-Chapter 21- Sunbathe and call-

-Rachel pov-

Today's been a day to say the least. I tried out for the solo but I didn't get it. They gave it to Sebastian. I don't wanna be mad at him but I really wanted that solo. I wanted to prove myself to these guys.

I'm standing by my car when I notice a familiar truck pull up. He wouldn't really be stupid enough to break restraining order. Sure enough Noah Puckerman pops out of the truck. I get my pepper spray ready just incase.

"Hello Rachel" I don't respond back to him with anything besides a glare "I see you are still mad"

"You put a bandage on my face and a scar underneath!" He rolls his eyes and I just sigh "What do you want?"

"I want you to please talk with Shelby!" I raise an intrigued eyebrow at his begging "I miss my daughter and I wanna be in her life again!"

"You ruined that on your own Noah" I shake my head "I'm not talking to her"

"Why do you have to be such a fucking bitch?!" Noah takes a angry step towards me "You couldn't have just left all of our lives alone could you?! You deserved everything that's happened to you! You're unbelievably ugly and that scar was probably the coolest thing you'll ever have on you! If only you'd put out maybe guys wouldn't try to tie your arms down!"

"You stand back right now Noah" He takes another step closer and I get the mace ready "I'm warning you"

He doesn't and I spray him in the eyes. He grabs his eyes and starts screaming in pain. The screaming causes some of the guys in the lot to notice what's going on. Soon I have angry warblers running over to get Noah.

"Oh hell no" Jeff runs over "This bitch thinks he's cool huh?"

"My fucking eyes!" The guys stop and look at him confused "God I can't fucking see!"

"I told you to just stand back" He growls and blindly swings at me. He barely misses "I will spray you again"

"I got a better idea" Santana punches him and makes him fall down to the ground "I'll beat his ass instead"

"Call the cops" Nick stands in front of Santana "He's breaking restraining order and he will be arrested"

"Ok" Santana looks at Quinn whole Brittany wraps her arms around me "Call them while I beat his ass"

"No Santana" she looks at me and I shake my head "Please"

"Alright" Santana steps back "For you"

"I need up" The Warblers look at each other with a smirk "Hello?"

"Oh we'll help you" Sebastian walks over with a slushy cup "This should help those eyes"

He dumps the cup on Noah's head. This starts another bout of cursing from the boy. I just lean into Brittany more as the sirens come closer. The cops arrive and we explain it all.

After that fun experience I'm sitting in passenger side while Santana drives me home. When we walk in the door I'm pulled into a huge hug by Shelby.

"I'm so glad you're ok!" She pulls back and gives me a smile "Nice use of the pepper spray"

"I'm glad I remembered it" She nods and walks back into the house "Wheres everyone else?"

"Maribel is working on date plans and Judy is enjoying the sun" Shelby picks up Beth from her playseat "Wheres the other half's?"

"They said they had to get somethings" Mom nods and sits on the couch "Lets go upstairs and find your duet song"

Santana follows me upstairs to my room. I walk into the room and the door is closed behind us then locked. I turn and see a dangerous look on Santana's face. I gulp as she steps toward me.

"You are going to stay quiet and listen understand?" I nod and she stops right in front of me "You are going to agree to what Brittany suggests! There will be no and I mean NO! Disagreement on your end understood?"

"Y-y-yes" I look at Santana confused "What is she suggesting?"

"You'll find out" She backs away "I'm sorry I got like that but...it'll help you and me heal"

I nod and point to my music stuff. We start looking at music but I can't fully focus. What is Brittany going to want to do?

-Time skip-

It's been a hour now when Brittany burst through my door. Luckily Santana unlocked it after Shelby knocked on it earlier. I look at her and get nervous when I see the huge smile.

"I have the best idea!" I give her my full attention and she goes on "Let's sunbathe!"

I feel my stomach start turning. It's one thing to swim with them but to be naked and sunbathe? I take a deep breath and let it go. Santana is right though. I need to be able to feel good about myself and this would help.

"I think that is a great idea" Brittany smiles brightly "Let's get sunbathing then!"

Brittany cheers as she runs out "You did good Rach" I look over at Santana who looks panicky "It's a way to let it all out there and try to be comfortable in your own skin"

"Yeah" I look at her and put a hand on her shoulder "You are going to be right there beside me looking fantastic"

She smiles and we head after Brittany and Quinn. When we get outside we see the moms already in their spots. We walk past them and I look at my chair. I look over at San who nods. We take off our shirts first then slowly everything else follows.

"Oh midge" I look over at Santana and see tears "Y-you wrote that?"

I look at my hip and see the scar. It's bad from the healing but it reads 'man hands'. I forgot about cause I did it so long ago. Im pulled out of my thoughts by Santana hugging me.

"I'm so sorry I ever said those mean things to you" She pulls back and makes me look at her "You are so beautiful and definitely don't have Manhands! You're one of the most female looking people I know!"

"Thank you San" I look at her scars "There's more than I thought"

"Years of doing it tends to leave scars" We both smile at each other "After you"

I start to lay down but I'm pulled into a hug. I look and see it's Quinn hugging me. I wrap my arms around her. She's holding me like I could blow away.

"You're so beautiful" She pulls back and looks me in the eyes "You are so strong like Santana and I'm proud of you two for doing this"

"Thanks Q" She nods and backs away. I look over at Brittany who is shifting on her feet "You won't hurt me if you hug me"

"I know" She slowly walks up and traces over different scars "I'm sorry I never helped you...I could've prevented this from happening"

"Britt there's no changing the past" She looks at me hurt and I grab her hands "The past is filled with bad but that bad also gave me you and the good that's come with it! I'm not saying I should try jumping off a roof for you again but I'm glad I got you"

"I'm glad I got you too" She gives me a tight hug with some spilled tears "You look so beautiful clothes and none"

"She gets it from her mom" We chuckle at Maribels words as she smiles at us "I'm glad you all could join us"

"I am too" I look back at the girls "Now let sunbathe"

We lay for about a hour before my phone goes off. I get up and take it in the house. I look don't look at the number and just answer.

"Rachel?" I feel my body go stiff "I'm using my free call to say...to say I'm sorry..what I did was wrong and I accept that I deserve what all's happened...I just wanted to call and tell you I'm sorry and I hope you live a good life"

I don't even register how long I stand there holding my phone. I feel arms wrap around me and pull me close. I just let them hold me close to them.

"You ok babe?" I look back and see Brittanys worried expression "Who was it?"

"Finn" She narrows her eyes and I give her a soft smile "He apologized and said he hoped I had a good life...he said he understood that he is getting what he deserves"

"Sounds like the few days in jail is doing him good" I nod and Brittany leads me toward the back door "You gonna be ok?"

"Yeah" I take a deep breath and give her a kiss on the lips "I'm gonna be great"

-Brittany pov-

I watch Rachel walk back to the girls. I look down at my phone and sigh. I delete the voice app and walk back to the girls. She needed that.

"Britt and I are going to get the drinks" I'm pushed back in the house by Santana and thrown onto the couch "The fuck did you just do?!"

"What do you mean?" Santana's face is full of anger "San?"

"Don't 'San?' Me!" Santana growls and points outside "That girl thinks Finn apologized but I know for a fact he already used his call to leave a threatening voicemail! You know that too!"

"She's carrying the weight of him being in there on her shoulders Santana" I sigh and drop my head "I just want her to be ok"

"Well now we have to tell her the truth!" Santana goes to walk outside but I tackle her "Get off me!"

"You can't tell her!" Santana pushes me off but I trip her. Her head bounces off the coffee table "Oh god San!"

"Oh my head!" I go to you her but she smacks my hand away "You really wanna go this far to lie to your girlfriend?"

"I-I-I" I look outside at Rachel smiling with Quinn "No"

"You have one week to tell her or I do" Santana walks to the kitchen and grabs some drinks "Catch"

I catch some water bottles and pop that she throws. She walks outside and I follow behind. She gets asked about her head but says she slipped on a wet spot. I shake my head and open my Pepsi.

I really gotta figure this out. Tell Rachel the truth and risk losing her or let Santana tell her and really lose her?

I'm fucked..