-Chapter 7-Day 6-
-Rachel pov-
I've been under suicide watch for extra time now. It's been 3 days since the overdose but with mom in here they want me to stay. I think they are afraid that I'd do something. They wouldn't be too far off. I still have that urge...the urge to just pop the pills in, the urge to slice myself, the urge to just jump...
"Rachel?" I look to my right and see Quinn holding Beth "Beth wanted to say hi to her sister"
"Hi Bethy" The little girl laughs and I smile "How are you?"
"I don't think she ca~"
"How are YOU Quinn?" I get a oh from Quinn and then silence "You've has Beth at your home even though you weren't supposed to...you don't have to feel guilty"
"She told me not to be near Beth and she got hit" Quinn sighs "I don't feel guilty about Beth...I feel guilty about all of this happening! You wouldn't be here if I hadn't done anything bad and Shelby would still be fine!"
"Maybe" Quinn looks at me confused and I continue "We have no clue to tell if Shelby would still be ok or not...maybe something else would've happened to her or even me! We can't understand why things happen sometimes...we just have to accept them...like I accept I'm selfish and egotistical"
"But you aren't!" I jump at Quinn yelling "Brittany is right when she talks about you! God does the girl not shut up about liking you!"
What did she just say? "Brittany likes me? I mean yeah she's my friend I guess but" I see Quinn's eyes go wide and it clicks in my head what she means. Beth looks at us chewing on her fingers "She likes me more then a friend doesn't she?"
"I wasn't supposed to say anyth~"
"Hey!" We both jump at Brittany walking into the room and Beth reaches out "Why so jumpy?"
"I-we aren't jumpy!" Brittany looks at me with narrowed eyes "What?"
"You aren't silent unless you're too deep in thought or are hiding something" Brittany looks at Quinn with a glare "What did you say?"
"W-w-why do you think I said something?!" Quinn stands up with Beth quickly "I have to Uh...I have to go out Beth down for a nap!"
"It's past Beths nap time" Quinn looks at me fore help and Brittany walks up to us more "What are you two hiding?"
"She's awake!" We all turn to the door and look at the out of breath Santana "Judy just sent a message and I came here...Shelby is awake!"
I feel my whole body freeze. Mom came back to me. I look at Brittany and point to the wheelchair. They quickly get me in and lead me to Shelbys room. When we get in there I immediately feel something off.
"Oh hello!" Shelby looks at us confused "Do I know you?"
"Mom that's not a funny joke" When I see confusion spread across her face my heart drops "You remember me right mom?"
"I-I'm sorry" My mom doesn't remember me...one of my reasons for being here is gone "The doctor said I'd probably have some memory issues for a little bit of time"
"W-What do you remember?" She bites her cheek in thought "If it's not too much trouble!"
"I remember Judy over here" Shelby smiles at Judy "She's my best friend!"
"That's great" I wheel myself backwards "That's real great"
I start wheeling myself out of the room quietly. I don't think anyone noticed. I wheel myself toward the elevator and push the button. It stops and opens for me to get on. I'm about to wheel on when I get stopped.
"Hell on wheels huh?" I look back at Santana "How about we turn around and back to your room yeah?"
"No" She raises a eyebrow and I look back at the now closing elevator "My mom is gone now...she can't remember her daughters and I just lost another reason to live"
"Then don't" I look back at Santana shocked "I know I've fucked up but if you honestly think life is this bad and nothing can save you then end it! Come on I'll tie your sheets for you"
I get pushed to my room quickly as running is also heard. Santana brings me to my room and starts tying sheets together. She gets it secured to the ceiling and looks at me.
"Come over here and do it" I look at Santana like she's crazy "Come on you have nothing to live for then there should be no problem doing it! So just fucking hang yourself!"
"I can't" I feel tears spring to my eyes "I-I can't hang myself"
"Why not?" Santana walks up to me "Didn't you say you have nothing to live for?!"
"Santana What the hell?!" I watch Brittany push Santana away "I thought you were changing!"
"I am!" She points at me "I'm helping my friend! She doesn't wanna live so I won't make her!"
I look at the bed sheet hanging in front of me "I can't" The girls look at me and I just continue breaking down in my chair "I wanna live! I wanna live for Beth! I wanna live for my mom! I wanna live for Brittany!"
I feel arms get wrapped around me "I knew you had something to live for" Santana wipes my tears and smiles "Now how about you take a nap while I go see about getting you a snack"
I nod and let her help my from my chair to the bed. I lay down and slowly just let sleep take me. Crying is exhausting.
-Brittany pov-
"She knows" I look at Santana confused "She knows you like her"
"Yeah I'm her frie~"
"She knows you like her more than that" Santana looks at me with a smirk "Isn't that right Barbie doll?"
"It was a accident" I look at Quinn in the door way "It just came out when she was saying depressing stuff!"
"I think we have good news though" I look at Santana again who's still smirking "She said she wants to live for you! Doesn't mean that she likes you too?"
"You can live for a friend" I walk past Quinn in the door way "I'm going to get Rachel's snack"
"Brittany come on" Quinn grabs my wrist stopping me "She was going to find out sometime! Why are you acting like this?"
"What if I told Santana how you felt on 'accident!'" There's two different gasp as I slowly register what I just said "Quinn it really was a accide~"
Smack!
"You bitch!" I hold my cheek where Quinn just slapped me "I really did let it slip! You just let it out because you're a fucking bitch!"
Quinn runs out of the room crying. I look at Santana who looks in frozen shock. I look at the doorway and see Judy in the same way. Oh boy this may not end well.
"She likes me?" I sigh and nod "Like how you like Rachel?"
"Yes San" I look at her and sigh again "She has for a while now"
"I got to go" Santana starts running for the door but stops beside me "Don't forget a snack for Rachel"
I watch Santana run out the door "My daughter is a lesbian?" I cringe and nod at Judys question "How long?"
"About three years" Judy sheds some tears "Are you ok?"
"My daughter was so scared of my reaction to her being lesbian that she didn't tell me" Judy shakes her head and wipes her tears "Am I that horrible of a mother?"
"No" I walk over to Judy and put my hand on her shoulder "She's just scared that you'll be disgusted by her...it's not that your a bad mother! It's that she's Just afraid of everything"
"I have some things to think about" Judy gives me a smile "Thank you for talking with me Brittany"
Judy walks away and I frown. What have I done? I just ruined my friends life. I go to the closest vending machine and try and look for something vegan. It's to no avail.
"Well hello beautiful" I look beside me at some old guy that's smirking "What are you here for?"
"A girl I like almost dying" I start walking away from him "Now leave me be"
"Not so fast" He grabs my wrists "Why don't I show you what you are missing out on?"
"I'd advise you to let her go" We both look behind him and see Santana with Quinn "We won't say it again"
"I ain't scared you you two!" He chuckles and turns back to me "Now how about we leave"
"She's not going anywhere with you jackass" We all go wide eyed at Judy who angrily walks over with security "That's the man harassing this young girl!"
"Come with us sir" The guys grab him away from me "We'll take out the trash"
The security takes the creep away from us. I look back and see Quinn looking at Judy. They both have tears in their eyes. One is obviously scared and the other is trying to hide it more.
"So you like Santana huh?" Quinn nods and Judy smiles before looking at Santana with a glare "You bear treat my little girl with care"
"So you aren't gonna kick me out?" Judy looks at Quinn and shakes her head. Quinn runs and hugs Judy "I'm so happy to hear that!"
"I will never kick you out again" Judy pulls Quinn back and smiles "I love you sweetie"
"I love you too mom" Quinn turns toward Santana "So I guess I can introduce you to my girlfriend"
"You two are dating?" They nod at I look at both of them "That quick?"
"We've seen how everything can be quickly ended" Santana walks up to Quinn and grabs her hands "We will go on a date but who am I to turn her down"
"So I'm not getting snacks?" We all jump at Rachel standing beside us "What?"
"You aren't supposed to be walking around!" I pick her up and walk back to the room "You are supposed to get wheeled around or stay in bed!"
"Oh come on!" Rachel wiggles her way back into the ground "I'm perfectly able to walk!"
"Hey I hate to interrupt your argument here but I have a very important question!" We all look at Santana "Where the hell is beth?!"
We all quickly run around the hospital. We don't find her anywhere. We all meet up at Shelbys room and stop. Inside Shelby is playing with Beth on the bed.
"You're so beautiful!" Beth giggles as Shelby tickles her "I can't believe I get to have you as a daughter!"
"Yes she does" I look down at Rachel who is frowning "Maybe she'll be your only good daughter"
"I always said if I had a girl I'd name her Barbara!" Rachel looks up at Shelby. Shelby is smiling at Beth who just is watching the older woman "But I'm also a fan of friends so maybe Rachel would be a bad idea too!"
"Even out of it she still thinks about you" Rachel wipes some tears away as I pull her close "We will work on bringing your mom back"
"Thank you Britt" Rachel holds backs you and holds her arms out "I'll let you carry me"
"Good" I pick her up and smile "You didn't really have a choice"
"Now can I get snacks too?" I groan and Rachel laughs "I'm hungry!"
"I'll talk with the Doctor to see what we can do" Rachel smiles brightly at me "You think I'd let my favorite girl go hungry?"
She shakes her head no and we walk to her room. Now to get her some food.
-Time skip- Santana pov-
"Five bucks they both fall out of the bed tomorrow" I look at Quinn "Twenty they kiss"
"Thirty they don't do either and just scream" I think before holding my hand out and she shakes "We got ourselves a deal"
I look back at the girls asleep in front of us. Gummy bears and gummy worms all around them. They have these nurses and doctors wrapped around their fingers. I really need to learn their pout skills.
I sit down in a chair beside the bed and Quinn follows suit. We cuddle together and join the other two in falling asleep. Life is exhausting.
