As night arrives, Sina somehow envies the players heading out for a game tonight. The atmosphere at the Beach has been tense since Aguni's announcement, and she has considered taking a walk outside more than once, just to flee the Utopia that might be starting to fall apart.

But she eventually ends up on the roof again, and it doesn't even surprise her. This is the place she always comes to when she needs time to gather her thoughts, and as Sina watches the stars slowly appear on the sky, she even thinks about leaving the Beach permanently. Though she doesn't know if she would be able to leave without Chishiya, or if she'd make it at all.

Sina wouldn't be the first to try, but not many have managed to successfully leave the Beach behind so far. Most of them came back sooner or later, but almost none of them were breathing any longer. Leaving the Beach is treason, after all. And traitors have to face death.

That was Hatter's rule, at least. Will it be the same now with Aguni? Will sticking to the rules save her life? Or will staying here be as dangerous as leaving?

"I knew you'd be here."

Sina doesn't have to turn around to see who is talking to her. Instead she waits for Chishiya to sit down next to her, waiting for the mixed feelings inside of her to decide if she wants to love him or be afraid of him.

"And I sensed that you'd come." She had hoped for it at least, and he's actually here.

As she looks at him, Sina feels all the love and warmth from the tender moments they shared. But she also sees Arisu, who has been Chishiya's puppet and probably didn't even realize that until it was too late. Chishiya didn't use her for his needs for now, but he's capable of doing it at any time – to use people for his own benefit. Sina is no exception after all.

"What happened to Arisu? Is he dead?"

Chishiya only shrugs, and he honestly doesn't seem to care. "Who knows? Niragi was assigned to take care of him, so it doesn't look good."

She sighs and leans against him while she wordlessly asks for his hand to hold. He hesitantly takes it out of his pocket, and Sina can't help but wonder why he is wavering instead of immediately accepting or declining her silent question.

"I think I understand now why you didn't want me to do the job. So… thank you for caring about my life, I guess?"

Chishiya doesn't answer her, but that's okay. Because the way his finger slowly caresses the back of her hand is more than enough proof that he cares. And he doesn't even bother to hide it anymore. Sina doesn't need him to make compliments to her or to approach her with huge signs of affection of his own accord. As long as he's here and as long as there are those tiny gestures that mean so much, it is all fine.

"Anyway, I'm glad you're here now that things are changing. Even though I know that you probably sacrificed that boy for a plan you won't tell me about – I still feel safe next to you. Weird, isn't it?"

Kuina's face suddenly appears on Sina's mind and for the blink of an eye, she feels worry for the woman who has become so dear to her in just a short amount of days. "What… what about Kuina?" she whispers, and she can hear Chishiya chuckle under his breath.

"She's doing fine. And thanks to Arisu, I finally found what I've been looking for."

Whatever that is. "Oh, that's… good? Is it?"

Despite what Sina has hoped, Chishiya doesn't seem to tell her more about the topic. But it's done, so that can't be a bad thing, right?

"Does that mean no more secret meetings and no more dangerous tasks inside the Beach?"

"I suppose so, yeah."

She nods. "Good. So there's nothing we have to worry about tonight, right? Like… can't we sit here and watch the stars until morning comes and pretend that everything's normal?"

"About that…" Chishiya's finger pauses, but he doesn't let go of her hand. Sina feels his body tense instead, in the way that has caused her gut to feel very bad before already. But he doesn't continue to talk, and Sina can't help but feel sick inside of her.

"What? What is it?" She tries to see his face, but Chishiya avoids eye contact. Something he has never done before. Instead, he pulls her into a hug and leaves Sina completely speechless by doing so.

She can't tell why she is starting to cry, and she prepares herself for some mocking comment about her wailing, but it doesn't come.

"I thought coming here would make it easier, but I was wrong. It has only made things worse."

Even though she doesn't understand, she feels ice cold inside. And while she is trying to suppress the sobs, her breaking voice is still hard to understand. "Wha-… what are you talking about, Chishiya?"

"I have never been able to handle emotions, and I never even cared. It should have been easy to just leave the beach and never look back, and yet I had to come up here."

Yet he came to her. To talk to Sina and give her this hug that still leaves her almost breathless. To tell her that-

"Wait, are you… are you saying that you want to leave?"

The way Chishiya talks is what causes Sina to cry helplessly now. There's finally an emotion in his voice, but what follows are not the words she has hoped to hear.

"You have never been 'not good enough'. So please, try to stay alive."

He plants a soft kiss on the top of Sina's head before releasing her from this hug and getting up, and as he turns around and walks towards the glass door, her whole body is frozen. Chishiya walks so slowly, as if he doesn't want to go, yet he doesn't turn around again. He reaches out his hand for the door knob and pauses for a moment, the blonde strands of hair gently moving in the wind.

"Chishiya…?" While the meaning of his words slowly gets through to her, every part of Sina starts to shiver and shake with sobs. For a moment, it looks like he'd come back to her. Pull her into his arms and tell her that everything will be fine now, that he will watch the stars with her and wait until the new day starts. But then, he's gone and the door closes behind him.

This is no confession of his feelings. It is goodbye.

"Chishiya!"

Sina finally manages to move and burst through the glass door, shouting his name over and over again. She searches for the white hoodie, for his blonde hair, his face, anything.

It can't end like this! He just can't leave her now!

Sina has never cared less about the weird looks people give her as she runs through the hallways, bumps into other people and into a wall more than once. And she never stops calling out for him, her voice getting more desperate every time she shouts his name.

"Chishiya. CHISHIYA!"

This can't be goodbye. Sina won't allow him to do this!

The door of Chishiya's room slams into the wall as she carelessly pushes it open. Panting heavily, Sina looks around, hoping to find him here, but the room is empty. It looks exactly like the last time she was here, with some dirty clothes and his selfmade tools lying around. But Sina somehow has the feeling that Chishiya won't return to this room.

You have never been 'not good enough'.

"No! This can't be…" The tears blur her sight and it's difficult to breathe, but no matter how loud she cries, no matter where she runs, Chishiya isn't there. He's gone.

"But… I love you…"

Soon, Sina has no energy left to run. No voice left to shout. Only the tears won't stop running, they keep flowing as she claws her hands into her chest, trying to stop the pain inside her heart. Chishiya has held her hand, has given her a hug. He has finally been able to show feelings for Sina, and yet he's gone…

It hurts so much. Why can't the pain stop? She has had enough! Please, no more pain. No more…

Try to stay alive.

The shaking in her hands is almost too strong to open Sina's own door, but somehow, it still opens. She doesn't know why it brought her to her room in the end. Sina should search for him, even leave the Beach to get to him, and yet she is back in her own room. At least there won't be any spectators to watch her outburst of emotions.

Chishiya isn't here of course, even though a naïve part inside of Sina has hoped that he would come to apologize. Why couldn't he take her with him? She wants to leave too! He didn't even ask her to come with him…

As she's on the brink of a breakdown, Sina catches sight of something that hasn't been here before.

And she cries out in pain as she collapses next to her bed – where on the crumbled sheets lays a neatly folded white hoodie.