Aria gets on the car with Ezra and drives away to the airport, all her friends wait for the car to turn a corner before they decided to look back the coffee shop they just walked out of.
"Well I don't know about you guys, but I could defiantly have another cup of coffee" Spencer says as all her friends laugh through their tear-stained faces.
"Yeah, lets go no one likes it when Spencer is coffee sober for too long" Ali said chuckling and then all of them laugh again.
"Hey!" Spencer exclaim playfully hutting her in the shoulder
"Well I can't have coffee but who's paying for my brownie?" Hanna said
"Umm you are, Hanna" Emily answered and the young girls chuckled once more as they headed back into the brew.
We walk back in and sit down on the table on the corner like we always do
"So speaking of pregnancy.." Emily said and looked at Spencer suspiciously
"What? I'm not pregnant!" Spencer answered defensibly and a little confused to be honest, who would she even be pregnant with?!
"But maybe you'll be soon?..."
"What? Em no! What are you talking about?!"
"Emily wants to ask if you and Toby are banging but she's worried about being too forward, I on the other hand don't have that issue, so did the Spoby express pass through sex town already?" Hanna says quickly and confidently
"omg what is the matter with you guys!?" Spencer exclaimed laughing
"So no then..?" ali said
"None of your bussiness!"
"So basically no" Emily repeated
"We're taking it slow, okay?"
"Why?" Hanna asked
"Well we've both been through a lot"
"Maybe you guys can help each other get over it" ali said
"Trust me sleeping with me will defiantly not help him" Spencer says making emphasis on the defiantly not
"Why not?"
"Its a long story, i- look I've gotta go, see you later" Spencer said standing up and walking away with the coffee in her hand
"Spencer wait" Ali yelled out after her
"Spence we just got here!" Said Hanna then but Spencer was already out the door
"Do you think she's okay? Do you think toby's okay?" Emily asks
"I hope so because if they're not okay, i dont know how we could help them" ali says looking down
"Yeah" both hanna and emily answer sadly
By the time the conversation had come to this point spencer was sitting in her car but she hadnt moved an inch, she just sat there looking out into the streets of rosewood, as many people smiled and laughed and she just sat there, pathetic and alone, she looked over the Hastings and Hastings office and remembered that just a couple days ago her own mother had confussed her for alex in that office, and somehow that triggered the memory of, well of everything, when she was locked underground by her own secret evil British twin, when that same bitch had sex with Toby while pretending to be her, when she went to her best friends' wedding (and ruined it) and it still hurt Spencer so much how she felt like she couldn't talk to anyone about all this, not to the girls, because she can't tell them about what happened to toby, not to her mom because she doesn't wanna make her feel guilty and defiantly not to Toby because she doesn't wanna trigger his terrible memories, she felt like it wasnt over, like alex was still pulling the strings, still had some kind of control over her life, and she didnt even need to come back and do anything else, spencer was still being haunted by what she had already done, she was worried that she'd never get over it, that no one would ever get it, and there was really mothing she can do but go home and cry by herself.
Just as soon as spencer started moving the girls walked out the door, to see her driving away, they all agreed to stop by her place later in the afternoon, since they all clearly saw spencer needed them, well maybe not them but she needed someone and they would be there for her.
Spencer got home to the barn, she went to her bedroom and just balled her eyes out, she hadn't cried about all of this before, she couldn't do it down in the bunker in front of Alex and Ezra for obvious reason an then when she got out Toby had always been by her side, and its not that she didn't appreciate his concern, or that she didn't like hanging out wit him practically all day, because she did, in fact she loved it, she loved having someone who cared so much about her well-being (both physically and emotionally) that he wouldn't dare leave her alone, spencer didn't have anyone else like that and after everything that happened with Alex she didn't think she'd have Toby anymore either, it was still hard for her to believe he still wanted to be around her, that he still wanted to look her in the eye, wasn't he the best? she didn't deserve him.
"Spence?"
"ugh great now im hallucinating him" Spencer exclaimed out loud
"no, you're not" Toby said walking into her bedroom
"Toby! oh my god what are you doing here?" spencer said not facing him so she could wipe the tears from her eyes as she got up from her place in the floor next to her bed.
"Spencer its okay you don't have to pretend like weren't crying" he says walking towards her and wrapping his arms around her, as she turned so that her face layed on his chest
"Im sorry im such a mess- i- i didn't't mean for you to see me like this"
"Shhh its okay"
"No its not im supposed to be stronger than this- I-"
"Says who? Spencer you've been through so much, you need to let it all out"
"I just didn't't want to make you remember, you know her and everything she did to you"
"That's okay, im okay, don't worry about me"
"But Toby-"
"Shh you don't need to talk to me, just cry, just let it all out, and if you want you can tell me how you feel or i'll talk to you, just tell how can i make you feel better" Toby said as they pull away from their hug
"Honestly? I just wanna ball my eyes out and i want you to hold me"
"You got it"
