Chapter 29

I am honestly so very angry and disappointed with myself. Last Thursday I started this chapter with utmost confidence, and then Sunday I got stuck. But I promised myself (and you) to get this chapter up today. So I just decided to get out there what I had and just see what happens. Yes, tht is the reason this is fucking terribly short. I'M SORRY! :,(

At least I fulfilled my birthday present for myself. That does make me happy. I try not to let this get me down because this day has been one of the best birthdays ever in my life. Please be considerate of my personal feelings and not slam me into the ground because of this chapter.

I have more of an explanation in the end notes. Please read those.

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MalirBly: Thank you! Yes, poor crystals. I feel for them. I'm glad you like the outfit. I am shit at explaining how things look and I wanted to draw it out but I can't draw for shit :/ So I'm glad it worked out.


Ahsoka's days had started to blur together. Every day it was wake up, start training, meditation, more training, back to bed. It was tiring.

But today was different. When Vaneé came to collect Ahsoka, he told her she was expected in the hanger bay. She couldn't possibly comprehend why. Were they going somewhere? Was this a different kind of training?

Ahsoka just didn't know. And she hated not knowing what was expected of her after weeks of doing the same thing over and over. But she couldn't do anything about it. She'd questioned Vaneé on what Vader had planned, but he was tightlipped. Ahsoka couldn't even make out if he actually knew or not.

Ahsoka just let Vaneé escort her towards the hanger. She would hopefully learn soon enough what Vader had in store for her.

=O=

They were indeed going somewhere. Once Ahsoka had reached the hanger she was led inside a transport shuttle with a squad of stormtroopers. Within a few minutes, they took off. Ahsoka had asked where they were going but was met with complete silence; both by Vader and the stormtroopers.

Ahsoka hadn't tried to say anything after that. So with that, the flight was spent in complete silence. At one point the pilot informed them that they were approaching their destination. 'Nur' the pilot had said. That name didn't mean anything to Ahsoka. She'd never heard of it.

Sneaking a small look outside of the cockpit viewport, Ahsoka was met with the sight of a water moon. They hadn't flown far, so this moon must still be in the Mustafar system. But why were they here? What was on this moon?

Not long after that they landed at a facility. Vader left the shuttle first, and Ahsoka was escorted out by the squad troopers that had accompanied them. They came to a standstill closely behind Vader.

In front of them stood several people. They were dressed in the same kind of outfits as Ahsoka and they carried lightsabers that were awfully familiar to her. It wasn't hard for her to figure out what they were supposed to be. And continuing that line of thought from there, she figured out where they must be.

This must be the headquarters for the Inquisitors. And with that thought came another. What did it mean for Ahsoka that they'd come here?

The only answer Ahsoka could come to for that question was that it could be nothing good.

The Pau'an at the center of the small welcome committee spoke first. "Lord Vader, we were not expecting your arrival," he said cautiously, but with a hint of boldness to it.

"It matters not," Vader started, "I have brought a new inquisitor." His hand gestured to Ahsoka, standing off to the side.

Suddenly all eyes shifted to her, but Ahsoka could show no reaction to what Vader had just said. Yet, she was terribly disappointed. She wasn't here to become an Inquisitor. If Vader were to leave her here, she wouldn't see him all that often. And how was her plan supposed to work if she weren't near him?

Ahsoka would not let herself be intimidated by all the stares. She stared right back with the best authority face she could manage, her head held high. They continued to assess her a moment longer, before the Pau'an turned back towards Vader.

"I see. The Sixteenth Sister will be welcomed into The Chamber, Lord Vader. I will see to her," the Pau'an said, motioning for the troopers to escort her inside.

But Vader held his hand up, stopping the stormtroopers from moving Ahsoka forward. "No need," he said, "she has been trained and tested. In fact, she is more capable than any of you. She will hold a higher rank than that."

Ahsoka had to use all her willpower to not complete gape up at Vader. Was that… a compliment? Did he just compliment her on her skills? That was new.

The Pau'an seemed to hesitate at that. "There are no positions higher up, my Lord. This has never happened before," he said.

Vader stared down at the Pau'an. "If my memory is correct, the Second Sister has not yet been replaced since her execution. Be careful, or you will be next, and I will give her your position, Grand Inquisitor," Vader growled.

The Grand Inquisitor showed no outward fear of Vader, but it was obvious that the Pau'an had suffered at his hand. By the reactions of the other few inquisitors standing by his side, so had they. They were weary of the Sith Lord, and all with good reason.

Eventually the Grand Inquisitor conceded. "Of course, Lord Vader. The Second Sister will be implemented in the system," he said.

That seemed to satisfy Vader, at least a little. He stood back and motioned for the stormtroopers to lead Ahsoka inside. She wanted to protest. She had to stay with Vader. But she couldn't voice those thoughts. She had to go along with his ideas. He was her boss now.

Ahsoka fell into step beside the troopers as they led her inside, the inquisitors following along. She stole one last look behind her and saw Vader walk back inside the shuttle as the doors to the facility closed.

She'd lost him. This was a major setback. What was Ahsoka going to do now? She had to get back with Vader. She didn't want to hunt Jedi. That wasn't why she came here for.

Ahsoka had to be careful to keep her thoughts hidden. She could feel the Grand Inquisitor inconspicuously prodding at her mind. It was very faint, if she wasn't looking out for her thoughts, she would've missed it. But Ahsoka was trained in shielding. She'd perfected the skill after the Order fell and the Empire rose. She knew when someone tried to read her intention, and she knew how to project the right ones.

Ahsoka was led deeper and deeper inside the facility. And the further she got, the bigger her fear became of not knowing what to do. For now, she just accepted defeat. She would see what she could do here. It would all be okay. She would figure out how to continue her plan shortly. First, let's get to her initiation with the inquisitors, which Ahsoka knew would be coming.

=O=

The inquisitors were a strange bunch. They completely ignored her but made it very obvious that they despised her. And Ahsoka didn't even know what she did wrong. Was this just a thing they did? Or was it because she seemed to be favored.

Ahsoka was highly aware of the fact that all of these people had been tortured, one way or another. All she had were bruises. And suddenly she got appointed the name of Second Sister and that was it. They must envy her for it.

Several of them—Ahsoka was not yet aware of all their 'names'—had come to her to basically interrogate her about her past. She ignored every question. She didn't want them to know anything about her. She didn't want to be here. But she would not let the other inquisitors provoke her. All they wanted was a reaction, something to fuel them. Just like bullies.

Ahsoka avoided most of them and spend all of her time on her own. She would make it through this. She would wait for Vader to show up again and talk to him about this.

It would be okay.

=O=

Speaking of the inquisitors, Ahsoka was partly right about them. They did envy her. But they were also angry, oh so incredibly angry. Because they could feel something about Ahsoka that she wasn't aware of.

Ahsoka was Light, so exceptionally Light. No matter how much darkness she pulled around herself, her core was light. And they picked up on that. And that wasn't the problem, necessarily. Many of them had come into the program with still light inside of them.

The difference was that they had gotten it tortured out of them. Many of them had been physically tortured and their minds had been violated in the worst way. Others had lost parts of their body, despite already having given themselves fully to the Dark Side. But the 'Second Sister' over here had no such things happen to her. And she still walked the line between Dark and Light.

How could that be? What did Vader see in her that he just let her be? What kind of special skills did she have that she was placed above them all?

It didn't matter, they would test her and put her back in her place. If she were to be one of them, they would treat her like one of them. They would fight and maim her, just like what had been done to them. She would regret walking in here with her head held high.


Okay, so. I have something to say.

This story has done so much for me. It has taught me a lot and made me a lot more confident in myself. But I've reached a certain point a writer hopes to never reach. I have so many ideas and I'm completely stuck. I've come down with a major case of Writers Block. I put myself on an updating schedule because otherwise I would start procrastinating. And it has worked very well, but now I'm falling behind. I'm working my ass off to get up to schedule and it's heavily affecting my writing. It makes me lose confidence and motivation to write.

That said, I will never discontinue this story. I have every major plotpoint outlined till the end. I just lose it at the stuff in between. BUT I WANT TO FINISH THIS AND I WANT TO DO IT WITH YOU!

I believe it would be best to just take a step back and remove my weekly schedule. I will definitely continue to upload, but at my own pace. That way the writing will improve for you, and I can get my time and motivation back.

(also, I've started two new projects that I love very much but I just don't have time for because this story takes up every waking moment of my free time trying to get words on paper that just won't fit.)

((Also, also. I'm planning a major review of this story. Seeing if I can improve it. Expect this chapter to be the first one in that major rewrite))

THANK EVERYONE WHO HAS SHOWN THEIR SUPPORT! WHETHER IT WAS WITH A FAVORITE, A REVIEW, OR SEVERAL REVIEWS. I LOVE YOU! I CONTINUE WRITING FOR YOU! *speaks in small voice* please don't leave me.

Until I see you again. Hopefully soon.

Oh, before I forget: IF YOU HAVE ANY ISSUES OR FEEDBACK ON A PREVIOUS CHAPTER OR THE STORY IN GENERAL, TELL ME! I WILL WRITE IT DOWN AND TAKE IT WITH ME IN MY REVIEW/REWRITE OF THE STORY! SEE WHAT I CAN DO WITH IT. THANK YOU!