Chloe had enjoyed staying at her mums last week. She'd woken in the night and seeing that her mum was right next to her she smiled and felt safe. She'd gone back home to her boyfriends flat the next day he'd happened to come into the bathroom as she was changing and noticed her cuts. "I'm so sorry Chloe." He'd said when he saw them. They'd talked and he'd asked her why she'd cut "I'm not sure Evan. Some of the stuff that me and mum talked about was big, big emotions you know." She just couldn't tell him about the cake. He'd be so disappointed in her "you see Chloe," he said "being round your mum makes you feel these big emotions that scare you and make you feel like that. When you're here I can keep you safe from those thoughts and we can talk through any emotions, you know how talking helps. I think perhaps you should stay away from your mum and Dom. Just for a little while, they will probably bring up thoughts and feelings that are hard to deal with for you."

"But they're my family." Chloe said confused

"I know, but that doesn't necessarily mean that They're healthy people for you to be around. You have me and I hope that one day we can be a family."

"Please tell me that isn't a proposal!" Chloe exclaimed.

"No, not yet." Evan smiled at her "one day I hope" he leaned over to kiss her, she didn't kiss him back. "Chloe?" He asked "I hate when you're like this, when you've been to your mums."

"Sorry." Chloe said and kissed him back. "You're right. If mum or Dom ask me to do something I can just say I'm busy or I'm tired." He was right she knew. Her family made her feel unstable. Evan was better at spotting that than she was. She got too stuck in her own head, he could spot her moods. Help her keep them stable. "Do you want to talk about what happened at your mums?" He asked her.

"I'd rather just watch Netflix or something."

"It helps you to talk, you know that."

Chloe looked at her boyfriend "we just talked about a lot. Dom mainly, why she hadn't told me, his birth, his father, my birth. It was hard to hear, you know, but I'm glad we had that conversation." She finished, she couldn't tell him that she was scared, so she asked her mum to hold her and she'd felt the safest she'd felt in months.

"Did you talk about your father?"

"No"

"Is it not something you'd like to know about? It's a whole half of you Chloe. I think I'd struggle if I hadn't known my father. I know he died when I was 21 but I could tell you so much about him. Like how he once cycled from London to Paris for charity to mundane things like how he took his tea, a spash of milk, half a sugar if mum wasn't looking. I could tell you his favourite jokes and how mad he got when Manchester United we're loosing, what a proud northern man he was. You don't even know your fathers name. I mean you might not even be Scottish?" Evan told her.

"I AM Scottish." Chloe retorted emphasising the am "my mum is Scottish. My grandparents are Scottish. I was brought up in Scotland, therefore I am definitely Scottish. And you know as well as I do that I certainly have the fiery Scottish temperament."

"You have your moments." Evan chuckled which angered her even more, this was not funny to her. He looked at her, as if he was examining every pore on her face. It made Chloe feel uncomfortable so she turned her face away. "Looking at you" Evan began "I'd say you're definitely European. Eastern European, or Russian perhaps."

"I'm not Russian, I hate vodka!" She said sarcastically. "Well that's a sweeping generalisation if ever I heard one," Evan continued undeterred "'maybe Scandinavia or something else Northern European."

"Yes." Chloe replied "I'm Northern European. I'm Scottish."

"Ok,ok." Evan said and changed the subject but it had planted a seed in Chloe's mind. Maybe there was something else within her. Something that would make sense. Ever since she was tiny she'd never felt like she truly fit in. Never 100%. Maybe it would help her to know, know who she was fully. Maybe she'd ask her mum one day. But not now. As Evan had said. She was quite unstable after coming home from her mums.