UPDATED JUNE 2, 2020.

Author's Note:

Chapter 4 has been back-edited to edit the word 'boyfriend' with Addison talking about Derek to 'husband'. No, Addison was not having an affair until she had that one with Mark.

About the sex: Addison does enjoy the rough sex with Derek, and she wants it especially after he beats her, because she's been conditioned to take that as a sign that it's over. Derek enjoys the sex with Addison. Sometimes Derek deprives Addison of sex, but he does not force Addison to have sex when she does not want to have it, and Addison does not force Derek to have sex when he does not want to have it.

It's very problematic and an unhealthy dynamic, but I did not want to write about one of them forcing the other to have sex beyond their will, or while one of them is saying no. Addison does want sex with Mark, and Mark does want to have sex with her at the end of the last chapter, though they both know/feel it's wrong because they know they are cheating, they both end up being willing and consensual participants of the affair.

Gaslighting is the term that is used to describe what Derek was doing both to Addison and everyone around her. Derek is telling Addison how she's not to be believed, so she doesn't trust even herself. Derek also tells everyone around her she's a liar and turns them against her, and does this with Mark. This is why Mark does not know what Derek is doing to Addison.

For more info on that, feel free to research gaslighting in abusive relationships.

Hope that helps, I realize I may have to be clearer as an author… Oops, working on it!

This chapter is named after the Eminem album which hosts "Love The Way You Lie," Recovery.

Thanks for all the comments on this, it's very helpful to have reader feedback.

Otherwise, welcome to Chapter 5!

Thanks to those who have left comments so far.

Here's more to this painful story.

Hope to hear your thoughts at the end of it.

bobbiejelly


CHAPTER CONTENT WARNING:

SKIP TO THE TITLE CARD AT YOUR OWN RISK IF YOU DO NOT WANT SPOILERS.

MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD SO CHOOSE WHAT YOU NEED.

Profound trauma associated with the abusive relationship.

The aftermath of violence.

Abortion.

This fanfiction is pro-choice, and also canon-compliant (mostly?) for that point at least.

Not necessarily a happy ending.

Mentions of suicide as a concept, but not of suicidal thougts, ideations, or of a suicide attempt.

bobbiejelly


Love The Way You Lie


Derek Shepherd, your husband, hits you- but you stayed until you couldn't stand up anymore. Your best friend Mark Sloan helped you leave him and you two had some adulterous sex. When you see Derek again in Seattle with another woman, all you want is to save her from him. You didn't mean to fall in love with her. She wasn't supposed to fall in love with you, either. But you both did, anyway.

-Addison Forbes Montgomery, for Meredith Grey

MerAdd. Meddison. F/F. Meredith Grey/Addison Montgomery. Rated E for Explicit. Grey's Anatomy & Private Practice Crossover.

CW: Domestic Violence. Unhealthy Relationships - Physically & Emotionally Abusive Addek & MerDer. Also briefly okay (non-abusive), Maddison & Mark/Derek.

*This story is entirely fictional. Please seek professional help for abusive relationships in yourself and others. Take all abuse seriously.*


Chapter 5: RECOVERY?


When you wake up after Derek Christopher Shepherd, your husband beat you for the second time for cheating on him with Mark Sloan - for the first time! It was only one time! You never ever cheated on him before! - , you're cold. You're freezing cold. You slowly open your eyes and you realize you're on the front porch of the Brownstone and you don't have a key to get in. You call out to Derek but he isn't answering. Maybe he's not even there? You pass out again.

When you wake up the time after that, you're not shivering out in the rain still…

In fact, you feel all warm and cozy. But where the hell are you, now, anyway..?!

When you wake up, the first person's voice you hear is not Derek Shepherd's but Mark Sloan's.

You hear Mark's voice humming and that's your first clue as to where you even are.

You feel like you're encased in something, and you realize you're covered in a cocoon of soft blankets.

You open your eyes and you squint because of the light.

You're in a bedroom, but you're not sure which.

It's not your bedroom, it's not Derek's bedroom.

You're in Mark's bedroom, in Mark's bed, in Mark's apartment.

"Addison?" You hear Mark from across the room.

He's calling to you, looking at you curiously.

How long were you down for? And how did you get here? And why are you wrapped up in Mark's blankets?

"Addison?" You hear Mark calling out to you again and you realize you're supposed to answer.

"Addison?" Mark calls out a third time.

"Mark?" You ask, voice breaking and weak.

"Oh, goodness, you're awake," Mark says to you in a compassionate voice.

"Derek?" You ask a million questions in a single word.

"He's not here. I didn't call your husband. I didn't tell him you are here," Mark articulates sadly.

You wonder what Mark knows, what he has suspected. You wonder why he is with you and not him (Derek, his best friend and your husband of over ten years).

"Why?" You ask Mark, with all the pleading of all you've ever wanted to know about the man who is not your husband.

"I have no idea why Derek does this to you," Mark sighs, and you realize he didn't know what you were asking 'why,' about, but at least he gave you the answer to something else you've been wondering for a very long time.

Mark doesn't seem like he's lying. You guess that Mark never knew what Derek was capable of. You hid it from him, too, because as your friend you love him, too. And you didn't want Derek to hate Mark.

"I can't believe I hate Derek," Mark says to you, a bit bewildered, while also mirroring your inner thoughts.

"I'm sorry," you say because you really are.

"It's not your fault, it's his. You weren't the one hitting him, and even if you were, he's twice your size," Mark justifies.

"I never hit him. I wanted to sometimes, but I never did," you finally admit to Mark.

You realize you've never, ever told this story to anyone in your entire life.

You relish the moment because you know it won't last.

You don't love retelling this part of your history, but there is something cathartic about it, sometimes.

"I love you, too," Mark finally says to you and it makes you jump back six paces.

"What the fuck, Mark?!" You yell at him louder than you wanted to because he winces and you say you're sorry again.

"I didn't mean to, because you're my ex-best friend's girl, but I did- I fell for you and I just wanted you to know someone else loves you, that's all," Mark tries to articulate.

You wished again, at that moment, you'd fallen for Mark and not Derek.

"You shouldn't love me. I'm not worth loving. You're fucked up if you try," you yell bitterly, repeating all the things Derek has instilled in you, time and time again, making you repeat it out like a mantra until you believe it's true.

"I am fucked up, Red. Not from you, though," Mark sighs.

You try not to smile when he calls you 'Red,'. He always has called you that, and you always liked it, but Derek hit you when you smiled at your nickname from him.

"You are," you agree, based on your previous statement.

"I am," Mark just sighs at you, shrugging, but smiling himself.

His smirk is uncanny. It makes you really want to smile. Mark is rough on the outside and soft on the inside. Derek is soft on the outside and rough on the inside. You're not sure which is worse. You're starting to know which is better, or so you think now, anyway…

"How did Derek get like this?" You ask Mark, assuming he knows what you mean by 'like this,'.

"I don't know," Mark shrugs. "It's not like one of those cliché stories where he was abused by his stepdad or something. He doesn't have a stepdad. He hasn't had a dad since Amelia was five and Derek was a little older than that. They both watched him get shot in his own store. These robbers wanted his father's watch that Carolyn Shepherd, Derek's mom, bought him after saving up for almost a year," Mark reveals.

You nod along and he realizes you already knew most of that story already.

"Did Derek ever tell you that story?" Mark asks you.

You shake your head no, he relaxes and says "of course," because Mark knows and you know that Derek never ever talks about his dad.

"Who told you?" Mark asks you. Like he just wants to know, and not like he's going to tattle on you to his… Derek… Afterward.

"Amelia," you sigh, deciding that if he's going to tell you the truth so will you to Mark.

"Derek is not a big fan of Amelia," Mark sighs, telling you something you already know.

"Why?" This time it's your turn to ask that big question.

"Don't ever tell anyone, not Amelia, not Derek, not anyone else, that I know this, or how, but before Derek's dad died, Mr. Shepherd promised Amelia that she could have his watch after he died. Mr. Shepherd had not planned to die shortly after that, of course. Mr. Shepherd thought that he'd die years and years later, and that Amelia could have it as a gift around the time she was finishing college. But Amelia already had her dad's word, and so after the shooting, Amelia got that watch, and Derek got nothing, and he's resented her, ever since," Mark explains.

"Do you- Did Derek's mom ever hit anyone? Was it that? Or their grandparents or an aunt of an uncle or friend or-?" You cut yourself off because you're rambling again but Mark seems to understand what you're asking him.

"Not that I know of, and I really don't think so, especially Carolyn, Derek's mom, would never hurt a fly, and I lived at Derek's more than my own house," Mark explains. "My family was rich but cold. Never hit anyone or yelled or anything, they were just not really interested so I was at the Shepherd's house and they were just fine with that," Mark explains.

"So it's just Derek?" You ask, and you realize this might be a dumb question.

"Probably?" Mark just shrugs, then adds, "You've met Nancy, Kathleen, Amelia and Carolyn Shepherd, right? You and I both probably don't think they're beating people up. Not that women can't be abusive partners just as well as men can, but I just don't think they are, and I don't think that you do, either. The only reason why I'm saying probably is that I didn't know Derek was doing this to you, either, and I'm so, so, so, sorry, Red," Mark apologizes profusely.

"It's not your fault," you explain. "If anyone is at fault, it's mine. I did all the things that made Derek mad, like I talked to the wrong people, or I came home too late, or I messed up or something, it's not your fault, Mark," you ramble again.

"It's not your fault either," Mark tries to counter, but you don't really get it.

It will take you years and years to finally 'get it,' that it was never your fault, to begin with.

"Yes, it is," you try to rationalize.

"No, it isn't," Mark sighs, and you stop trying to convince him for the moment even though you still disagree with him because you know you're testing his patience and you don't want him to be angry at you, too.

"It's not Derek's fault, either," you try. "Derek's just troubled. He says I make him better and I'm the only one that can love him, and he loves me, too," you say to Mark.

Mark winces, and you're not sure if it's for you or for Derek. Probably both at this point.

Mark loves you both.

"I'm not going to fight with you, Red. I'm not going to fight you or hit you, and I don't want to argue with you, either. You're hurt, I'm here. I'll take care of you for a while if you want me to. I won't tell Derek where you are, I won't tell anyone else. I can't promise to protect you, but I'll promise I'll try," Mark offers valiantly.

You wish you loved Mark and not Derek.

"You're the nicest person on the whole planet," you say, and you really mean it.

Mark tears up at that. You've never seen Mark cry. You've never seen Derek cry, either, actually.

You think Mark is crying because of your compliment.

Years later, he'll tell you he was crying for you because he learned then that nobody ever treated you good.

Then he'll cry again and say that he wished he treated you better than he ended up doing at the very end of it.

You'll tell Mark that he did more for you than anyone else you'd ever met up until that point, except maybe your brother Archer but he didn't save you and you (Mark), did, so you'll never forget that even if things didn't work out because he fucked up so things didn't go his way in the end…

Mark says he loves you even if you still love Derek more than him and you always will, no matter how fucked up that is.

You just say 'thank you," and Mark just grunts and nods back up at you.

Mark asks if you ever wanted to end your own life.

You say you never did and you still don't and you realize that through all of this, that's still true, and you say you would never wish Derek dead, either, even if you secretly hate him sometimes.

Mark says he's glad you are not and never have been suicidal.

You ask if Mark is or if he has ever been.

He says no.

You say you're glad.

It's the closest thing you will ever come to saying you love Mark, and he seems to know that…

Years later, you'll reflect on this, and Mark will reveal how strong he thinks you always were because all throughout hell on earth you never wanted your life to be over. You say you liked the way it hurts. Mark will say that he'll never understand that. You'll say that he basically does because he risked it all to save you and he left his best friend, and picked you and not Derek, at least for a little while. Mark will tell you he wishes you didn't feel so guilty about that. You won't have anything to say back as an answer except for a 'thank you…'

You finally ask Mark how the hell you got into his apartment and why you're not soaking wet from the rain anymore.

"When I left, after Derek came back the Brownstone, after we-" Mark cuts himself off but you know what he's talking about.

After we, Mark and I, had adulterous sex in my still-husband Derek Shepherd's bed…

"I never left you, you know, I was there hidden underneath the window the whole time," Mark confesses.

If this were another boy or if this were another man you might think that would be creepy, but in this circumstance you're delighted because it's probably the sweetest thing any boy has ever done for you, to stay around to see if you end up alive.

You realize you haven't had much luck in the boy-department, up until now, or maybe you just make shitty choices with them. Probably it's that last one, you think. It's your fault after all...

"Thank you, for staying, you didn't have to," you start to grovel, and Mark shakes his head at you.

You think that Mark is saying to you 'yes I did, I did have to stay, I had to see if you were okay because I wanted you, and I still do…'

Years later, Mark will tell you he didn't stay just because he wanted to have sex with you, he stayed because he actually cared about you, even as just a friend he still loved you, and that he winced because he realized how broken you were because you always felt that you had to grovel.

"I stayed," Mark continues. "I heard a lot of banging. Literal beer bottles banging and I heard him beating you up. I could hear him yelling but I couldn't hear you screaming. I could hear him kicking but I couldn't hear you kicking. I could hear everything stop and then start up again in the morning. I stayed under the streetlight until dawn," Mark explains to you.

You tear up at how Mark stood out in the rain for you.

Derek didn't stand in the rain for you. He left you out in the rain then he left. He left you there to freeze to death or maybe worse. You don't know. You never asked. You don't want to know.

"Did Derek leave?" You ask, because you're not sure where Mark fits into the story along with Derek in this messed-up timeline.

"Eventually, I think he ran out of scotch, probably," Mark explains how he waited for Derek to lock the door behind him with his beaten wife, Addison out in the rain on his doorstep, and how he scooped her up and brought her home before Derek could come back for her, later.

"Why?" You ask him. You're asking him 'why would you risk your damn skin to rescue the likes of me, if I was out probably dying, and you could have been beaten yourself by your very best friend…'

Mark never answers that question for you, but you figure out it had something to do with the 'I love you's' that he said a few times before now, already.

"I don't know why Derek would leave you on his doorstep, for what it's worth, from his perspective it was a really dumb move because anyone could have called the police on him," Mark says objectively.

"The police?" You say in alarm. "Why call the cops? Did he steal something?" You ask thickly.

"Domestic violence is a crime, you can't just leave your partner on your damn doorstep after hitting them, he could have gotten arrested," Mark explains scientifically.

"But Derek's not like that," you protest. "Derek just loves me in a special way," you insist. "Derek still loves me…" You say, albeit more weakly than before.

"I still just don't know, I'm sorry, Red. I'm just telling you the parts that I do know, and I'm telling you the whole truth now, but if you don't believe me I get that," Mark says tenderly.

"I'm sorry," you apologize again.

"You don't have to be," Mark says like it's nothing.

"I am, though," you say to Mark.

"I know," Mark sighs, and you see him sitting there all alone on his chair and you offer to come to cuddle with him because he's sad, but then you go to move and you can't sit upright that well and Mark shakes his head and says you don't have to.

"Do you want me to come closer?" Mark asks you nervously.

"Do you want to?" You ask Mark.

"I asked you first," Mark counters determinedly.

"Only if you want to," you offer Mark.

"You didn't answer my question," Mark says sadly, and you can't figure out why.

Years later, you'll realize how Mark wanted you to try to set your own boundaries, but that you were too messed up psychologically at that point to catch on to that, at that point.

"I'm lonely and I want you to come closer, but only if you want to, and only if you're sure that I won't fuck you up even more," you finally answer.

Mark realizes it's the closest thing he's going to get to an answer, and he crawls very slowly towards you.

Years later, you'll realize he was giving you a chance to change your mind and say 'no,' in case you weren't ready to have him close to you like that. You'll thank him for it at some point, but you're never sure if he fully remembers how significant a moment it was for you back then.

Mark comes closer to you and you wrap your arms around him and stroke his hair and you say you want to make it all better.

You hold him like you hold Derek when he's groveling for your forgiveness. Mark is groveling but not for your forgiveness, he's groveling in grief for the situation. But you don't get that at the time and you try to comfort him.

Mark starts crying and you hold onto him tighter and give him a kiss on the head.

You still love Derek at this point no matter how much he almost killed you, but as a friend, you always loved Mark and you still do, so even though you still love your husband and Mark knows that and he doesn't try to win you over or change you, Mark keeps crying harder, and you keep holding tighter, and you don't cry even when Mark asks you why you aren't after all of this mess.

Years later, Mark will confess he was crying FOR you, and how he was sorry you had to go through this and after all of it you were comforting him, too.

You'll say it was nothing, it was just an instinct. Then Mark will say you're too good for him, and that you always were.

Mark will say you were always too good for Derek and far too good for him, also. You'll be confused because you've never met someone better than him even though he fucked it all up, too. Mark will say you deserve someone better than both of them combined. You'll try to get him back but Mark will walk away. You won't understand until years after that how kind he was to step aside just for you...

Mark asks you to stay to keep him company after he's just lost his best friend in his eyes.

You say "okay," just for him and also selfishly, a little bit for you, for a break from Derek for a little while.

Years later, Mark will confess he asked you that, in that way, because he knew you were too broken to do anything for yourself and not other people. Mark will say that he knows it was a manipulative thing for him to do, but he couldn't think of another option for keeping you safe. You'll forgive him wholeheartedly and explain that no one has ever lied to protect you before except maybe your brother Archer Montgomery, and he'll say he's sorry. Again. And so will you.

You and Mark stay that way for a long time. Maybe 60 days? Maybe a full two months?

You're not sure because you don't leave the apartment because you don't want to, and Mark never makes you, until you're ready.

During that time, Derek calls you every single day and you want to answer but Mark says it's a bad idea and you don't answer for him and not you because he says I'll make him sad if you answer him.

Mark says this because he doesn't want Derek to hurt you more...

During this time, Mark says that he (Mark) and Sam and Naomi and Derek all still work at the practice in New York, and that you 5 all still live in this city, and that it's okay if you can't come back for a while.

You wonder how Sam and Naomi are but you'll never call them to ask them.

You wonder even more how Derek is doing because you still love him despite everything he done to you, ever.

You ask Mark a few times in the beginning, but he doesn't want to talk to you about Derek, and he just says curtly that Sam and Naomi are also fine...

You ask Mark if he wants to have sex a few times.

He says he doesn't.

You know Mark is lying because he looks at you 'that way,' all the time when he thinks you can't see him.

You don't understand why he doesn't say 'yes,' to you again, but you figure it's because he's scared of what Derek might say or do if he finds out he cheated with you again, after the first time.

Years later, Mark will tell you it's because first of all, he didn't want you to get hurt if Derek ever found out you slept with him again after the first time. Second of all, he didn't think he was good enough for you and he still doesn't. Third of all, that he knew if he slept with you again that he'd fall hopelessly in love with you and he didn't want to do that because he knew he was no good for you…

You'll say that you wished things had been different, that maybe you two could have had a shot at things if it hadn't all been fucked up after what happened. Mark will say that "I'm still no good for you, Red. I wish I was, but I'm still never going to be," and then he'll stroke your hair and say that if you knew how wonderful you were that you'd be unstoppable… You'll cry again. So will he...

You tell Mark that he can still see other girls, then, if he won't sleep with you. You want him to have an outlet, because you know it's hard for him (erm, literally, oops…) to see you walk around in his apartment every day without having sex with you or anybody else for that matter.

Mark holds out for two months before he brings a girl home.

You wait in the other room with the headphones he lends you, listening to music dutifully while he entertains his guest.

That's not why everything was messed up. Mark does this again with a few other women, he always thanks you for it, you always say no problem.

You offer Mark cash for your half of the rent and food and the electricity bill. Mark takes it because he realizes the guilt will eat you alive if he doesn't.

Mark never tells Derek what happened to you. You know he still talks to him at work. Mark figures out to say you're still unable to work after Derek beat him. Mark tells you that Derek believed his lies so that's why you're able to stay safe in his apartment all the time.

Mark asks you if you miss the world outside. You say you don't. He cries a little for you.

You'll realize years later how Goddamned wrong it was that you didn't care if you ever saw the outside because your paradise was with a man who at least never hit you or called you names.

You never see your friends or talk to them, because Mark asks you if you want to but you say that you don't want Sam or Naomi to be in on his risky 'escape plan,' for you because you don't want to put them in danger of Derek's wrath.

Mark sighs and says he gets it, then tells you he doesn't want you to feel guilty about 'using him,' because he's delighted you just want to hang out with him. You laugh bitterly alongside him that this is what your definition of 'hanging out,' has finally come to.

Years later, Sam and Naomi will forgive you for being so out of touch for so long once they finally find out the whole truth from you...

You might have stayed there for the rest of your life, had this horrible thing not happened, that was sort of Mark's fault but mostly yours, you still think.

Once it happens, you run away, and you eventually run into Derek again.

That's the beginning of when things started to get really bad again.

And also when things started to get good again.

It was a start or a finish or whatever shit life, it was or wasn't or you're not super sure…

What happens is that you eventually, along with Mark, sneak into work again to get the remaining things that you want from your NYC office. Mark has already somehow nabbed your things from Derek's Brownstone, and you've at some point lent him your key to your Hampton's to get all of those things, too.

All of your stuff and his is now piled into Mark's tiny apartment, and you'll wonder forever how Mark never raised any suspicion with Derek or Sam or Naomi about never having them over to his place at all during the two months you lived there…

Years later, Mark will tell you the lies he told to protect you. You'll tell him you wished he didn't have to lie for you. He'll say he wishes it all wasn't this way, to begin with…

What happens is that you don't tell Mark but you swipe a pregnancy test or six from your office because you didn't get your period after a month and you thought that was just from all the bruising after Derek hit you, but then you don't get it after the second month but you never told Mark that because he bought you tampons without question and you just pretend that you used them...

You threw out unused tampons wrapped up in toilet paper when you were supposed to be on your cycle and he bought you chocolate when he saw them in the trash can. You tell him he's going to make a hell of a husband one day for whoever he chooses if he does end up with a woman he loves and who loves him. He says thank you. You say you're welcome. By that point, you've stopped pretending that you two could have been 'it,' for each other…

When you take all six pregnancy tests and get a clear 'yes,' on all of them, you don't tell Mark because you know if Derek finds out he knew about your baby before him he'll do horrible things to him and also you. You realize this could have been from either Derek many times or from Mark that one time you cheated on your husband. You're not sure whose you want it to be, as your mind goes back and forth between them all day long.

On the one hand, you still love your husband more than anything despite how he treats you because he's broken you down so you can only love him. On the other hand, as a friend, you really do love Mark, also...

You take your essential things from Mark's place and you go to the hospital with a covered body and face, saying your name is 'Jane Doe,' because you know they can't turn you away like that, and you pay for testing in cash to find out whose baby it is, anyway.

When you log on to the hospital system with your old password you still have to find out the results match Mark and not Derek, you pay out of pocket for the termination pills.

You don't tell Derek or Mark that you took them all alone in the hospital before you got yourself discharged as fast as you can.

You don't go back to Mark's place because you know you'll break down and confess if you do.

You run off into the night, with only a bag of a few things and your cell phone and keys.

You try not to look back in the direction of the sanctuary that was Mark's apartment, the happiest place for those feeble two months that you've been in your entire life so far…


***** END OF CHAPTER FIVE


Author's Note:

This chapter is specifically dedicated to AddisonAddek because that author has gotten me HOOKED on Maddison as my straight people OTP to the point that I wanted to devote a whole chapter to Mark and Addison being mostly happy. Sorry they were not endgame, (in your mind as a reader I've left it open that if you want they could have been, maybe?...) but alas, I've made the lesbian fanbase wait a whole while with all this girlxboy stuff… And seeeeee, Mark didn't leave Addie alone! It was just written that way as a cliffhanger :D.

And now we have another cliffhanger.

Where the hell is Addison going? No idea. I'll let you know in Chapter 6 once I write that if I ever do…

I'm liking making this half canon-compliant at least until this point. Let me know if you see anything that makes this story not work logically. I know the part about the medical stuff, at the end might not make so much sense but I'm not a doctor, so I don't know if I can fix it while still saving the plot that I wanted.

See you around in the comments, please, please, please!

*THIS CHAPTER HAS BEEN EDITED AGAIN, thanks to Arizonaslesbianism in particular, who picked up a previous plot hole that it's not clear if Sam and Naomi are still in NYC during this chapter's events or if they have moved to LA theoretically as they do at some point in Canon. Thanks as well to danielaperezsugra who also commented on places in ways that let me know that this chapter it seems has been effective in conveying the effects an abusive relationship can have on someone, among other things. And thank you outlawqueenpercabeth who also just jumped onto reading this right away!

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