Kakuzu immediately shoved Hidan away. He understood Hidan was difficult to read, but this was unpredictable.
"Shit… what the hell happened, Kakuzu?" Hidan wiped spit away from his mouth with his wrist.
Violet eyes looked deeply into dark green ones and for a moment the men were motionless. Suddenly, Kakuzu pulled him back and kissed him. Hidan leaned into it. It was warm and he could smell the older man's masculine scent. Hidan's hand slipped beneath Kakuzu's shirt and he yelped when the older man pushed him onto the couch.
"Leave right now," Kakuzu said.
"What are you scared of me now?" Hidan mocked.
"You can't tell anyone about this."
"Oh, and what if I do, Kakuzu?"
"Hidan, I'm serious. I could lose my job."
"What's so great about this job? I'm your only patient anyway! You could get a job anywhere! You're a fucking genius doctor for god's sake. What the fuck are you so afraid of?"
"Hidan I need this job. I need the money. I have-"
"Fuck off! You're safe, asshole! I'm not going to tell a single soul. The thought never even passed my mind. Why the hell would I tell anyone anyway? So they can take you away from me and then I'll be-" Hidan cut himself off.
"You'll be what, Hidan?"
"I'll be fucking alone! Okay? Do you know how fucking depressing it is to be sure I'm going to die alone in this shithole? How am I supposed to be happy if all I get from life is fucking mistakes, lies, and now being locked up when I don't even understand what's wrong with me? You're the only one I talk to in this place! No one else will even give me the time of day because they think I'm fucking mental! At least you don't sugar coat everything! But at the same time I can't stand your self-righteous ass! You come along, beat the shit out of me, and I'm just supposed to forgive you? I don't even trust you, but you're all I fucking have! My dreams are all fucked up so I don't sleep at night, Konan hasn't even tried to call me, and I want to go home, but everyone is dead because- because-" Hidan started hyperventilating.
"Hidan, calm down. It's okay."
"No it's not okay! Everybody is fucking dead!"
Kakuzu cautiously stepped forward. "Hidan..." Hidan could feel the headache coming on and memories flooding in.
"They told me to kill them! They wanted me to! I didn't want to at first, but they told me to and I did. I loved them... they told me we were all gonna be in paradise together, but- I didn't feel safe there... with them."
"Hidan, you're safe."
"No I'm not."
"Yes you are."
Hidan gave up. There was no sense in fighting it anymore. He latched himself onto Kakuzu and cried. He cried loud ugly sobs. His nose ran and his eyes burned, but the misery that built up inside him over the past three in a half years was too much to contain any longer.
Kakuzu hesitantly wrapped his arms around Hidan. The younger man was just about the same height as Kakuzu and his arms were thick with muscle. Hidan's features combined with his reckless demeanor could intimidate anyone, but right now he shivered like a child in Kakuzu's arms.
"I want you to find peace, Hidan," Kakuzu said finally.
"I've never been at peace."
"Neither have I, but I feel like you might have a chance at it."
Hidan pushed out of his arms and walked towards the door, "You're wrong. I can't even remember half of what happened. I don't have a chance at anything, and you," Hidan laughed despite himself, "you're so tragic it's pathetic."
After Hidan left Kakuzu sank into his chair.
"Fuck."
