Chishiya. It's all Sina can think in that moment. He is there, close to her, watching her with those brown eyes. But this time, they aren't cold and condescending. This time, they're smiling at her with warmth in them – and love. The brows of his are raised just a tiny bit, as if he still wants to mock her in that situation, and a smile flickers over his beautiful face.

"You are beautiful, do you know that?" Sina hears her own voice, tense with anticipation and shivering a bit.

Chishiya scoffs and raises one brow even higher. "Sure, I do."

He tucks a strand of blonde dyed hair behind his ear and comes even closer to her face. His hand reaches for Sina's cheek, cupping it in its warmth and she can feel his finger gently caressing her skin. Her nose is filled with his scent – no sweat, no perfume, just his own decent smell that is so vague and still almost too much for her to bear.

Sina has longed for this situation for so long, has ached for the touch of his strong hands with every beat of her heart. And now that she is here, she almost can't believe that it is happening. It feels too good to be real, but she is enjoying every bit of it.

"Arrogant bastard." Sina tries to tease him, but she knows very well that words can't affect a man like him.

"You forgot smart and handsome."

As an answer, he gets a soft punch into his chest from her, and the smile he gives her in return makes Sina giggle.

"Sure, all of it. Whatever you want. I don't care as long as you're here."

His eyes lock with hers, and her heart stops a beat. Sina almost can't believe when he comes closer to her, until the space between their faces is not wider than a piece of paper.

His scent completely fills her nose, the warmth of his skin and his breath on her lips almost drive her crazy. Sina wants this kiss so badly, want it to never end again. She closes her eyes, longing for what's next to come. The grip of his fingers on her cheeks tightens and she inhales deeply, mouth slightly open like Chishiya.

Sina can almost feel the touch of his warm lips on hers, and then – she wakes up.

The room is dark, and she is alone. Chishiya isn't there, only her heart is racing like crazy and she's gasping for air.


Or course it was all a dream.

There is no way this could actually happen, but it has felt so real… When she closes her eyes, Sina can still feel the warmth of his lips and the touch of his hands. It had been so wonderful, and the truth that it will never really happen hurts even more.

She wants to sleep again, wants to return to this wonderful place together with Chishiya. She wants to continue where it had stopped, wants that kiss to finally happen. But it's impossible to sleep again, as Sina is way too overexcited from that dream. And the sky is already turning red, so she can get up and eat something as well.

The breakfast room is still almost empty, because most of the people at the Beach like to sleep long after partying too hard, but there's the only face Sina wanted to see so badly and at the same time didn't want to see at all right now.

Chishiya is standing at the counter and choosing what he wants for breakfast, and Sina feels like she has to faint right here and right now. The memory of her dream won't leave her head, and she can't stop but imagining how he would turn around just now, smile at her and then give her the kiss that has been promised in her dream.

But Chishiya doesn't even twitch a finger as Sina enters the room. He just continues to fill his plate, and she wonders if he will eat it here or take it up to his room, as she hasn't seen him eating with the others until now. He wears a white hoodie as always, the hood drawn deep into his face so only some strands of hair are visible, and from the feint sound of music Sina concludes that he is listening to something with his earphones. Blue and white bathers reveal his trained legs that she can clearly remember from her dream, because Sina has watched them move a thousand times already.

"Good… good morning." Sina says, her voice cracking a bit.

Chishiya lifts his head, probably surprised that someone is talking to him so early in the morning, and takes out one of the ear buds.

"Oh. Morning." He replies, and those eyes have nothing to do with the warm and loving orbs from Sina's dream. They're cold as always, condescending even though Chishiya is smaller than most other men in the Beach.

"How comes you are up so early?" While Sina tries not to stare too much, she wants to take in as much as possible. She wants to watch the movement of his body, the tiniest changes that can be seen in his face when he talks to someone. But she has made a fool of herself in front of Chishiya before, and she'd wish to have a normal conversation with him once.

"I prefer to be prepared for the day." He shrugs while he puts some egg onto his plate, and Sina can't help but wonder where the Beach gets fresh eggs from. She hasn't seen any chicken near the hotel, but the Beach still seems to get access to everything.

"Breakfast is the most important meal of the day anyway, isn't it?" The words sound completely foolish as soon as they leave Sina's mouth, and she busies herself with filling her plate so Chishiya won't see her reddened face.

She doesn't need to see his expression; the chuckling voice already tells her that he is fully aware. "It sure is."

"Chishiya… would you want to share a table for breakfast this morning? I'd enjoy someone to talk to." It costs Sina lots of courage to say those words, and while she shouldn't have been surprised that he shakes his head, it still leaves her heart bleeding.

Chishiya looks into her eyes again, one heartbeat too long to be just casual. His brows furrow just a tiny bit while he seems to read her soul completely with that one look and Sina can't do anything against it.

"I'm not in a mood for small talk today. Sorry."

And then, he's gone. The only thing Sina hears is the sound of his footsteps quickly disappearing, together with her heart shattering into a thousand pieces. Again.