Chapter 13

There was some silence between them as they had all sat down in Luke's private Chambers at the Jedi Training Center, the two siblings and their mother being totally unsure what to say right now when Padme finally spoke again: „This is very difficult to ask for me, but I really need this question to be answered and you certainly don't have to be easy on me don't worry about that one bit. "

Of course Luke and Leia were totally aware of what question would come now, as they shared a short look with each other trying to figure out who was more qualified to tell her about Dad's death and Luke finally just nodded in his sister's direction.

As he finally faced his mother again, the former Senator took one deep breath and said: "What happened to your dad Anakin Skywalker?" Luke could feel his mother's emotional pain through the force; even if she fought very hard to suppress these painful memories about the sudden change in the man she had loved so much, like the moment when Obi Wan had told her that "her" Anni had mercilessly slaughtered little younglings in the Jedi Temple on Coruscant. Luke quickly focused back on the task at hand as tried to choose his words wisely: "Darth Vader, the name our dad had given himself died after he had saved me from Emperor Palpatine." For a couple of minutes there was awkward silence between them, Padme didn't quite know how to react after hearing this very shocking news and she couldn't help but think if she should be happy that she was right all along because there truly had been some good left in him or should she be sad because of the fact that she would never be able to see the man she loved so much again?

The only person that was to blame for their children to grow up without their real father was: Palpatine, the one person that she had trusted so much in the past because she had thought that he only wanted what's best for the Republic. But as the events that were set in motion by the power hungry Supreme Chancellor were already too late to be stopped, Padme had finally realized how foolish it had been to trust him and maybe all of these bad things could have been prevented from happening if she had only realized that a lot earlier.

But was there in any use, beating herself up for false decision that she had made a long time ago and couldn't take back even if she wanted to? Meanwhile also Leia was experiencing some conflicted emotions: Of course Darth Vader was also her father but she also couldn't get that one other picture out of her head, the ruthless Sith Lord that commanded a big army of storm troopers and had tried to put a fatal blow to the rebellion against the Empire at numerous times.

No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't imagine that this man had really been a Jedi Knight just like Luke long before they both had been born instead she could only see that very menacing looking figure in the black suit being more machine than human. She had tried so hard to keep her guard up, trying to pretend that she would be able to stay strong even now but it kind of seemed to be a losing battle as she couldn't keep her tears from falling down her cheeks. Luke hesitated for a moment, because he still didn't know his mother that much like he was supposed to but then he finally got up from his chair and captured her in a tight embrace of course Padme thought meanwhile: Probably the roles should be reversed but I guess that I'm not invincible.

It took quite a while to recollect herself but then Padme was finally able to speak again as she said: "I don't if I can but I surely want to try my best, making up for the time that you two had to spent without your real mother and it still makes me kind of sad not to have been able to watch you grow up after I've had to give you away."

Thinking about that day, were she had to give her children away into the care of the Jedi Knight Obi Wan after just have given birth to this two wonderful looking twins still made her mood falter a bit because it surely had been a very hard decision for her. All the time after she had woken up out of the stasis she couldn't but think how bad of mother she had been to her children, even if the situation really didn't allow her to watch her two wonderful twins grow up as bad as wanted to.

No matter how life threatening the collapse of the Old Republic might have been, she kept asking herself over and over again: Shouldn't she have searched for a way to go with her children into hiding instead of running away and letting herself be put into a stasis pod for the next couple of years? Maybe she should have but there was no use in complaining about that right now, because unfortunately this was one of the many things that she couldn't take back even if she wanted to and she could only hope that her children would forgive her some day for the things that she had done. Padme surely didn't want to imagine what terrible things Anakin must have done under the orders of this monster Palpatine that had lured her Anni away from the path of the light directly to the Dark Side of the Force. Clearly only one thing mattered to her the most right at this moment:

She finally wanted to be the mother for her twins that she hadn't been able to be all these years, be able to be a part of Luke and Leia's life and she couldn't help but wonder if there was a man in her life that she loved.

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