Hi everyone,
So, this is not a chapter. The clock just hit 0:00 in my country, which means it is feb 9th, 2021. That means this story is officially 1 year old now. It also means that it's been almost 4 months without an update. I am so sorry. I have not abandoned this story.
What happened is this: after the october update my work got crazy. I got more hours to make up for sick colleagues. I told myself I would slowly work on the next chapter when I had time. Then, litterally the first of December, my dad got a positive test on COVID-19. We went into quarantine, but it was already too late. Everyone in my family was contaminated. Well, everyone except me. I was forced to wear a mask around the house at all times, live alone, eat alone. No hugs, no physical contact. I am a physical person.
A week later I had a huge hyperventilation attack due to the mask use. I never had one before. Ever since that moment my anxiety has gone through the roof. I get panick attacks about 4 times a week and I'm on medication which make my body and mind very calm, but also very tired and unresponsive. I really want to write but my mind and body just currently can't. I have a whole draft written for the next chapter and about 1/4 of the finished product. I promise to keep working.
But I couldn't let this baby's birthday pass without spending time with it. I'll be returning to work for the first time in 10 weeks today, so I'll buy myself a small cake to celebrate that huge step in my personal health and this special birthday. Thank you for those who've read this story and those still waiting to read more. I love you. I think of you a lot.
Stay strong and until we meet again 3
