Ocean & Freedom

I walked along the beach, my life on the line, I had accepted my fate. I was unwanted, not needed. There is no hope for me, the judge gave his word. All I wanted was to be free, as free as a bird, to soar across the sky. Unfortunately, I made a mistake, a grave mistake. What will it be like when I am dead? I don't think anything good will happen, on the contrary why would god let a killer into heaven, I may as well already be in hell. Where did I go wrong? Just because people thought I was simple and went wako, doesn't mean I am. What if I just stayed trapped in my mind, like my mother. All she had to do was slit her throat. No, that was because of my father, hope my work paid off, I wouldn't have risked my life if I knew he had lived.