I'm beyond thrilled to see the response to the last chapter. I'm glad to see you all seem to be enjoying recent events as much as I have.

Matjojo: Nice to see some praise for Gaston. I've loved letting his character grow and seeing how much he's changed.

Derah: This story will stay T. The closest it'll ever get to smut is the previous implied sex scenes like they had with Moana and Tiana, and some brief nudity.

To everyone else: Thank you again, and I'll try to keep providing the same level of content.


What have I done? Her fingers traced along her lips, she could still feel where Elsa had just been. She kissed me back. She stared after Elsa, hoping desperately that she'd return, that they could talk, that she could explain herself. She couldn't just pretend that nothing had happened, not when she'd finally just thrown it all on the table. I should give her time.

She collapsed back onto the couch, her mostly empty margarita glass taunting her from the coffee table. "I blame you," she muttered at it. She didn't. She blamed herself, she hadn't been able to stop thinking about kissing Elsa for months. Of course, when she had the chance with even the slightest excuse, she'd take it. "Elsa," she sighed, tears streaming down her cheeks. "Please don't hate me."

She stared at the wall, trying to will a solution to come to life. There was no way Elsa would ever talk to her again. She kissed back though. Maybe she wants me. But then why would she run off like that? Please say she just needs time. I can't have ruined things with her all over again. I need her in my life.

Blinking away tears, she pulls herself to her feet. Talking to Elsa was the only choice. She could say that it was fine if she didn't feel the same way, that she was sorry, that she wanted to still be her sister. I have to tell her how much she means to me.

As she hesitantly edged along to the stairs, which seemed more daunting than she could have imagined, Elsa's phone rang. It was Tiana. There was the call Elsa had been waiting for. Tiana wasn't ignoring her at all. Anna had just attempted to ruin a perfectly healthy relationship, just because she was head over heels for her sister. I am the absolute worst.

She grabbed the phone, unable to bring herself to answer it. What would I even say to her? 'Sorry I kissed your fiancee. I'll kiss you too if it'll help.' Actually, that might work. She crept up to Elsa's door and knocked on it. After a moment passed with no response, the phone still ringing, she tried pushing it open a crack and peaking in.

Elsa was asleep. Or at least she appeared to be. Anna set the phone on the dresser and retreated from her sister's room. She didn't deserve to be there. She could hear the music from Olaf's game coming from his room. He couldn't see her like this. There was something she needed to do. It would hurt so much, but after what she'd done, there was no avoiding it. She'd cheated on Moana. She deserved better than that.

The realization hit her like a load of rocks. She hadn't thought of Moana this entire time. It only clicked now, probably because she'd given him that game.

She headed back downstairs, crossed into the garage and sat on the hood of Elsa's car. It was unreasonably humid in the confined space, but she didn't want to risk Olaf overhearing anything, and she definitely wasn't up for Elsa hearing it. She needed to call Moana.

Staring at the phone, she made her way to her contacts and clicked on Giselle's picture. Maybe she could give her the courage.

"Hey there. Been a while." There were sounds in the background, she might've been at a restaurant, it was tough to tell. It was still early there, barely even past six, Anna shouldn't have been surprised. "Having fun with your sister?"

Anna choked on nothing, coughing up a fit in reply.

Concern crept into her voice. "Having a little too much fun?" She gasped, her voice sounding distant. "Did you tell her?"

Is she a mind reader? "Kind of."

"How kind of? Just telling her you love her doesn't count."

"I kissed her."

Squealing, Giselle murmured something away from the phone. "You did not. Oh my god I'm so excited for you! What did she do? Is she there now? I want to know every detail."

"She kissed me back."

"Oh my god!"

"And then she ran away." Anna sighed, leaning back against the car. It was nice having someone be happy about it at least, she could barely even focus on how excited she was to have finally felt Elsa's lips on hers, all she could think of was how much she'd screwed everything up.

"Oh."

"What happened?" Another voice asked.

"Huh?" Is that Esmeralda? You have got to be kidding me. Did they actually get together? "Esmeralda?"

"Hey there. Don't worry, it's just her, me, and Jack. Your secret is safe. Now spill. Did she say anything before she ran away?"

Anna glared at the wall. She wasn't trying to be their entertainment; she needed advice and solace. Well, Esmeralda can certainly do both of those as well as Giselle. "She just said that she needed a minute."

"Well, maybe she'll come back. Hopefully wearing a little less. You two could have a lot of fun. I recall you're pretty good with your mouth, make sure you show that off."

Anna's cheeks heated as she did her best not to picture that. "That was over an hour ago. She's asleep. She never came back down."

"Oh."

"That doesn't necessarily mean anything," Jack added. "She might just need to sleep on it. Don't do anything too rash, you can talk about it with her tomorrow, right?"

"Like she'd even want me sleeping in her house tonight."

"Did she say anything like that?" Giselle asked.

"Well, no."

"Then don't assume it."

"Fine. I'll try. You really think things will be any better in the morning?"

Giselle sighed. "I don't know, but I don't think she'll throw you out or anything. She loves you, hell, maybe even in the way you love her. She did kiss you back, after all. Wait until you talk. You can sort everything out then."

Anna nodded, rubbing away some new tears. They're right. I just need to give her some time and some space. When she's ready, we can sort this out. I'm not asking for anything, I just don't want to lose my sister. Not again. "Thanks." She paused, her gaze drifting toward her phone. "Okay, before I go on, I have to know, are you all together now? When did that happen?"

"What? Don't be ridiculous," Giselle spat back.

"We're not all together," Esmeralda added.

"I mean they are, but I'm not dating Esmeralda."

Anna blinked. "Right. Okay."

"You know I'm straight," Giselle insisted.

Esmeralda snickered. "Mostly."

Glad they're having fun. "Okay. I guess that makes sense."

"Something else wrong?"

She nodded, trying to force the words out. She needed to tell someone about it. Maybe then it wouldn't be so hard to tell Moana. "I cheated on Moana. I'll do it again if I have the chance. I need to end things with her, she deserves so much better, and I can't believe I did this to her." Tears pattered her skirt and the car. "She's amazing and I have to break her heart. I hate myself so much right now. I can't believe I did this."

"Anna," Esmeralda began.

"You didn't know." Giselle sighed, the phone crackled as she picked it up. "You didn't think you could be with Elsa, you weren't doing wrong by her, and it was only a kiss. If nothing comes of it, you don't need to ruin something good. Talk to Elsa first, figure out what's happening. I know you love Moana, you don't need to beat yourself up over this. It was just a little mistake."

"So you think kissing Elsa was a mistake?"

"Well, no."

Dabbing at her eyes with her blouse, Anna sighed. "Exactly. I don't either. I will do it again every single day if I'm given the chance. Moana is coming in second every time and I'm not gonna keep doing that to her. It's not fair. I need to end things."

"Just don't be too hard on her," Esmeralda said. "Breakups are tough, don't be like me. I know how much I hurt you there. You say Moana deserves better, so give her better. Be honest, just tell her why you can't work out, that you love her, and that you're sorry. Don't play any games, don't hesitate. She deserves the truth."

"I can't tell her the truth!" 'Oh, Moana, just so you know, I'm cheating on you with my sister. Yeah, I know, it is fucked up. I'm a terrible person. Well, anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I'm dumping you, because I found someone better. Have a good life.' "It was so hard for her to get over her last breakup, and also this may be illegal so I shouldn't tell someone who I'm hurting."

"Come on, she wouldn't be vindictive," Giselle said. "You know her."

"You never know how anyone might react to something like this."

"We were both pretty cool with it," Esmeralda pointed out.

Anna rolled her eyes. "You weren't dating me at the time."

"Fine, don't tell her the specifics, just be upfront about it."

That was what she had to do. Esmeralda was right. Her lip trembled, and she blinked away another bout of tears. "I don't wanna," she sobbed, shaking, wrapping her arms around herself. It hurt so much.

"I know, honey." Esmeralda sniffled faintly. "I know. We'll be here for you though. We promise."

"Whatever you need," Jack said.

"Thank you." She wiped at her tears with her sleeve. "Thank you so much. I needed this. I'm gonna go. I need to sort this out."

"Okay, but keep us up to date," Giselle replied. "We all love you, and even if things don't work out with Elsa, we want to hear about it. You're my best friend, Anna."

"Thanks. I'll talk to you later." She ended the call, willing herself to find the energy to call her girlfriend. The longer she put it off the worse it was going to be.

'Hey, Moana.'

'Oh, hey, honey. How was your day? I've missed you so much. I love you.'

'Um, about that. My day was amazing, cause I finally got to kiss the woman I really love, not you. Yeah, I'm a monster, I'm sorry. Well, just wanted to let you know we're over. Have fun in Atlanta.' She snorted. Yeah, that sounds perfect.

Anna called Nani. At least she'll act like I did something wrong. Maybe I just need to hear that. Once she yells at me and tells me how terrible I am, then I'll be up for breaking up with Moana. I'll feel a lot better then.

"Anna?" Nani asked. She'd answered a few seconds ago, and Anna had forgotten to say anything.

"Sorry. I was kind of lost in thought."

"Did something happen? You didn't try to pull something with Elsa did you? Shit, Anna, what happened?"

God damn it. Can no one give me some credit? Fine, I wasn't able to restrain myself, but they could at least pretend they thought I'd be able to. "Yeah. That's exactly what happened. I kissed her, she kissed me back though, but then she freaked out and ran off. And went to sleep."

"Oh." Nani sighed, and the phone remained silent for a long while.

Here it comes. She's going to give me exactly what I deserve.

"I'm so sorry, Anna." What? "I knew what you were going through, I should've gone with you, or insisted that you weren't ready. There was no way this wasn't going to happen with you spending a month alone with her."

"We weren't alone, and I can control myself!"

"Then how did this happen?"

Well fine, if you want the actual facts I suppose you're right. "We were alone for a few minutes and I kissed her."

"Right." The phone crackled as Nani leaned against something. "I'm sorry, Anna. I should've said something."

"I'm not some natural disaster. I can take responsibility for my own behavior. You don't need to look after me."

"I know," Nani said. "I still always will. You're my best friend, Anna, and you're like a little sister to me."

"Careful, I might kiss you too."

"It's okay. So what can I do to help?"

Great. I really wanted her to yell at me. "What do I do about Moana?"

She paused, sucking in air through her teeth. "Fuck."

"Yeah."

"Ha, you said it, now I get to say it!" Lilo insisted in the background.

"Say it in your room. I need a minute."

"Fine!" She shouted, storming off.

"Sorry about that," Nani continued, her voice flat. "So, what are we gonna do?"

"I need to break up with her."

Nani groaned. "I don't want you to hurt her. Nothing more happened. Just ignore it. You can get therapy like I'd suggested originally. You can move past this and you and she can have the perfect healthy relationship that you seem to have whenever Elsa isn't around. She's perfect for you, Anna. Please reconsider this."

"I cheated on her. It wasn't just a brief slip up, all I can think about is how badly I want to do it again. Yes, I love Moana, I love her so fucking much, but I love Elsa more, and she doesn't deserve this. She shouldn't be anyone's silver medal. She's an absolutely amazing woman and she should have someone who will treat her like it."

"She loves you."

"I know." Anna sobbed, fighting back every instinct to just give into Nani's suggestion. She didn't want to do it. She had only dumped one person before and it had been so painful. Kristoff hadn't deserved to suffer like that either. She'd dragged him along for so long before she finally pulled the trigger. She wouldn't do the same thing to Moana. "Thank you. I feel a lot more confident now. I'm gonna go do it while I still can."

"Anna –"

She hung up. She promptly tapped Moana's picture. She looked so beautiful in it, and so happy. Anna hated what she had to do.

"Hey, honey." Moana groaned as she stretched out in her hotel bed. "I just got in, I was gonna call you in a few. You have a good day with your sister?"

Anna choked, holding back her sob. She had to do this. "Moana –"

"What is it? Everything okay?"

I don't want to do this. I'm so sorry. "Not really. Moana, I can't keep doing this. I'm sorry, I just can't."

"What do you mean? Anna, what are you saying?" The bed groaned as she sat up, her voice sounding panicked.

Anna took in a shaky breath, letting it back out. She tried a couple more times; she needed to say what she'd called to say. "Us. I have to end things."

"Anna? Did something happen? Is it just the distance? I actually just found out that I'm gonna be in New York for a night, well, Philly, but I thought I could come visit. I'm sorry I'm not around more, I know it's tough."

Blinking away tears, Anna shook her head. "It's not the distance. You haven't done anything wrong, you're amazing. I'm so sorry, but have to do this. I love you, but I have to break up with you." It hurts so much. She doubled over, her belly felt like it had a million pins stabbing into it. I hate this.

"Anna –" sobbing, her voice cracking, she implored her. "Anna, please. Tell me what's wrong. We can get through this."

"I can't. I'm so so sorry."

"Anna – I love you."

"Goodbye." Barely managing to hit the end call button, Anna dropped the phone, the tinny sound of it hitting the hood of the BMW echoing through the garage. She'd done it. It was over with. Now she could just lean back and cry until she couldn't cry anymore.

It took a little under an hour. I guess that's all Moana was worth to me. I just sat there for an hour after Elsa, but for Moana — she checked her phone — I just lasted 43 minutes. God, I'm the worst.

Wiping at her eyes, she made her way back inside and poured herself the rest of the blender of margarita and snatched up a chocolate croissant. Elsa bought this for me. She cares so much, and all I can do is hurt everyone.

The couch accepted her when she collapsed into it, not bothering with the TV. She ate her pastry and drank in silence. She wished there'd been more of the margarita left. She didn't even feel buzzed by the time she finished it. I should just go grab another bottle of something, her cheapest alcohol, I don't want to steal any more than I already have.

Instead, she found herself on her feet. There was one more conversation that she needed to have. She just had absolutely no idea how to do it.

On the fourth knock, Olaf opened his door. "Hi, Mama," he said, looking up at her. "I was just about to go grab the charger, anyway. Are you okay?"

I must look awful right now. She shook her head and sat down on his bed, gesturing for him to join him. "We need to talk about something."

"What is it? Did something happen?" Staring up at her, he reluctantly took his seat. "Why do you look so sad?"

Just like with Moana, I just need to get it over with. "I broke up with Moana."

"What?!" His eyes went wide, his mouth hanging open. "Why? Did she do something wrong? Did I? Do I have to give her back my game? Does this mean I won't see her again?" His lower lip protruded, tears streaming down his face. "Mama?"

He takes after me so much. "You didn't do anything wrong, and neither did she. We just weren't working out." I will not vent to my son. "I'm sorry. I just wanted to let you know. I know how close you two were."

"But I was gonna watch more Star Trek with her! And we were gonna take over the quadrant. What happened? Can't I still see her? She could still babysit, right?"

Anna blinked away her own tears. Esmeralda babysits now. I guess anything is possible. "I don't know, Olaf. Probably not anytime soon, but maybe eventually. I wish that you didn't have to suffer for my actions."

"What did you do? Can't you say you're sorry? I'm sure she'd forgive you."

The worst part is, he's right. She probably would. She's kind of awesome like that. I don't deserve her. "I'm sorry, Olaf. Do you want me to leave you alone or should I stay here for a while?"

"Please tell me what happened!" He bit his trembling lip, trying to hold back his tears. "Mama, I don't understand."

"I know, honey. I'm sorry for that too." She ran her fingers through his tangled blond hair, pulling him to her. "I'm so sorry."

He clung to his mother, sobbing against her shirt. "I thought she was gonna be my new mom."

That would imply she's replacing an old mom. Is he getting rid of me? "I know." She pulled him tight, grateful for his comfort and trying to give him as much back as she could. "I thought so too. I'll explain it all someday, but for now, just know that it wasn't her fault."

"You promise?" He pulled back, tear-rimmed eyes peering up at her, desperate for any solace she could give.

"I promise. I'll tell you eventually, and she absolutely did nothing wrong." I'm not sure which he was asking. She patted his head, her tears falling onto him and the bed.

"Okay. I guess I can wait." When he pulled away, his face was etched in tears and snot against her blouse. "But you have to do it eventually!"

"I know. I promised I would."

"Okay." He heaved out a sigh, nervously meeting her gaze. "Can I have more chocolate?"

Anna rolled her eyes but climbed to her feet. She'd put him through enough today, who was she to deprive him of some chocolate? "Of course, honey, there're still a few more croissants. I'll get us both one."

They sat together for a long while, enjoying their croissants, but not saying anything more. "Do you think she'll miss me?" Olaf asked after a long while, crumbs flecking his face as he turned to her.

"I know she will. I'm sure she'll be begging to babysit you someday. You were very special to her. You're a wonderful kid, Olaf. I'm so lucky to have you." Whatever happens, I'm not forgetting that. Moana wasn't coming in second, she was coming in third. Olaf will always be most important.

"You really think so?"

"I know so. You're the coolest kid I know."

He beamed up at her, tears still glistening on his cheeks. "Thanks, Mama. You're really cool too. I'm glad you're my mom."

Fuck, I needed that. At least someone's glad to know me. Holding back tears, Anna smiled down at him. "Thank you, Olaf. I'm so glad you think so."

"Of course, I do. You look after me and give me chocolate and play Star Trek with me. I don't know what happened to make you so sad, but you're a great mom. The best."

Leaning against his wall, she nodded, a faint smile tugging at the misery she'd thrown herself into. "Only because I have the best son." If I had Lilo, I'd be a terrible mom. I can't even imagine. Olaf is just so easy to look after, he takes zero work.

"Lilo said so too, she wishes you'd adopt her, but I think she was just mad at Nani then. She loves you though."

Anna chuckled. "That's fair. I love her too." I guess she's not that bad.

"Good." He hugged her again and grabbed his Switch. "You think Moana will be mad at me for still playing her game?"

Smiling at her sweet, absurdly caring son, Anna shook her head. "Of course not. Play it all you want. I'm gonna go grab the charger for you. Do you want the whole cradle?"

He nodded. "Will you set it up for me?"

"Sure."

She splashed water on her face, wiped her nose, and then grabbed the stuff for Olaf's Switch. No matter how much she was screwing up, she could still be a good mother to him. Once she'd set it up, he jumped back into his game and she decided to stay with him. She didn't entirely want to be alone right then, anyway.

She managed to stay awake to watch him beat a boss and earn a new subclass before the music lulled her asleep. She didn't wake up until he finally stopped the game and hugged her. "I'm going to bed now, Mama."

"Make sure you brush your teeth."

"Do I have to?"
Anna rolled her eyes, wiping away sleep. "Yes, you have to. Go get ready for bed. I'm gonna do the same. You have a good night, Olaf. Sweet dreams."

"You too, Mama." He hugged her again. "I'm sorry that you had to break up with Moana, but I'm sure it was for a good reason."

"I hope you're right. Now go brush your teeth."

"Fine," he grumbled.

"With toothpaste."

Groaning, he closed the bathroom door behind him, and Anna slipped out of his room. As an adult, she could justify skipping her nightly routine once in a while. She fell face-first into bed, too exhausted to even undress, and fell asleep on top of the covers. It had been a very long day.