to be about her right now, but I can't help but realize I'm feeling wetter myself at her sexy words. God.

"Watch this," says Meredith, as she licks her own right hand and then slides two digits inside of herself.

Oh. My. God.

"So this is how one fingers oneself," says Meredith slyly.

"Oh-" I say, but I realize it comes out as more of a moan.

The sight of her fucking herself on top of me and the sensations of her groans reverberating through me drew me in.

"Do you want to try now?" Meredith offers.

"With my fingers in you?" I ask to be sure.

"Ya," says Meredith with a smirk.

"Definitely," I say, smiling.

Meredith guides my hand to her opening and then releases it so that I can move when I'm ready.

"Are you ready?" I ask her.

"Yes please, Addison," Meredith says gently.

I push into her gently with one finger and Meredith rocks right away onto my hand.

"Yes, just like that," says Meredith as I hold my hand steady so she can buck her hips as she wants to.

"Another?" Meredith asks me and I comply, adding a second finger easily.

She's wet and swollen so it glides in right away without any resistance, and I realize what I should be doing here and I apply my thumb to her clit.

"Yessss," Meredith hisses as I press onto her sensitive skin.

I do it again, and then again.

And Meredith loves it.

"Is this what you like?" I ask her.

"It is," says Meredith calmly.

Meredith is calm as she's being fucked and I have to say it's pretty damn hot. Really hot!

She's more disheveled than before though, and I can tell.

And Meredith is also more comfortable than before, which I enjoy even more.

"Do you want to try being on top?" Meredith offers me.

"Are you sure?" I ask her. Things are going well and I don't want to push too hard.

"Yeah. We can start on our sides if that's better?" Meredith squeaks.

"Sure," I say, and Meredith shifts off of me onto her side and pulls me tiger to her body.

"What would you like now?" I ask her.

"Could you suck on my breasts?" Meredith asks me.

I nod and I get right to that and I suck on them both thoroughly back and forth, and palming the other with my spare hand.

Meredith takes her own hand to run up her stomach as I do this, and she tangles the other in my hair.

"May I taste you?" I ask her.

"Absolutely," says Meredith, without an ounce of hesitation.

"Ah, but how do you want me?" I say nervously, realizing that this might be where I have to be on top of her for this to work.

"It's okay. I trust you. I'm into it. I'll lay on my back and you can taste me, okay?" Says Meredith.

"Alright, and we can stop whenever or change positions if you need to again," I say clearly.

"Thanks, Addison," says Meredith, relaxing into the touch.

Meredith lies back the way she wants to now and she keeps my hand moving in and out as she does this.

"Can you rub my spot harder?" Says Meredith, and I do. I use two fingers to massage her sensitive g-spot as I also circle her clit with my thumb.

"And now, can you lick me?" Meredith asks me.

I grin and I shift back a bit so I'm right in front of her but not on top of her so she'll feel more comfortable.

My tongue laps wide strokes before I get more specific on the spots that she likes, my hand never slowing or wavering as I find a good rhythm.

Meredith is pumping her hits into me and moaning now, "yes, Addison. Good," she praises.

I love her praise. It helps me and heals me. I like to know this is good for her, too. I need that. We need that.

"Are you okay if I come in your mouth? I want to, but only if you want to," Meredith asks me.

"Yes, I'd like that," I say. "Are you close?" I ask Meredith.

"Mmhmm," Meredith says with a smirk.

She is, I can feel that she is in my hand. Meredith's walls are tightening and I can feel the preliminary shudders of her orgasm.

"More," says Meredith.

It's a commanding tone, one I'm sure she'll use in years to come at work once she's higher on the surgical food chain.

For now, though, it's her pure bedroom voice and it turns me on completely.

I add another finger in, and Meredith nods vehemently.

The circles on my hand stay steady, hitting her spot with every movement and sucking her clit right into my mouth.

I don't ask Meredith to come for me as she did because she wants to feel in control.

Meredith tells me when she's going to come though. She knows. I know. We both freakin' know.

It's nice to know this about Meredith even though it's only our first time together. Wait what?

First time together? Does that mean there'll be another? Another time? Huh?!

As we do this, I continue and I watch the squirms of pleasure that Meredith lets out as she finally lets go.

I can't perceive the kitten-like whispers that pass through Meredith's lips as she orgasms.

My lip-reading skills show me that it's not my husband's name though. I can tell it isn't and I realize I'm feeling relieved. I don't ask her later what she whispered but Meredith tells me anyway.

"It was 'thank you,' that's what I whispered," she said.

"You're welcome," I offer in return.

"You know, you're the best sex I've ever had ever," I blurt out before Meredith has even come fully down from her own orgasm.

"You know, that was probably mine also," says Meredith.

"Probably?" I ask her.

"That I'm sober enough to remember," Meredith sighs.

"Oh. Well, ah-" I have no good response to this, though.

"I wouldn't want to be drunk having sex with you. Or high, but not that I'm really into getting high. I'm just saying I wouldn't want to have forgotten you," says Meredith honestly.

"I wouldn't want to have forgotten you either," I pour out into the dark.

It started out as s shitty evening at the hospital prom.

But now that we've given each other the best sex of our lives, we lie there in each other's arms, devoid of all the dresses and panties and pain.

We're just us here, with no one else to be found. I wish it could stay like this forever. But I know that it can't. Not yet at least. And maybe that's it. Just not quite yet...


****** END OF CHAPTER 22


Author's Note:

It's been a long time coming, but I once read a prompt or comment or something that says "Meredith topping from the bottom," and I wanted to write a sex scene like this.

It's also a different way to personify a sexual interaction and talk about boundaries, communication and comfort, all things I like to explore here.

Additionally, yeah there's the angst and the drama here. Oops, mini-cliffhanger. But not really.

In other news, today has been largely composed of looking through old LiveJournal Meredith/Addison fanfictions. There's some great stuff out there, I highly recommend it! It's here:

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Or search up the shipper tag "Addison/Meredith" as a tag on ga-fanfic on LiveJournal.

Question for the author: Have you read every MerAdd fanfiction out there!?

Answer from the author: Not at all, actually. Working through it though. Slowly… :D.

Also, check out the biggest interactive masterlist that is in progress: Meredith Grey/Addison Montgomery: A Learning Library

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This will probably be my last post for the weekend, so while I'm on break I encourage you to go read and write and support other authors with praise and comments :D.

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Feel free to check out these while you wait for more of this story:

Falling Apart, Barely Breathing

Soothe

Second Person (The Diary of Addison Montgomery)

See you soon in the comments,

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