Sorry I Couldn't Be Better 9- There's a Kid on the Loose
Well here's the next chapter. During the time between my posted chapters, I went to AVCON, my cities Anime and Video Game Convention. I cosplayed Aladdin from Magi. A lot of people wanted my picture and me and my friends had an amazing time.
Sadly sadly all my friends are a year younger than me and are on camp. I was crying when they left. I miss them so damn much. But they're back tomorrow!
Thanks go out to
Hoshi Star88: Um…this may sound weird to you but what's Phobos…do you mean voice?
Phantom Wish: I always love putting the name of my story in my stories. It's a habit of mine XD
ChildrenAreMySoulFood: And here you go! XD Such enthusiasm
sabrina bina: Should I be happy of apologetic that I almost made you cry? And your favourite? I'm so touched.
Guest: Yeah, I was going to use someone other than Liz but her name just ended up being typed and the rest came easily.
Laylay: Smiles again! I love the smiles!
TRIX19: Um…sorry for the cliffy *smiles sheepishly*
Disclaimer: Soul Eater is so totally mine. Along with the Eiffel tower and every single Polly Pocket ever made…I love Polly Pockets.
The shock came first.
It was like when you forget about the small drop between the ground and the footpath and find yourself falling. Your heart jolts and it's all you can do to not scream and run around saying you nearly died.
The disbelief came second.
It's when someone tells you something that couldn't possibly be true. Like there was no way your cat ran away to live in Nepal and your best friend does not sell drugs on weekends from nine till five.
The guilt came third.
The sickening feeling that what just happened was because you did something. That regret you have for the events you caused which will haunt you forever.
"Missing?" Maka managed to get out. "What? How?"
Marie shook her head frantically. It was obvious she wanted to run out and keep on searching but had to stay behind to explain everything to Maka. This didn't stop the therapist from saying everything in a rush though.
"It was after you went missing yourself. Soul found you in the cupboard, God knows how, I can't be worried about that now but then when it was time for group session, Kid didn't turn up and he wasn't in all of his usual places. We've searched the floor but we can't find him and the security cameras have been playing up so we can't track him that way. Currently the staff are on the other floors but it looks like he's not there either."
Maka quickly got up and smoothed her rumpled clothes, a habit she'd picked up long ago and never been able to drop.
"I want to help," she said firmly. "Have you looked outside?"
"Well no dear but I'm not sure how he could get out. He seemed very upset after you confessed."
Maka frowned at this. So it was her fault. She'd obviously scared Kid off or something. Maybe he hated her now and didn't want to be in the same building as her. Marie however, had noticed the frown and activated her therapist mind reading power.
"Kid has been through a lot Maka." Marie said gently. "He doesn't hate you, he can relate to you and he's obviously worked himself into one of his states because you reminded him of something he'd rather forget."
It's still your fault
I Know
You're so messed up that you messed him up
I know
"Well follow me Maka if you'd like to help." Marie's gentle and musical voice banished the cruel and harsh one that Maka was hearing. The teen nodded and followed close behind the therapist as she swept out the door.
As soon as Maka stepped into the corridor, she could see people wandering around calling Kid's name and opening random doors to peer inside. She was sure he wouldn't be in any of the rooms, he seemed too smart to hide in such obvious places.
"Hey Maka!" A male's voice called. "You're awake!"
Maka looked over to see Soul waving from the end of the corridor. He looked annoyed and frazzled. Kid and Soul were close weren't they? That must be why Soul was so worried.
"Uh yeah," Maka hurried over, trying not to run. "Listen I'm…I'm really sorry."
Soul took a deep breath and ran his fingers through his air. He looked like he was trying to think of a polite way to respond. Maka shifted awkwardly and waited for the yelling to begin.
"Kid's been through a lot," Soul said instead, mirroring Marie's words. "So honestly, this is a common occurrence. Anything can set him off."
"So you're not angry?" Maka asked, crossing her fingers and toes. The look Soul shot her showed he was anything but that.
"No I'm not angry," he hissed, his mood changing drastically. "I'm furious. You hurt my friend. But…" His voice lost the sharp edge and returned his more casual tone. "You have problems too. That's why you're here. So I can't judge you. In this place, we judge nobody."
Maka stared out a window at the ground below. This was the first time she was seeing the outside facilities. She couldn't shake of the feeling that Kid was down there.
The backyard of sorts was a mess of random objects that seemed out of place. There was a swing set, seesaw and merry-go-round in the playground department. Benches were scattered here and there, some intricately designed whilst others looked like a baby painted them or they were going to fall apart at any moment. There was a fountain larger than any Maka had ever seen. The rest of the area was either made up of small grassy clearings or foliage.
There was no familiar figure down there but there was plenty of shrubbery to hide behind. And there looked like there was a small grass hut right at the bottom of the garden, right near the fence. Kid could be there.
The search for Kid was still going on after 2 hours of him being missing. No matter who Maka asked, no one wanted to search in the garden. They kept telling her that they were adamant he wasn't down there. This angered Maka. If they were professionals like they claimed then they would check the garden.
"M-Maka," a familiar stuttering voice that came from nowhere almost caused Maka to jump right out of her skin.
"Tsubaki," Maka acknowledged instead, trying to calm her racing heart. "What's up?"
"Well…Soul t-told me you think K-Kid is in the garden." Tsubaki seemed even more nervous than she usually was if that was possible.
"Yeah," Maka tugged at one of her pigtails absently, her gaze never leaving the garden. "It's just a hunch that I can't seem to let go."
"W-well then Soul says hurry up." Tsubaki suddenly seemed more confident after hearing Maka's confirmation. "We're going down there!"
Maka cast her eyes over the group that was sneaking down to the garden or aiding in the mission that was sneaking down to the garden.
BlackStar was there (he was loud enough to ensure you wouldn't miss him). As he'd already boasted a thousand times, his job was to distract the nurses and doctors so that they could sneak down. He'd finally told Maka that he was diagnosed with impulse control disorder. Maka wasn't exactly sure what he meant (basically she had no idea what impulse control disorder was) but he assured her that getting in trouble was a common occurrence because of his disorder.
Soul was sneaking down with Maka. He'd come up with the plan without any help. Maka had tried to hide how impressed she was with his idea and the loyalty he had to Kid. She thought she hidden her admiration until Soul had smirked at her and told her to thank him later.
Liz was keeping a watch out the window that had the best view of the garden. Her job was to distract anyone who came strolling along who looked like they would spot Maka and Soul.
Patty was tagging along because she didn't want to leave Liz (she was in a clingy mood at the moment) and being bipolar was also a good excuse for causing distractions.
Tsubaki wasn't really doing anything but she was ok with that. She was however, part of the last resort plan (major last resort) which involved her fainting if everything was going wrong so all attention would be drawn to her. Tsubaki had assured Maka that she fainted often. The girl in question was in no way reassure by this.
"I still don't see why we can't just ask to go to the garden or beg and scream until the nurse's check it themselves." Liz said dryly, running her fingers through Patty's hair in a comforting movement. "Throwing fits usually work."
"BlackStar already tried that." Soul looked over at the wild boy who gave Soul a thumbs up in return, obviously proud of his attempt.
"So then we say we spotted Kid down there and that they should look." Liz apparently wasn't all that happy with the plan Soul had created. Maka could sense a rivalry between the two.
"They'll know we're lying." Soul shot back. He was adamant that the plan would work.
"Not if Maka told Marie." Liz said smugly, glad she'd found a way to tear Soul's plan to shreds.
"Why me?" Maka was not at all happy to be suddenly brought into the conversation.
"Because you're new, you haven't got a reputation as a trouble maker like most of us but you're not timid enough to be bullied into saying you saw Kid by us like Tsubaki."
"Wait what? You bullied Tsubaki?"
"It's a long story." Liz said airily, flapping a hand as if she could push Maka's question away.
"Fine," Maka snapped. "If that's what you want to do then I'll do it."
Soul seemed upset that his plan wasn't going to be used and BlackStar was grumpy that he didn't get to distract the nurses but all the girls were content with the new plan. There was no chance of getting in trouble this way.
"There's M-Marie," Tsubaki said, peering around the corner before ducking back.
"Everyone split," Soul ordered, still determined to be in control. "It's suspicious if we're all together. Tsubaki, stay with Maka."
There was no reason for the last part of the order but everyone obeyed. Liz dragged Patty along to a nearby bathroom. BlackStar cartwheeled down the corridor and vanished around the corner. Soul pulled a face at Maka (jerk) and ran into the games room which was right near where they'd been gathered.
"Ah Maka, Tsubaki," Marie said warmly as she rounded the corner. Her voice however, did not match her frazzled appearance. The missing patient was obviously the sole thought on her mind.
"Marie I think I saw Kid," Maka jumped right in. "I was just looking in them games room with Tsubaki and when we left, I looked out the window and saw a black shape down there."
"Well," Marie frowned. "I don't know how he could have got down there but since the cameras are out, there is a possibility."
"You should at least check," Maka implored. "I mean it's one of the only places he could be."
"Hmmm," Marie made a humming sound and shot a quick look out over the garden. "Kid does like going out there."
"Then you should check." Maka said innocently though her voice gave nothing away. "I mean there's no harm in looking is there?"
"Okay," Marie let loose a dazzling smile. "If he is down there, I owe you one Maka."
Owe? What did that mean?
It means she's indebted to you. If you ever need something, she'll help you. Within reason of course
No one's ever owed me one before
Because they hate you. The silly girl's caught up in her relief for someone more important. She'll take it back when she stops to think
What?
It's true. She's not happy with you. Who would be happy with you?
"Maka are you coming down with me?" Yet again Marie sent the voices spiraling away. "After all, Kid can connect with you."
"But…I'm the one who scared him off." Maka hung her head. "Ask Soul,"
And before Marie could protest, Maka turned and ran again. She didn't deserve to go find Kid. It was her fault they were in this situation in the first place. If Maka went down there, Kid would probably run away again.
Of course he would. He hates you
I know
He despises you. He ran away from you
I know
Keep running away Maka. Don't let anyone close to you. Or you'll hurt them
A part of Maka was asking where the other voice was, the nice voice. But as she rounded a corner to see her room, she found all she wanted to do was bury herself in her covers and let everything fade away.
The voices could go stuff themselves for all she cared. Right now, she needed the familiar comfort of a dreamless sleep and the warmth that came from sleeping during the day. She would worry about Kid later. After all, her hunch had to be true. He would be found and she could…what could she do?
Apologise. It's so easy Maka
Ah, that's where the other voice was.
He'll forgive you, I'm sure
I can't…I can't face him right now. Honestly, I don't think I can ever face him again
Sleep on it Maka. Everything will be clearer then. Trust me
You're just a voice in my head. How can I trust you?
Maka received no reply to her question so with a sigh, she all but fell into bed and closed her eyes, begging the numbness of sleep would fall over her and she'd be able to relax.
Sadly shouts from the corridor stopped this from happening and with a groan, the depressed teen reluctantly got up and opened the door.
And was greeted with a most bizarre sight.
Sid was staggering around with Patty wrapped around his head, her legs curled neatly around his neck. Liz was scampering after the swaying man, telling Patty to be careful. BlackStar bounded alongside them, cheering. Maka was sure that if he had pompons, he'd be waving them enthusiastically and performing some crazy cheer routine. Nygus seemed to be shielding a terrified Tsubaki from the mess. The shy girl was trembling like crazy and to Maka, it seemed like she was going to faint at any moment. This was probably why Nygus was doing her best to protect her.
And trailing after the group, a small smile on his face was Soul. He did not fit in with the chaos that was happening right outside Maka's room but that was just his style.
"What's going on?!" Maka finally yelled, realising she needed an explanation for this…mess.
"WE FOUND KID!" Was the very loud yet very clear response she was given.
"Damn," Ox suddenly appeared at the end of the corridor. "I was hoping it would be something important."
'Gee Ox way to ruin a moment,' says the author as she types in the sentence. (also sorry so short)
PLEASE READ THIS
So as we all probably know, the world is a terrible place right now. Our teacher today just stood up in class and basically told us we were terrible people for saying our lives suck and that we were cold and stuff.
I get that you know, I really do. We are privileged people and we're a lot better off than most people.
But the teacher also doesn't know that it's what she was saying that drove me to depression, that drove me to cut. Being told we're terrible horrible people because we get caught up in our own pain is one of the reasons I became depressed. It's an indirect reason as to why I'm writing this story basically.
So wherever you are, whoever you are I want you to know that your pain is important. Don't feel like you can't be sad. You're not horrible for caring about yourself. Just because you're family isn't dead or divorced, just because you're not homeless doesn't mean you don't have problems and it doesn't make your problems any less important.
Thankyou for reading this.
