Disclaimer: I don't own Victorious.

Author's note: This is dedicated to LoupDreams, CandyZero, Jumpin' Jackie, Nico Steriotto, Bibi of the Bedroom and Gina Vagina III.

Author's note 2: Isaiah Flamez is NOT allowed to read this story!

Author's note 3: Warning! This story contain sadness and a suicide.

Author's note 4: Only review if ya have something nice to say!

Author's note 5: Don't hate 'cause I put a lot of work into writing this.


Shadows and sadness

28 year old Jade Sharon West has been very sad for 6 months now.

Why?

She's lost her boyfriend Beck Tobias Oliver.

Beck was a Marine Corps officer and he was killed in battle 6 months ago.

This broke Jade's soul so much.

Ever since she's not been happy for even a second.

Her life has been all sad and empty after Beck's death.

Jade's friend Cat Valentine has tried to cheer her up, but it hasn't worked.

"Damn...! Beck, wish you were here..." says Jade.

She sit on the couch, wearing an oversized black heavy-metal t-shirt and baggy white sweatpants.

Jade drink some coffee and eat a fish sandwich.

"I so hope this is just a damn dream." says Jade, even though she know it's real.

The body of Beck is still kept at the local morgue, since he has no family.

Jade is the closest person to him, but she's been to sad to arrange a proper funeral for him.

She will do so though, once she's over the worst part of the sadness.

"Why did Beck have to die?" says Jade in sadness and slight anger.

Her personality has been much darker than normal since Beck died.

Nothing feel fun for her anymore.

She's not been to work at all during the past 6 months.

She feel too sad for it.

"Its not fair that everything goes wrong for me." says Jade.

Jade miss Beck very much.

She wish he was still alive.

Shorly after Beck's body was brought back to LA, Jade went down to the morgue to identify him, making sure it was him, since she was the only one he had.

It was indeed him.

When she saw that it was him, Jade started to cry for the first time since kindergarten.

Usually she never show her weaker sides, but it hurt so much to see the man she love dead that it was completely impossible to hold back the tears.

She went down on her knees and cried a lot.

That was one of the worst days of her life.

"I hate all of this." says Jade.

She eat and drink, trying to focus her mind on something nice.

52 minutes later.

Jade's phone beeps.

She grab it and answer without checking who's calling.

"This is Jade..."

"Hi, Jade. Cat here. Wanna do something fun today?"

"No, thanks. Sorry, girl."

"You cannot be sad forever. Let's do something sweet."

"I can't..."

"Sure you can."

"Perhaps next week."

"You've said so for months now."

"Exactly how long has it been since...you know...?"

"6 months, Jade."

"Damn, that long?"

"Yes. You need to move on. All the sadness ruins your life."

"That's probably correct, but I cannot have fun anymore."

"Of course you can, my friend. We can simply go to the exotic garden, you used to like that."

"I sure used to, but not now. Sorry, kid."

"Alright then. I'll go alone. Bye."

Cat ends the phone call.

"So damn...something!" says Jade.

Jade see cat as her friend, but she's not in the mood for the exotic garden.

After she lost Beck, everything has seemed so not fun.

Even masturbation fail to entertain her and that was always the one thing that never failed to make her happy before, along with actual sex, of course.

Now not even such stuff can make her happy.

"Life's crappy." says Jade.

She grab her old plush animal and throw it hard across the entire room.

It hit some books on the big bookshelf.

8 books fall to the floor.

Jade usually like to keep her apartment clean, but she's too sad and angry to walk over and grab the books and put them back in their places.

"Fuck." says Jade, looking even more pissed off than she usually does.

She often has a slightly badass look on her face, even when very happy, but now she seem even more oversprayed with anger.

"What did I do t deserve such a crappy life?" says Jade.

The next day.

"Beck...?" says Jade as she wakes up early in the morning when the sun shine into the room.

She look to the place next to her on the bed and nobody is there.

In her dreams Beck was still alive and she almost thought it was real.

"Oh, no." says Jade.

Jade slowly sit up in her bed.

She take a sip of the glass of wine she has on her nightstand.

Ever since Beck's death she has always kept wine on her nightstand every night.

Then she slowly get up and put on black tight sexy leather clothes, a very typical Jade-outfit.

"A new day..." says Jade in a sad tone.

She wish Beck was there with her.

His deep loyal moral support in all she does was great and it always made her feel like she truly did the right thing.

He was so inspirational for her.

If she felt sad he could always make her feel good again.

Whenever she needed help he would always do his best to provide that help and make her happy.

"Fucking crap." mumbles Jade in slight anger as she walk to her kitchen.

She grab a sandwich and a cup of coffee.

"I wanna be happy..." says Jade.

Jade take her coffee and sandwich with her to the living room and watch the morning-news on ZBE TV.

This is the channel she often watch since it has a variety of content from news and documantaries to porn and anime and most in between.

Also ZBE is free where she live so she doesn't have to pay extra for it.

It is one of the 5 free channels in her area.

"...and the war in Egypt continues. It's been going on for nearly half a year by now." says the female news reporter.

"War, war and war. I hate it." says Jade, who hate war a lot because of the fact that war was what killed the man she love.

Jade is hardcore and wouldn't hate war much if it weren't for the fact that was took Beck away from her and caused his death.

"The stocks for Trivada Corps have gone up by 4.6 %." says the female news reporter.

"Like who the fuck cares?" mumbles Jade.

Jade dislikes Trivada, a company that manufacture guns.

She used to own a Trivada 52 semi-automatic herself, but threw it away when she was told that the weapon that killed Beck was a Trivada 67 B assault-rifle.

Trivada is now a company Jade has only negative opinions about.

Before she used to think that Trivada's weapons are awesome good quality, but that was before she learned about Beck's death by one.

Jade still own a gun, but it's made by Recani.

It's a Recani 37 custom that she bought used on eBay for only 42 bucks a year ago after she decided that she wanted a gun again, just in case.

She hasn't used it though.

The gun is hidden among her sex-toys in the same drawer where she keep panties.

"Beck, I miss you." says Jade, thinking back to the last time she saw her boyfriend alive.

It was a few hours before he left to go to war.

Flashback:

"Beck, do you have to leave?" says Jade.

"I do, babe. As a soldier it's my duty." says Beck.

"Okay then. I'll be waiting for you." says Jade.

"Don't worry." says Beck.

"You're going to war, so of course I'm super-worried." says Jade.

"There's no need to be. I'm back in a few weeks." says Beck.

"Alright. See you soon..." says Jade.

Beck step aboard a ship, the warship USS Charlemange.

Jade cry as the ship leave.

She hope that Beck will return safely.

End of the flashback!

"He...he...didn't keep his promise to be back..." says Jade as she begin to cry.

Beck was her magic, her worl, her one true love.

Life without him feels worthless.

She miss Beck so much.

"C'mon, is this my punishment for all the bad stuff I did as a teen?" says Jade.

Nobody answer of course.

Jade thinks that maybe it would better to die and join Beck in the afterlife, but she also wanna stay alive and be Cat's friend and she know that Cat need her.

Ever since they first became friends, Jade has been like an older sister / mother-figure to Cat, who is childish for her age.

As far back as she can remember, Jade has always been a tough girl who wanna manage most stuff on her own without help so she started to reject help from her mom already at the rather young age of 14.

Because of this Jade matured faster than most teen-girls do and as such has been mostly mature beyond her actual age ever since.

Now she feel weak though and nearly wish a mommy was around to comfort her and say sweet words and all that stuff that Jade would usually hate.

"I cannot call my mom. She'd not wanna talk to me after how rude I was when I moved out." says Jade.

Jade remember the day she moved out from her mom's house full-time.

That happened shortly ( like 3 weeks ) after Jade and Beck graduated high school.

Flashback:

"Mom, bye. I'm leaving...today." says Jade with confidence and not even a tiny piece of daoubt.

"Jade, are you sure? I've not problem with you living at home for another year or so..." says Mrs West.

"Very sure. Anything I need's in my car. Whatever crap left in my room you can throw into the trash. Maybe we'll meet again, sometime." says Jade as she grab her final bag and walk out to her black car.

Mrs West cry as Jade's car drive off into the calm spring-afternoon.

That was the last time Jade and her mom saw each other in person.

Mrs West stand their for nearly 22 minutes, almost as if she expect Jade to return.

Eventually she walk to the living room where she sit down on the floor and cry, missing Jade very much.

"My daughter...she's gone!" says Mrs West through her tears.

Now that Jade has moved out, Mrs West is alone, since her husband has been dead since Jade was 9.

End of the flashback!

"I guess I was kinda hard on mom, but I wasn't wrong. I survived more than well without a parent to take care of me." says Jade.

Jade try to feel strong.

She doesn't feel very strong though.

When Beck was still around she never felt weak, even for a second.

He was a huge huge part of her life.

Beck made Jade feel like she could do anything.

During their time together, Beck made Jade feel like the most lucky girl ever.

She wanted to become his wife and the mother of his kids.

Jade has never been able to see herself with another man.

Beck was her everything in every possible way.

He was her main reason to wake up each morning and the reason why she worked hard to be a good person and leave her bad girl past behind, be the very best Jade she can ever be.

2 weeks later.

Jade is down at the local mall for the first time since Beck's death.

She didn't wanna go out, but she has to buy a birthday gift that she'll send to her mom.

Despite the way she was when she left her mom, Jade still has sent a birthday gift to her mom every year since she moved out.

"Hmm..." mumbles Jade, looking for something she can afford and that she know her mom would like.

She soon finds a red bag made of leather.

Jade decides to buy it.

3 days later she sends the bag to her mom.

"I hope mom's gonna like it." says Jade.

After she ahs sent the bag to her mom, Jade goes home.

She eat lunch while watching TV.

Jade somehow feel a very small bit less sad.

Of course she still miss Beck a lot, but sending a gift to her mom made things a little bit better.

"Can I ever be happy again?" says Jade.

She doesn't think so.

Almost a week later, Cat once more tries to cheer Jade up, but it does not work.

Jade is tired of her sad life.

Life's not awesome without Beck.

As mentioned before, he was everything to her.

He made life worth living.

He made it seem like anything could be fun.

When he was around nothing ever seemed out of reach.

Beck made Jade feel like she could reach the goal to get a normal good job and eventually become a mom as well.

She never got to be a mom, but she did find a job that's perfect for her.

And she most likely won't ever become a mom, since Beck was the only man she wanted to have kids with.

3 days later.

Jade eat pizza in bed.

She feel all sad again.

That tiny bit of joy she discovered after sending a gift to her mom is now gone.

"Damn!" says Jade in anger.

She feel so sad and angry.

No signs of being happy.

"Fucking crap..." mumbles Jade.

It is obvious that she's very far from being happy.

"Holy shit." says Jade.

2 weeks later, Jade manage to be okay enough to finally hold a proper funeral for Beck.

Cat is happy that Jade does this.

It means that Jade might get better, at least that's what Cat thinks.

The funeral is a nice simple event, just as Jade know that Beck would have wanted it to be.

After the funeral, Jade and Cat eat dinner.

"Jade...uh...how are you?" says Cat.

"Kinda crappy, to be honest." says Jade.

"I hope you'll go to work on Monday." says Cat.

"Seems very unlikely." says Jade.

"Why?" says Cat.

"Life's still very bad for me." says Jade.

"I'm glad you finally held a funeral for Beck. He deserved it." says Cat.

"Yes, he very much did." says Jade.

"Please be your happy self again." says Cat.

"That I truly wish I could, but I don't think I can. Not in a long time." says Jade.

"Beck really was your everything." says Cat.

"He sure was. Life's so empty without him." says Jade.

"I can't even imagine what it's like for you. I've never had a boyfriend." says Cat.

"True. Without Beck nothing's fun for me anymore." says Jade.

"Awww..." says Cat.

"Cat, thanks for being a friend." says Jade.

"Me is always your friend, Jade." says Cat.

"Nice." says Jade.

"Yeah." says Cat, all cutie cute.

2 weeks later.

Jade still doesn't go to work and she is also still very sad.

"Damn!" says Jade.

She eat some pasta and fish.

"Life's not good. Far from good, actually." says Jade.

Everything seem sad without Beck.

Jade miss him so much.

He was her world.

When he was around, whatever she wanted to do seemed super-easy.

Right now it's the opposite of easy.

"Fucking damn." says Jade.

Last night she tried to masturbate before going to sleep, but she was unable to even get horny.

She's had zero sexual desire, since Beck died.

"Beck, I wish you were here..." mumbles a sad Jade.

The next day, Jade tries to go to work, but all she does during the day is that she simply sit by her desk and think about Beck and how awesome he was.

"Miss West, if you aren't gonna do your job, go home." says Alexis Kent, Jade's boss.

"Okay. Thanks." says Jade.

Jade put on her coat, grab her stuff and walk out to her car.

She drive home.

When back home, she drink some wine.

"I don't deserve all the crap life throws at me." says Jade.

She's correct.

Despite having done bad stuff, Jade is actually a good person when it matters the most.

She care about her mom as well as her friend Cat.

And she only did bad stuff as a teen because she didn't know better at the time and because of her hardcore raw personality.

"I need you in more ways than one, Beck." says Jade.

She look at the big photo of Beck she has on the wall above the TV.

"Beck..." says Jade, crying a bit.

The next day.

Cat visit.

"Hi, Jade." says Cat.

"Hi, Cat. Do you need help with something?" says Jade.

"No, thanks. I'm here to be here for you." says Cat.

"Okay." says Jade.

"I got you some liquorice pie, your favorite casual snack." says Cat.

"Awww, that's sweet of you. Thanks, Cat." says Jade.

"You're welcome, my friend." says Cat.

Jade eat a bite of the pie.

It taste yummy.

"Nice." says Jade, who really enjoy the taste of the pie.

She like liquorice pie a lot and has done so since she was 9.

"Cute that you still like liquorice pie, Jade." says Cat.

"Liquorice pie is awesome." says Jade.

"Okay." says Cat.

Jade and cat hug each other and then Cat leave.

Jade watch TV and eat liquorice pie.

"Hmm..." mumbles Jade.

5 days later.

Jade visit Beck's grave.

She goes down on her knees and talk to Beck, lamost as if he was still alive.

"Beck...you're so awesome. I miss you a lot. Life is sad and empty without you. I need you very much, man." says Jade, feeling weak and sad.

She wish Beck wasn't dead.

"You shouldn't be dead. If anyone deserve a long bright life it's you...more than most other people. Including me. To be honest, I'd switch places with you here and now if possible." says Jade.

She place a black flower of Beck's grave and then leave.

Once home again, Jade drink some wine.

"I need Beck." says Jade.

Jade cry a bit.

She cannot be badass enough to hold back her tears right now.

It hurts in her heart to be alone.

She miss Beck very much.

He was, as previously stated, her everything.

Without him nothing seem fun for her.

"Holy shit." says Jade.

2 months later.

Jade is at work and she actually manage to get some jon done.

She is still very sad, but she need the money so she forced herself to go to work.

Being stuck in the sadness, Jade doesn't wear her typical black leather clothes, but is instead in just a violet t-shirt and old baggy blue denim jeans.

Usually she'd never look like this in public, but she feel too sad to wear her awesome sexy black leather clothes.

During the entire day she says not even a word unless someone talk to her first.

Alexis is happy that Jade is able to work again.

At end of the work-day, Alexis says "Jade, I'm glad you've been here today."

"Thanks." says Jade.

On the way home from work, Jade stop by the grocery store to buy food and such.

When she get home she takes a quick shower.

After that she eat dinner in bed.

"Beck..." mumbles Jade.

Over the past 3 weeks or so she's tried to have fun, but it hasn't worked at all.

"I must move on, but I don't know how." says Jade, who wanna stop being sad, even if she has no idea how that would be done.

She feel so weak.

During the time when Beck was still alive, Jade always felt powerful, but she has only felt weak since his death.

"He was my strength." says Jade.

This is only semi-true, since Jade was hardcore before she ever met Beck for th first time.

She consider it 100 % true though.

Jade feels like she only discovered her true self after meeting Beck and falling in love with him.

The next day, Cat and Jade goes to the mall together, but Jade only speak less than 9 words during entire 2 .3 hours they are there.

Cat tries to help Jade to be happy, but it doesn't work.

Once home after the time at the mall, Jade takes a nap.

She dream about Beck.

2 weeks later.

Jade is at work and now she actually wear black leather clothes.

She manage to get some job done, but it goes slower than normal, since she is still ver sad.

She barely say 5 words during the entire day-

When she get home after work she eat dinner.

After that she clean the living room a bit.

The next day.

It's a Saturday so Jade is at home.

She is still sad.

Jade tries to think of something fun to do, but her sad mind cannot come up with any ideas.

If this was back when Beck was still alive, she'd masturbate, but now she has no sexual desire whatsoever.

After Beck's death, Jade lost all her sexuality.

She's not been horny once since she lost Beck.

Not even for a second.

She feel too sad and weak to get horny.

She drink some wine and eat some chocolate.

"Crap. Life's not good." says Jade.

Jade wear a black tight latex t-shirt and baggy red sweatpants.

She tries to fake happiness, but to fake-smile only hurt her face.

She doesn't know what to do.

Had she still been a teenager and in school she has asked Tori Vega for advice, but she is of course not a teen anymore.

And she's not seen Tori since the high school graduation party.

Jade doesn't believe in God, but she think there might be something and to that she now sort of pray, asking for some joy in her dark sad excuse for a life.

"Please forgive a former bad girl and let me have some fun again." mumbles Jade as she close her eyes, trying to have some hope.

Unfortunately the universe seem to not be on her side.

The next day she feel just as weak and sad as yesterday.

She try to be happy, but it doesn't work.

Her heart hurt a bit.

Energy-levels in her body are low.

Weakness and sadness burn within her.

She feel like life is worthless without Beck.

Hadn't she been as mature as she truly is she'd already killed herself by now to join Beck in whatever afterlife there is so she could be with him forever.

The thought of killing herself has sure crossed her mind a few times since Beck's death, but she wanna be alive to be Cat's friend and for the minor possibility of perhaps at some point finding true joy once more.

"I have to stay alive. Cat might still need me. Not that I am of much fucking help to the little sweetie now when I'm all sad, but even so, I cannot leave her." says Jade.

Jade drink some wine.

"Cat is so little in many ways and I wanna be there for her." says Jade.

22 minutes later.

Jade eat sushi.

"Fuck. The sadness block me." says Jade in slight anger.

What she mean is that the sadness prevents her from being her true self.

"I need to be 100 % Jade, even though I no longer have Beck." says Jade.

She trye to be her true self, but she fail.

Sadness burn in her heart and stop her from being hardcore.

4 hours later.

Jade head over to Cat's place.

"Awww! Jade, hi...are you all happy now?" says Cat, being excited.

"Unfortunately not, but I wanted to see if you need help with anything." says Jade.

"I kinda do. You can help me to fix my car. It's broken." says Cat.

"Leave it to me, kid." says Jade.

Jade walk outside, grab the tool-box she always keep in her own black car and starts to repair Cat's violet car.

2.6 hours later.

"Cat, your car's okay now." says Cat.

"Thanks so much." says a happy Cat.

"It was pretty easy." says Jade.

"Please stay for dinner." says Cat.

"Okay. I can do that." says Jade.

"Nice. Cute." says Cat with a childish smile.

55 minutes later, Jade and Cat eat dinner.

"This taste good." says Jade.

"Awww! Thanks." says a happy Cat.

"You're welcome." says Jade.

" Sweet." says Cat.

"I agree." says Jade.

"Jade, you are so awesome." says Cat.

"Thank you, but I'm weak and sad now. I was awesome, but that ended when I was told that Beck's dead." says Jade.

"I still think you're awesome and cool." says Cat.

"Way too much high praise." says Jade.

"No." says Cat.

"Okay then." says Jade.

3 weeks later.

Jade is at work and she does her best to get her job done, but it's not easy.

The sadness makes her weak.

She try to stay strong and focused.

It's so hard to do so.

Jade get tired.

"Damn." says Jade.

She drink coffee to keep herself awake.

Usually she'd drink wine, but she's not allowed alcohol at work.

"Okay..." says Jade.

She write a 74 GA report on her computer.

She find it hard to focus.

Her thoughts drift to Beck.

She miss him so much.

It is a pain to be without him.

"Miss West, are you okay?" says Alexis.

"Not really. I'm still a sad mess." says Jade.

" At least you're able to work." says Alexis.

"Yeah, but my heart hurts." says Jade.

"Try to move on, you're strong." says Alexis.

"Was. I was strong. Now I'm so weak." says Jade.

"I think you're still a very strong woman." says Alexis.

"Oh...thanks." says Jade.

"Let me know if you need more time off, girl." says Alexis.

"Sure." says Jade.

25 minutes later, Jade manage to ber true strong self for a bit.

She completes the report, print it out anf walk to Alexis' office.

"Here's the report, boss." says Jade.

"Thanks, Jade. I'm sure everything is in order." says Alexis.

Later, after work.

Jade drive home.

She is tired again.

Her energy-levels are still only at minimum all the time.

Despite it being a rather long time since Beck's death the sadness still burn in her body every single day.

"Alright...I need a drink." says Jade when she get home.

She drink some red Italian wine.

It taste pretty good.

"Beck, if only you'd be here, here with me." mumbles Jade, all sad.

2 hours later.

Jade eat dinner...pasta and fish.

She eat in front of the TV.

"Damn." says Jade.

After the dinner, Jade fall asleep.

Nearly 3 hours later.

Jade wakes up.

The sun is going down.

Jade drink some wine.

She is still very sad.

"Oh..." says Jade.

2 months later.

The fall has arrived.

And this doesn't help Jade at all.

Just the opposite.

She has taken time off from work again.

Right now she sit at home, drinking wine and eating ice cream.

The sadness burn in her heart.

"I miss you, Beck." says Jade.

The next day.

"Damn." says Jade, still sad.

She miss Beck so much.

Jade eat breakfast in her bed.

Then she tries to decide what clothes to wear.

Since she doesn't need to go to work, she eventually decides to wear just a simple t-shirt and baggy sweatpants.

"Okay." says Jade as she switch on her computer.

She look at bunch of photos of herself and Beck that she has on her computer and hasn't looked at in a few weeks.

"Beck, you were my everything." mumbles a very sad Jade.

She feel no joy.

All the sadness makes her weak, but she cannot feel any joy of any kind or form at all.

"Damn!" says Jade.

She hate being stuck in the sadness.

She wanna be happy and strong again.

Though every way she's tried to be like that has completely failed.

Nothing has worked for her.

3 weeks later.

Jade is at work again, but she's still sad and weak.

All of her power is gone.

While at work she says nothing at all, unless some speak to her first.

She tries to focus on her job, but that doesn't help her to feel joy.

Instead she continues to be very sad.

"Life sucks." says Jade.

She wish she could be happy.

She wanna feel true joy again, just like when Beck was still alive.

Beck was always so nice to her and he made her feel powerful and beautiful.

When he was around, Jade always felt like nothing could stop her from reaching her goals, no matter what.

That confidence faded away when she was told that Beck is dead.

Suddenly she became weak and sad.

Most people know Jade as the confident, badass, sexy awesome woman she was before Beck's death, not the sad weak person she is now.

"Such crap..." mumbles Jade.

The next day, Cat visit.

She bring liquorice pie for Jade again.

"Aww. Thanks." says Jade.

"No problem. I'll never forget that it's your favorite." says Cat, all cute.

"That's sweet of you, Cat." says Jade.

"Yeah, Jade." says Cat.

Jade takes a bite of the pie.

It taste very good.

"So nice of you to bring me pie." says Jade.

"You're my best friend. I want you to have a cute snack." says Cat.

"I do appreciate your friendship a lot. You sure are very sweet." says Jade.

"Me is a sweetie." says Cat with an adorable smile.

"So true." says Jade.

"Yeah." says Cat.

"I'm aware you wanna help me and that's nice of you, for sure. Though I don't think anyone can." says Jade.

"Jade, you are powerful. Eventually you'll be your awesome cool self again." says Cat.

"Cat, do you truly think so?" says Jade.

"I do." says Cat.

"Then I sure hope you're right. Being sad is not fun." says Jade.

"Me can't even imagine." says Cat.

"Because you've not been through the same thing." says Jade.

"Exactly." says Cat.

"You can be glad you've not lost someone the way I lost Beck. It's not even something I'd wish my worst enemies to have to deal with." says Jade.

"Enemies?" says Cat.

"I have enemies. You should remember that." says Jade.

"Okay. Sorry." says Cat.

2 weeks later.

"Damn." says Jade as she wake up and still feel very sad.

She slowly sit up in bed.

The sadness makes her weak.

And this is a fact she hate so much.

"No, no, no." says Jade as she hug an old plush animal.

It's the first time she hug a plush animal sinc she was 7 years old.

2 hours later.

Jade is in her car on the way to work.

She's still sad, but she wanna try to work anyways, since she need the money and wanna be of use to the comapny she works for.

"Fuck..." mumbles Jade.

Nearly a month later.

Jade still is sad.

She's been unable to find any joy in her life.

"I can't take this anymore." says Jade.

She pull down her tight black leather pants, pull her panties to the side and walk to her bedroom.

"Too fucking bad it has come down to this, but I see no other way out." says Jade.

She open the drawer where she keep panties.

Under the panties are her gun.

She grab the gun, put in a single bullet and then hold the gun up into her pussy.

"Bye, Jade! Cat...sorry. Farewell world." says Jade and then fire the gun right up into her pussy.

The bullet blast up through her pussy and continue further up into her tummy.

She scream in pain and then fall down dead.

A lot of blood pour out from her pussy and mouth.

Unfortunately she's 100 % dead.

Her soul leave her body.

"Bye, Jade." says Jade's soul as it stare upon her physical body.

Jade's soul get taken up to Heaven.

This kind of surprise her.

She almost expected to be snet to Hell as a punishment for everything she did when she was a teenage bad girl.

"I assume this is the way to Heaven." says Jade when she arrive outside the Gates of Heaven.

There are 4 other people, waiting fo the chance to enter Heaven as well.

None of these people are familiar to Jade.

All of them are complete strangers.

Jade is last in line.

The other 4 are ahead of her.

One of those 4 get sent to Hell, but the other 3 are allowed into Heaven.

When it is finally her turn ( she had to wait for nearly 2 hours ), Jade sees someone when the gates open.

As soon as he eyes get used to the brightness from Heaven she smile in joy at seeing who is there to welcome her.

It is Beck.

"Jade, welcome." says Beck.

"Beck, you're here!" says a happy Jade as she run up to beck and hug him in pure sweet joy.

"I'm happy to see you, but surprised. Why are you dead...?" says Beck.

"Killed myself to be able to be with you. I gave up." says Jade.

"Okay. I kinda wished you'd get a good life. Though I'm very glad you're here now." says Beck.

"And I am soooo happy to be here too...here where you are." says Jade.

Being in Heaven now, Jade has lost all of her bad girl traits.

She has become the Jade she was meant to be, but could never be in life.

The next day.

Cat enter Jade's apartment and cry when she step into the bedroom and find Jade's dead body on the floor.

"Oh, no! She...she...gave up..." says Cat as she begin to cry.

"Cat, little girl. Do not cry. I am happy where I am." says Jade as she appear in her spirit form.

Jade's spirit glow with a holy white magic light.

"Uh...Jade, are you okay?" says Cat.

"Yes. I'm with Beck in Heaven now. Where I wanted to be." says Jade.

"Who killed you?" says Cat.

"I did, so I could die and be with Beck again." says Jade.

"Oh...okay..." ays Cat.

"No need to cry. I'm where I wanna be." says Jade.

"You're dead..." says Cat.

"My physcial body's dead, but my soul, which you see here now, is not." says Jade.

"Uh...so you're not in pain?" says Cat.

"I'm not. I am finally at peace. And I'm where Beck is so it's all good. Bye, kid." says Jade and then disappear.

Cat grab a blanket and use it to cover Jade's body.

Up in Heaven, Jade and Beck kiss each other with true deep love.

Both of them are in pure white clothes.

"I went down to Earth just to comfort Cat." says Jade.

"That's sweet of you." says Beck.

"Yeah." says Jade.

4 days later, Cat and her friends hold a funeral for Jade.

Jade and Beck can see all of it from their house in Heaven.

Jade is glad that Cat hold the funeral in the style she want it.

Simple and calm, no extra fancy stuff.

"Nice." says Jade.

"Yes. Cat really care about you." says Beck.

"She is indeed a good friend." says Jade.

"Friends are a great thing to have." says Beck.

"True." says Jade.

2 weeks later.

"Beck, why didn't you ever visit me in spirit form after your death?" says Jade.

"I thought that if I'd done so you probably would've killed yourself to join me here and I wanted you to live a good long happy life. Of course I'm very happy to have you here, but I wished for you get the chance of living out your entire life on Earth before you came here." says Beck.

"You're so smart and right. I think I would have killed myself if you showed up in spirit form." says Jade.

"Though you eventually did so anyways, but I believe you'd done that earlier if you had known I was safe in Heaven, babe." says Beck.

"Man, you're so much smarter than me. I love you." says Jade.

"And I love you." says Beck.

Jade gives Beck a sexy sweet kiss.

"You are very beautiful." says Beck.

He gently touch Jade's firm seductive ass.

"I really like being touched that way." says Jade in a sexy tone.

"Yes, that's why I do this, Jade." says Beck.

"Awww! So awesome." says Jade.

Beck gently touch Jade's round sexy natural D-cup boobs.

Jade of course love that Beck touch those.

She's proud of her big boobs and the fact that they are natural and sexy.

2 months later.

Cat visit Jade's grave ( which of course is right next to Beck's one ).

"Jade, I miss you. You were my best friend and like the older sister I never had." says Cat as she goes down on her knees and pray.

"Little sweet Cat, don't feel sad for me. In Heaven I'm happy. Up there I can finally be the Jade that my mortal body prevented me from being. I'm now 100 % at peace and I am where Beck is, which is what I wanted. So it's all good." says Jade as she appear in her spirit form.

"Okay...me will try to be brave..." says Cat.

"That's wonderful. Always remember me for the nice things I've done." says Jade.

"I honor the memory of you." says Cat.

"Very sweet. You're a true friend." says Jade.

"Uh...is there a God...?" says Cat.

"Yes. There's indeed a God. I've met him. You'll meet him as well, when you get to Heaven." says Jade.

"What does God look like?" says Cat.

"The magnificens of God cannot be described in words." says Jade.

"Okay. I wish you and Beck all the best." says Cat.

"Thanks, girl." says Jade and then return to Heaven.

Cat smile, happy that Jade is at peace in Heaven.

During the rest of Cat's life, Jade serve as Cat's guardian angel, a task God suggested and Jade was more than ready to accept.

As Cat's guardian angel, Jade appear in spirit form to Cat once a year on Cat's birthday to give her some advice.

When Cat eventually die of old age as a 87 year old elderly woman, Jade and Beck are there when she reach Heaven.

In Heaven, Cat look young again, having the apperance of her 19 year old self.

"Welcome to Heaven." says Jade.

"Thanks." says Cat.

"Anytime, girl." says Jade.

"Yay." says a happy Cat.

"Follow me, it's time for you to meet God." says Jade.

Cat and Jade walk to God's palace.

Jade and Cat are both happy.


The End.