EPOV

My wife and I lay together on the bed with our faces close together and our hands on each other's cheek, relaxing and enjoying the glow of our lovemaking, when we both realized something at the same time that could change our lives forever. We were so wrapped up in each other and in our shared sensations that we forgot to take the necessary steps to prevent pregnancy.

Bella's response was to laugh. My reaction was the complete opposite…extreme and all-consuming panic. I jumped up the bed faster than she could probably see and started pacing. I thought about calling Alice or Carlisle, but I didn't even have to wait. Alice called me. I froze in my place, terrified to answer it. Bella slowly got up and answered the phone for us.

"Alice?" she asked softly.

I didn't need the phone to my ear to hear my sister. "Would you care to explain why my vision changed again so quickly to the two of you holding a baby again?"

Bella stood there staring at the phone, her eyes wide. "We forgot." she whispered, still giggling a little.

"And why is this funny, Bella?" Alice asked.

"It's nervous laughter. But mostly because I can't believe we forgot so quickly, especially Edward and his perfect memory. I'm sure it's fine. We know we both want a baby now that we know it might be possible, and most people don't get pregnant the first time, right?"

I groaned. "We're not most people, Bella. Fate always has a way of finding us."

Bella glared at me and I walked over to her, gently taking the phone, and putting it on speaker in front of us so Bella could still hear Alice.

"What did you see Alice?"

"Same as before." she said. "Bella was a vampire and the two of you were holding a baby."

"But how does she become a vampire?" I asked. The answer was beyond obvious and I didn't like it one bit.

"I don't know." Alice answered.

"Did your research find anything yet, Alice?" Bella asked.

"No, but we'll keep looking. Maybe you two should come home early." That, unfortunately, didn't sound like a bad idea.

"No!" Bella shouted. "I'm not cutting our honeymoon short just because I might get pregnant. Even if I were, it's not like I would show signs for a month or so, right?"

"I guess not."

I couldn't take it anymore. I walked out of the house and onto the beach, staring off in the distance. We had been married for a day, and I already screwed up. My wife's life might be in danger because of me. I knew there was no way that a vampire fetus would be compatible with her human body. This had to be how she was turned before the vision, near death.

I wanted to run and destroy things to vent my rage, but I didn't want to scare Bella by leaving her all alone, and I certainly wasn't going to topple a bunch of trees in front of her. I heard her angry footsteps approaching me, but I knew better than to turn around. I locked my eyes on the gorgeous ocean in front of me, its beauty not entirely lost on me even in my despair.

"Edward Cullen!" she shouted. I had never heard Bella so angry at anyone, not even in her thoughts. She was breathing heavily and had her hands balled up at her sides. She had put on a bathrobe at some point.

I turned to face her, but my instincts took over before I could even speak. I grabbed her in my arms more roughly than I intended to and captured her lips with mine after only a millisecond's glimpse at her eyes. It took only another second for her to release her fists and wrap her arms around me, one hand gently tugging on my hair.

"I can't lose you, Bella." I whispered in between frantic kisses. "I'm terrified."

I couldn't stop kissing her, so she reached out to touch my cheek instead. I copied her, still kissing her. I wasn't intending to ever let her go.

You won't lose me, Edward. It's going to be alright.

What if it kills you? I can't go on without you. Just the thought of it nearly sent me into panic attacks.

Alice didn't have a vision of me being harmed, Edward. The vision was us holding a baby.

Whatever it was led to your change though!

Yes, something we agreed to months ago, silly vampire. You worry too much.

A thousand scenarios of Bella getting harmed ran through my head faster than she could keep up with, including many involving pregnancy and things I had learned in medical school. I was shaking.

Edward, stop! Am I in any danger tonight?

No…I reluctantly agreed.

Then stop worrying. If something comes up, we'll handle it together, alright?

I wanted to agree with her, but I couldn't. There were too many frightening possibilities running through my head. Too much risk of danger.

Edward, you aren't intending to leave me alone for more than an hour or two for the foreseeable future. Nothing is going to catch you by surprise that you can't save me from. I promise.

I still couldn't make any sense of anything other than an intense fear of losing Bella.

"Hey, look at me." she said, looking in my eyes with her large, brown ones. "Nothing bad is going to happen. Let's stay here for a week or two and then we'll go home and join the family's research. That will give us plenty of time. Besides, there are six of them looking for information. If it's out there, I'm sure they will find it long before we get home."

I couldn't disagree with her, no matter how much I wanted to. I knew that my family would spend every possible minute searching for information that might help us. I also knew that Carlisle had a large network of friends he could call on.

"Alright." I said, still upset, but accepting that she was safe in my arms tonight. I let go of her all but an arm around her waist and led us back to the house.

"It's a good thing you can't sunburn. You know, standing outside butt naked and all." she laughed. I was horrified. I forgot about that little detail.

I started to walk towards the closet, but she kept an arm around me. "And who said you're allowed to get dressed today?" she smirked.

"Fine then." I said, smiling a little despite my fears. "You neither." I untied her robe easily with one tug of the bow and pulled her close to me as it slid off her shoulders. "So beautiful." I whispered. Her beauty always amazed me and caught me off guard when she was near.

She smiled up at me and caressed my face before kissing me softly. Her lips were so warm and perfect. She blushed as her naked breasts flattened against my chest when I held her tightly. "Doesn't the human need to rest?" I asked. "I would think that twice in one day would leave you sore."

"I am, a little, but it's worth it."

"Isn't there anything you'd rather do on the island?" I asked, raising an eyebrow at her.

"Is there anything I'd rather do than my husband? No, don't think so." she said. "Well, except maybe one thing." She looked at me cutely, innocently.

"Is he good looking at least?" I asked, playing along.

"That depends. Is eating lunch a he?"

I laughed; fears somewhat forgotten for the moment. Bella was always the best possible distraction and helper for my anxieties. "Come on, love. I'll be happy to make you some lunch." I said, leading her into the kitchen.

After Bella had eaten, we sat down on the couch to talk. I wasn't able to hold my calmness for long and she could tell.

"Edward, I don't want this to ruin our honeymoon. What do you really think is going to happen?"

I hid my face in my hands, unable to look at her while I answered. "You might get hurt or…worse."

"That's not what Alice saw though."

"Anything can happen. She saw you as a vampire. What if I'm not fast enough to change you? What if I can't stop drinking your blood? You know what it does to me. And you know her visions can change."

"I do, but it's too late to change what happened now. I'm sorry that we didn't think about it in the moment, but there's no use worrying about it."

"This is what I've been afraid of all along. One forgotten moment, and I could kill you. All it takes is a little too hard of a grip on you, one bite to your delicate skin, a loss of my balance on top of you. And our very first night as a married couple, I've already hurt you."

"You haven't hurt me. And you forgot to mention the risk of you hitting a tree with me in your arms too." she laughed. "We don't even know if anything happened."

"I know our luck." I said. I had no doubts that the worst would happen.

"Edward, what if everything turns out alright? What if Alice's vision is true? You showed me yourself how happy that would make you, and you know how happy it would make me too."

"It would. But I just can't risk you, Bella. You're my everything. You must know that by now." I sobbed into my hands, still not looking at her. I couldn't bear it. Bella wrapped an arm around me and started rubbing my back.

"And you're mine. But I can't possibly believe that anything resulting from our love of each other could kill me."

"Then you underestimate the very nature of me, the monster inside me." As she always had. I was always a danger to her.

"So how about this. Let's assume the best for now, and if we get any indication at all that I might be pregnant or that I'm in harm, then we'll go from there. You know that I'm ready to be changed any time if it comes to that. And we can move in with the family once our honeymoon is over so they can keep an eye on us too, that way you won't even have to leave me alone to hunt because one of them will be with me."

I couldn't speak. I wasn't sure what to say or think. My phone started ringing again. "I'll get it." Bella whispered gently, walking into the bedroom.

"Oh, hi Carlisle." I heard her say. She paused to listen. "We hadn't thought of that actually, I'm sure that will make Edward feel a lot better. Yes, that sounds like a good idea for now. Is it something we can get done nearby?" then a pause. What on Earth is she talking about? "Will it be uncomfortable?" "What do I need to take with us?" "Thank you. I will."

I sat, still frozen in place. "And what was that about?"

"Carlisle wants you to take me to the mainland in a few hours. He's going to try to get me an appointment with a local doctor to have one of those copper IUDs put in. He said it would start working right away and even potentially prevent pregnancy from earlier."

"Why didn't I think of that?!" I groaned and shook my head. Of course, I would miss the simple solution. Me, who had been to medical school a few times and kept up with most of the latest medical journals for Carlisle.

"I wouldn't expect someone who hasn't had to think about sex in a hundred years to know all of the latest contraception, Edward. It still leaves the option open for us to try for a baby later, when we know more about it. I'm not looking forward to pausing our honeymoon for the appointment, but I know we'll both feel better not worrying about it."

"That's an understatement. Are you sure?" I asked.

"I guess it's for the best, until we know more. It's always an easy thing to remove when we're ready. But you have to stay with me for the appointment. I'm nervous."

"I promise. And then I'll show you around the city some. I also promise to be less of an ass the rest of our honeymoon."

"Only less of an ass? Still somewhat ass?" she was giggling, messing with me now that most of the stress could be behind us.

"I'll show you ass, Mrs. Cullen." I said, grabbing her in my arms and holding her close to me, rubbing my hands down her back and across her bottom. I was feeling an intense relief knowing that there was still something we could do to fix this, and that Bella was willing.

True to his word, Carlisle called us back with an appointment time just two hours after the call. I helped Bella dress and we headed to the mainland. I stayed with her the entire time, as promised. Then, I took her to dinner at the nicest restaurant I could find, and I know she enjoyed it immensely despite her protests about the price. We watched the sun set from the boat as I leisurely drove us back to the island to continue our honeymoon.

"I really am sorry, love. I know if you had a normal husband this wouldn't be such an issue."

"Lucky for you, I'm not attracted to normal."

"I hate that we had to take time away from the island so soon for something so uncomfortable for you."

"It's not your fault. I forgot too. We didn't even know this was possible until the last minute. I'm glad that we have such a great family helping us and looking out for what we need."

"Me too." I said. I was incredibly grateful for Carlisle not being afraid to make this suggestion to us. "Are you hurting at all?"

"A little."

"Then how about a night of movies and ice cream?"

"Sounds amazing. I love you, Edward. I told you everything would be alright."

"As I love you. I know. I need to trust you more."

"Except when it comes to remembering things." she added, smiling.

"Well, so much for my perfect vampire memory."

"Your memory is perfect, until your dick takes over."

I growled, aroused. This woman was going to be the death of me. "This is not the time for dirty talk. It's time for me to spoil my wife and apologize for not being more mindful."

"I expect your apology in the form of a banana split tonight and in the form of sex when I feel better."

"Is that so?" I asked, raising an eyebrow at her. "Sex, I can do. Banana splits sound tricky though. How long should I microwave the ice cream for?"

She smacked me. "Ow."

"I'm hard, love. Remember?" I laughed, thinking about that conversation in my car when we found out she was a shield months ago.

"Asshole." she whispered.

"I love you too." I smiled my 'dazzling' smile at my wife. I swore I could physically see her mind going blank. I laughed and docked our boat back at the island.


Author's Note: You know the fun thing about teenagers being frozen in teenage brain? Sometimes they forget little, important details, especially when their dick is doing the talking. Haha! That was actually my mistake not having them use protection, but I like the twist it adds to the story, so we're going to roll with it rather than me going back and editing the last chapter. I think it gives them a little bit of character growth.